Blue and White’s Yoaz Handel complains in the Knesset that the police aren’t doing ‘enough’ about Rabbi Berland.

When I tell people that Rabbi Berland was deliberately framed by a bunch of secular-minded politicians, policemen and bureaucrats who are in cahoots with the US Reform movement to try to break the ‘strangle-hold’ of orthodox Judaism in Israel, they don’t believe me.

But how else, then, can we explain that Yoaz Handel, a Blue and White politician, got up in Knesset yesterday to complain that the authorities weren’t doing ‘enough’ about Rabbi Berland?

Never mind, ongoing issues down South on the Gaza border, ongoing issues with Iran and it’s nuke, ongoing issues with Hezbollah and Lebanon.

What is Yoaz Handel worrying about at night?

Rabbi Berland.

You can see the video of him making his comments in the Knesset below:

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Curious person that I am, I decided to explore a little more about Yoaz Handel. Here’s what I learned.

  1. He’s a journalist with a regular column for the notorious, Charedi-hating website ynet.news.

In the past, he’s also worked for Channel 10, and had a talk show on Army Radio with Nitzan Horowitz, who Wikipedia describes as:

[T]he head of the Meretz party and the Democratic Union and is currently an MK. He previously was the chief U.S. correspondent and commentator for the Israeli News Company, known as Channel 2 News.

Lest we forget, Ynet has brought us many horrendous pieces of incitement against Chareidim, including this, by Yaron London, published shortly before Yesh Atid got into power 7 years ago and began its war of terror against the Torah world – including taking down as many ‘big’ rabbis as it could.

2. Until elected an MK in April, he was also heading up something sinisterly called the Institute for Zionist Strategies. The IZS was set up by one Israel Harel, who is currently writing columns for Haaretz. Here’s a flavor of what he writes:

The glue that unites the liberal religious majority groups and the Hardali minority is the battle for the Land of Israel. To succeed in this battle the majority wing, even if it had to grit its teeth, made peace with the suffocating walls of Haredization (increasingly stringent Orthodoxy).

Now, when the rabbis of the Union of Right-Wing Parties are changing the order of priorities and bringing halakhic prohibitions (based on religious law) to the top of the agenda, the majority wing is reaching the limits of its ability to be inclusive. The majority wing is disgusted by the battle against “perverts,” opposes the rabbinic prohibition against the enlistment of religious girls in the army and is infuriated by halakhic rulings forbidding women to participate in politics and public life.

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You got that???

It’s the haredim, and all those pesky halachas, that are making the right-wing religious Zion unelectable.

The more I look into this, the more I see how many prominent members of the Anglo Modern Orthodox camp seems to be in the front lines of hating chareidim, in Israel, and obviously Rabbi Berland is at the top of their list.

Why is this? What is so threatening to them about the chareidi lifestyle that they are happy to join forces with groups and people who are clearly anti-Torah and pro-immorality in some horrible ways? I had the same question when I was writing about the Ortho-Fems a while back, and yes – the Ortho-Fems are in this mix as well.

Also working at the Institute for Zionist Studies is one Miri Shalem, resident of Bet Shemesh, and recipient of prizes from the New Israel Fund.

If you go here, you’ll find a PDF setting out how Miri Shalem is the New Israel Fund’s ‘go to’ person for when they want to tour around RBS, and get a close-up of all the ‘disgusting haredim’.

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I could go on (and on and on…) but hopefully, are you starting to see that the people who are continually harping on about Rabbi Berland being a ‘problem’ are the exact same Reform-backed journalists and politicians who went after the Torah world 7 years ago?

These people blatantly framed Rabbi Berland for crimes he never committed, and are now trying to use their lies as a reason for further suppressing the Torah world.

Can you see this?

And can you also see that so many of the leading lights in the modern orthodox world – in particular the Ortho Fems – are really just a Trojan horse being used by organisations like the New Israel Fund and Reform to attack the Torah world in Israel?

For example, this Ortho Fem is currently suing Ikea in Israel – together with the Reform movement. According to Haaretz:

The case was filed by Hannah Katsman, a modern Orthodox woman from the central Israeli town of Petah Tikva, and the Israel Religious Action Center — the advocacy arm of the Reform movement in the country.

After discovering the catalog in her mailbox, Katsman alerted the center, a leading advocate in the battle against gender discrimination on religious grounds.

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Ooooh, what a brave fighter for womens’ rights!!!

