Everyone has their limits

There’s something about being stopped by the police right next to your home, for the ‘crime’ of taking an early morning walk around the block, that I thought fell within the 100 meter boundary, that can put a person in a really strange mood.

That happened to me this morning – the policeman told me that I’m just meant to come out of my house to gulp in a breath of fresh air, then turn tail and head back into prison and ze hoo.

I came home feeling so claustrophobic.

I came home feeling like I can probably do this whole ridiculous lockdown prison thing for another week, and then I will go nuts.

How that’s going to look, I have no idea, but when you know that my grandmother was regularly tied to her hospital bed to prevent her from escaping – even with a broken hip – then you know I have a deep need for freedom it in the genes, mamash.

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In the meantime, I had a tough day today mentally.

I was just feeling like bad always wins, and that I’m trapped in an Orwellian nightmare that just seems to be intensifying – because so many of us are lying to ourselves about the fact that the medical profession is not all-powerful, and that we’re not really in control of ANYTHING, let alone COVID-19 – and today, I just felt pretty down and beaten by it all

What can a small person like me really do, to fight bad?

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But then, my friend Chana sent me this video to watch.

A couple of days ago, she called me up to check that she hadn’t gone totally froot-loops herself, because she’d heard shofar sounds coming from the Jerusalem night sky:

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I tried to reassure her that if she’s crazy, then I’m also definitely crazy (not sure how reassuring that was….)

Because in Succot 5776 (2015), when Rav Berland said that we’d hear the shofar hagadol announcing Moshiach on the first day of chol hamoed Succot, me and my husband heard precisely that…. He ran in from the Succah to tell me what was going on, and he opened the window so I could catch the last minute.

It was awesome….

And I really felt it was the shofar hagadol, as it really didn’t sound like anything else I’d heard before. But then, Moshiach apparently didn’t come, and I’ve wondered about what we really heard ever since.

Until I heard this video.

What I heard with my husband was very similar, especially the last minute of it when it seems to become more ‘musical’.

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Geula IS happening people!

Hold on, because the bad is putting the choke hold on us right now, and all our mitzvoth, precisely because it’s on its last legs.

BIBI, YOU WILL NOT MAKE ME FAT!!!

Whatever else happens, I am just going to switch my exercise routine from walking to the Kotel to dancing in my house, and smashing the heads of bad with my dancing heels.

Your time is SO OVER, all you bad boyz…

In the meantime, pass me a beer. Or something.

It’s been a tough day.

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3 replies
  1. Rachel in NY
    Rachel in NY says:

    How do the police know how far someone has walked? Do they have enough manpower to have such careful surveillance on each person from the time he or she leaves home? If so, that is really so so scary. But if they have that many police available, they couldn’t spare 5 to guard the Rav on house arrest so he could be released and go home already? So frustrating! I am excited to hear about the shofar blast, though! We need some good news.

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    • True Tzadikkim
      True Tzadikkim says:

      Bs”d
      Only on SHOMER MITZVOT YEHUDIM.
      But the MOAH that serve HAKADOSH BARUH HU B ERETZ YISRAEL is what will last and survive Gg u MGg milchamah. Od mead and all the klipot are gone!
      Say amen plz, that it will happen!

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