I went on to this woman’s website a couple of months ago to see if she’d written anything about Jeffery Epstein trafficking and assaulting countless underage women, or about his associate Les Wexner, a big Reform philanthropist funding a whole bunch of ‘interesting’ projects in Israel, and head of the Victoria’s Secret empire which has made a fortune from totally degrading women.

Nothing. Nada. Not a dickie bird.

These Ortho Fems hate chareidim and orthodox Judaism, and are simply using ‘feminism’ as a stick to beat the chareidi community with. If they really cared about women’s human rights, they’d have been writing reams and reams about Epstein and Wexner.

But people like Wexner pay for all their little organisations, and all their little class action suits against the orthodox world in Israel, so none of these brave Ortho Fems are about to rock that particular boat.

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People, there is a war going on for the Jewish soul right now!

On one side, there are a sordid bunch of journalists, academics, businessmen, bureaucrats and politicians who basically represent less than 5% of Israel society, but who have been pulling all the strings here since the days of the Labour Zionists.

They own the banks, they control the economy, they run the IDF and they have the State of Israel all sewn up in their back pocket as a personal fiefdom.

On the other side, there are sincere Jews of all stripes, many of whom are observant Jews, and heading up that force for good is Rabbi Berland.

If you believed all the fake news about him in the press, and bought into the farce of a court case, just make teshuva now, and open your eyes to what is really going on in this country.

Because very soon now, the curtain is going to finally fall, and the truth will shine out for everyone to see. And you owe it to yourself to be on the right side of that equation.

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Israel has also been afflicted by ‘Deep State’ problems since its inception.

One of my writer friends is thinking about doing a book about the Yemenite Children (brave lady!) after she met a taxi driver here whose sister went missing in the 1950s.

After umming and ahhing, I decided to send her over to take a look at some of the information gathered on the subject by the late Barry Chamish, who was routinely ridiculed as a crazy conspiracy theorist, but who was probably right about at least 80% of what he was telling us.

Each month that passes brings us more evidence that Israel’s ‘Deep State’ is just as morally rotten, murderous and obsessed with controlling us all as America’s and the UK’s.

It’s all about the spooks, the spies, the shedim who have been pulling the strings behind the scenes for decade upon decade, without the public having any idea of what’s really going on, or why the world is in such a bad state.

Rebbe Nachman described all this in detail, as you can read about in this post:

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In the meantime, here’s some links that I sent to my friend, that you might also find interesting, although admittedly pretty disturbing. This one is Barry’s take on what really happened to the Yemenite children:

https://www.conspiracyarchive.com/Commentary/Yemenite.htm

And this documentary was aired on mainstream Israeli TV a decade ago – then promptly buried by the establishment. It describes how Shimon Peres basically struck a deal with America’s Deep State to ‘sell’ 100,000 Sephardi children to the US military for dangerous radiation experiments. They told the kids and their families they were being zapped by massive doses of x-rays as part of a treatment for ringworm – but it was all lies.

As we get closer to Moshiach being revealed, all the lies will be revealed – and shocking as all this stuff is, it’s still just the tip of the iceberg.

Channel 13 – where’s your expose about Shimon Peres and all his murderous cronies?

I guess we’ll still have to wait a while, for that story to be told.

 

For years and years, I’ve been thinking that ‘Armilus’ was a Jew, the head of the Erev Rav.

But after re-reading the Midrash in Heichalos, I don’t think that anymore.

Go take a look at some of the sources I discuss on my post about Armilus over at ravberland.com, then read The Good Side of Edom, if you didn’t catch that already, then make up your own mind about what might be unfolding here.

What’s also giving me pause for thought is that the US has an approximate 200,000 soldiers currently in the Middle East – the exact number of soldiers brought in the Midrash. Here’s a headline from the New York Times about it:

Under President Trump, there are now more troops in the Middle East than when he took office, and he has continued the mission for tens of thousands of others far from the wars of 9/11.

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Since Trump took office, I’ve been that rarest of creatures, a Trump Neutral. I don’t have Trump Derangment Syndrome, I don’t think he’s a modern-day messiah, set to ‘drain the swamp’.

But as more and more of these authentic Jewish sources that could easily be describing him are starting to stack up, it’s looking to me more and more likely that Trump is not such a good guy after all.

What that means for the Jewish community in the US, I don’t know. What that means for Israel, I also don’t know.

I know the Rav is sweetening things all the time, and that part of the reason that everything is so confused and confusing right now is because the way all this stuff was ‘meant’ to play out, according to our sources, has got upended and sweetened by Rabbi Berland, in all sorts of different ways.

I don’t know any more than you do, what’s coming next.

But the sources are definitely very interesting. And now that this source has re-surfaced, which again is drawing quite a clear parallel between the description of ‘Armilus, King of Edom’, and so much of the breathless coverage of the ‘Edomite moshiach Trump’ – well, it’s certainly giving me a lot to think about.

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I have no idea where we all got the idea from that Armilus is the head of the Erev Rav, but from what I can see, it’s incorrect. Does anyone have a source they can share, for the idea that Armilus is head of the Erev Rav?

Or is this yet another example of ‘YouTube’ Torah leading us all astray?

TBC

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The media has been unusually quiet in their ongoing campaign against the Rav in recent months.

But that’s about to change. After two whole months of almost no negative stories about Rabbi Berland, Channel 13 has decided to do an ‘expose’ of the Rav doing pidyonot for people and advising them to avoid doctors.

What can we do?

Channel 13 clearly never read Rebbe Nachman’s Wisdom, where the Rebbe warned his followers in the starkest terms:

“A physician may use many hazardous treatments and still be totally ignorant of their effect. It is not surprising that they often do more damage than good. Why depend on a natural cure when it is most likely to cause harm?…

“Doctors are agents of death and do little more. Happy is the man who avoids them and depends on God alone.”

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Channel 13 clearly also knows precisely zippy-dee-do-da about what a pidyon nefesh actually is, and what it actually does – and also why sometimes, it doesn’t work.

Rav Yaakov Selma goes through a lot of the sources from Likutey Moharan in Hebrew, below:

But in Lesson I:215 of Likutey Moharan, Rebbe Nachman tells us:

“Know: There are 24 types of pidyon nefesh, corresponding to 24 courts of justice. For each and every court, there is a unique corresponding pidyon nefesh to ameliorate its judgments. Therefore, a ransom is not always effective, since not everyone knows all 24 pidyon nefesh, and even if one does, he cannot perform them, and when one does not perform the specific ransom required by a specific court, it is not effective.

But know: there is a certain ransom that includes all the twenty-four courts of justice and is able to ameliorate [the judgments] of all the twenty-four courts….

“….Only one in a generation knows of it, and sometimes even when this tzaddik performs the ransom, it is ineffective. The reason for this is that this ransom is greatly desired Above, for such a ransom does not frequently come from below that is able to ameliorate all 24 courts simultaneously. Therefore, when this amelioration does come, it is used for other purposes, such as to make converts….[W]hen judgment and wrath are ameliorated, idolatry is ameliorated and people convert.”

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Of course, the secular journalists at Channel 13 who hate the Torah-observant world and everything it stands for aren’t fully conversant with Chassidic thought and Likutey Moharan, and they are also part of this huge, Godless conspiracy being pushed on us all that people are 100% in charge of their own health, and their own destiny.

If Channel 13 would do an expose of all the iatrogenic illnesses and deaths occurring in Israel’s hospitals, then we’d very quickly see who the real ‘killers’ are, who are freely walking around the country.

I’ve lost count of the number of people I know who have been killed or maimed by the treatment they received from doctors.

Like the woman who was talked into having a replacement knee, but wasn’t told she’d need pain-killing injections every month for the rest of her life… Like the woman who had her stomach cut out because of cancer, and then was bombarded with round after round of chemotherapy, only to die shortly afterwards in excrutiating agony from all the surgery and poison anyway… Like the man who went into hospital with an exploded gallbladder and who died on the operating table because the anesthetist misjudged what was going on, and the patient had a fatal heart attack as a result.

I could go on and on. And please, let’s not even get started on anti-depressants, or ‘gender re-assignment’ surgery, or all the weird stuff they are putting in vaccines (go and research MCR 5), and a million other things that are lauded as medical panaceas, but usually are anything but.

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Modern medicine is God-less, modern medicine is far more limited and clumsy than it likes to pretend, and often does far more damage than good, especially when it comes to chronic illnesses.

Don’t believe me? Take a look at this, for starters:

The third-leading cause of death in US most doctors don’t want you to know about

Let Channel 13 gird their loins and do an expose on all the horrendous medical malpractice happening in Israel (and everywhere else…). Like the doctor in Shaarei Chesed who I met over Shabbat lunch a decade ago, who boasted about going around quietly killing people that she’d decided were suffering ‘unnecessarily’.

Don’t hold your breath.

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But in the meantime, let’s return to the question of whether Rabbi Berland’s pidyons always work.

The answer, as provided by Rabbenu, is no. They don’t always work.

Why not?

Because God is still running the world, and sometimes, God decides to take the Rav’s pidyonot and to use them for a greater good, i.e. fighting the general forces of evil in the world and causing non-Jews to want to convert.

Who are we, to think we can fathom the mind of Hashem, the Creator of the world?

So then, does this mean that Rav Berland is doing pidyon nefesh under false pretences?

No.

The vast majority of time, what he says will happen actually occurs. Sometimes, you have to wait a while, often, the miracle is ‘hidden’ in some way, but sooner or later, it shows up.

And on the rare occasions when it doesn’t, of course that’s upsetting to the people involved, especially if they don’t have a lot of emunat tzaddikim, and are really only interested in using the Rav like a miracles-caspomat.

Of course, it requires a lot of emuna tzaddikim to navigate that situation and not come out as an ‘opponent’, who feels justified in dissing the Rav, God forbid. That’s part of how the birur process is working, especially for those who dress themselves up as ‘mega-frum’, at least externally.

At the end of the day, Rebbe Nachman clearly explains that there is no such thing as a pidyon that is 100% guaranteed to work, even when you do it with the One in a Generation who actually controls the 24 heavenly courts.

Why not?

Because God is still running the world, and people aren’t in control, and free choice has to be maintained.

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So, this expose will air Monday night in Israel, and when it does, the people who have weak-to-zero emunat tzaddikim; and the people who hate Torah and religious Jews; and the people who have a vested interest in ‘proving’ that they were right all along, when they were passing off slander and falsehood as self-righteous ‘troof’ all across Facebook will come out swinging.

You know what?

Let them.

It’s all just part of the birur, or clarification process that precedes the coming of Moshiach.

You want to believe Channel 13 over Rebbe Nachman?

Go right ahead.

There’s a special place in gehinnom that’s been set up especially for all these anti-Torah journalists who spend months, years and decades putting so much effort into trying to make Rabbis look bad.

I have no problem with honest journalism.

Like I said, some people don’t see obvious results from doing a pidyon nefesh with the Rav, for the reasons explained above. So sure, cover that angle – but then balance it out by interviewing some of the hundreds and even thousands of people who have mamash seen open miracles from doing a pidyon nefesh with the Rav.

That’s responsible journalism. That’s ethical reporting. That’s enabling people to make up their own minds about something, and not just trying to push your anti-Torah brainwashing agenda down people’s throats.

That is not at all what you’re going to get on Monday night from Channel 13.

But it’s not all their fault. People don’t buy into their brainwashing agenda because it’s particularly convincing or well-reasoned, but because they have their own vested interest in making Rabbi Berland ‘wrong’, and themselves right.

And you know what? Let them.

At this stage, I can’t be bothered fighting or arguing with them, because the faster all the yucky people get birured properly, the sooner we’ll get to the geula.

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Last week, one of my extended family members asked me to enquire about doing a pidyon with Rav Berland for someone they know who doesn’t really believe in God, or the tzaddikim, but who is rich and extremely desperate for something to change.

The message I got back was ‘no pidyon’.

If Rabbi Berland was really doing pidyonot just for the money, chas v’shalom, how do we explain this?

I know others, too, that simply didn’t have the merit to be able to do a pidyon nefesh with Rav Berland. God stops them by filling their heads full of doubts, or filling their mouths full of slander, or doesn’t even let them get to the point of being told a sum of money to pay.

Every time a person gets the chance to do a pidyon with the Rav, it’s a huge merit, a massive spiritual gift.

I haven’t seen the fruits of all my pidyonot yet, honestly, but I would say that 4/5 of the ones I’ve done have worked tremendously.

And as for the rest?

I accept that either their time hasn’t come yet, and / or they are being put to a higher use, right now, to fight evil in the world.

And judging by Channel 13’s output, there’s still a way to go before it’s totally defeated.

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Is the United States of America really the ‘good’ side of Edom?

After going into Yom Kippur in Israel with newspapers blaring headlines that Trump had given permission to Turkey to ‘invade’ Syria (!), I thought it was timely to try to track down what the Gemara says about the ‘good side’ of Edom.

I know there’s an idea being floated around that America is somehow the ‘good’ side of Edom, and that Trump is somehow akin to the Roman Emperor Antoninus, who had a very close relationship with Rebbe Yehuda HaNasi around 1800 years ago.

As things continue to get more and more ‘interesting’ in the international arena, I thought it was time to actually track down the sources in the Gemara that talk about Antoninus, most of which I found in Avoda Zara 10a and b. We can learn a lot from seeing what the Sages actually said about ‘Edom’ and its rulers, and how that maps on to modern-day America, and its rulers.

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The discussion begins in 10a, where the Sages are discussing idolatrous holidays and festivals.

They start talking about something called the ‘Ginusya day of their emperors’, and Rav Yehuda explains:

This is the day on which idolaters inaugurate their emperor.

The Gemara then asks:

But do [the Romans] appoint the son of a king as a king?

The Artscroll notes then state:

“The Emperors of Rome did not reign by hereditary right, but were selected by the previous ruler, or by the Senate.”

Does this sound familiar?

The Gemara then goes on to quote a verse from the prophecy of Ovadiah – which is very interesting in its own right, not least because of the following quotes from it:

“Even if you raise [your nest] like an eagle of if you place your nest amongst the stars, I will bring you down from there…..

“[T]he house of Yaakov will inherit those who had dispossessed them. The house of Yaakov will be fire, the house of Yosef a flame, and the house of Esav for straw. And they will ignite them and devour them. There will be no survivor to the house of Esav, for Hashem has spoken.”

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The allusions to Edom being America seem obvious. The bald-headed eagle is the American emblem – and appears on the logo of the CIA, amongst other things – and ‘the stars’ are also prominently linked to the USA, in just about every sense of the word, beginning with their flag, moving through the space exploration program, and ending with Hollywood.

Let’s continue.

American white supremacism

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Rashi explains in his commentary on Genesis 36:43 that Edom is the ‘ancestor’ of Rome.

The Gemara continues to explains that Rome is ‘inferior among nations’ (quoting Ovadiah) because they:

“Do not appoint the son of a king as king.”

Clearly, the Sages aren’t impressed with the idea of ‘democracy’. The Gemara continues that Edom / Rome is “very despised”:

“Because they do not have their own writings or language.”

These descriptions also ‘fits’ the USA perfectly.

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The Gemara now introduces us to the Roman Emperor Antoninus, who had a close relationship with Rebbi, Rabbi Yehuda HaNasi. The discussion begins with how the Roman Authorities – aka the Senate – are ‘persecuting’ Antoninus, and how Rebbe advises him to kill them off one at a time, and “to not contend with all of them at once.”

Rebbe is scared to state this openly, because he’s wary of being bugged. The Gemara says:

“One can never be sure that a private conversation will remain secret.”

Admittedly, this does sound a little Trump-like. Let’s continue. The Gemara next explains about how Antoninus has a daughter who is acting in a way that could cause her father to become embroiled in a public scandal, and again Rebbe advises him on what to do with her.

Next, the Gemara describes how Antoninus is secretly sending Rebbi sacks full of crushed gold disguised as wheat, so that Rebbi will have money to pay the greedy Romans who will come after Antoninus. Then, the scene switches to the secret visits Antoninus would make to Rebbe’s house, where he’d kill the servants who accompanied him.

The Gemara says:

“Every day, he would wait upon Rebbi. He would serve him food and serve him drink. When Rebbi wished to climb onto his bed he would bend down before the bed and say [to Rebbi]: “Climb up on me to your bed.”

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Before we get into the next, really interesting part, I feel the urge to state the obvious, namely that Trump isn’t doing this for any Jewish sage, last I heard. He’s not sending Rabbi Berland sacks of gold, he’s not letting Rav Kanievsky use him as a footstool, he’s not asking the Biala Rebbe questions about how to keep Ivanka in line…

For sure, Trump has a problem with his ‘Deep State’ trying to take him out of action, same as Antontinus did, but without any of Antoninus’ corresponding personal piety. Let’s continue.

The Gemara now gets into a very interesting discussion that has reverberations for us, and our generation, and our confusion of how best to handle, and relate to ‘Edom’ / America. Antoninus asks Rebbi if he’s going to enter the World to Come, and Rebbi tells him yes. Antoninus then starts quoting the prophet Ovadiah at him, and says:

But it is written ‘and there will be no remnant to the house of Esav’, which implies that the descendants of Esav (Edomites / Romans) will not enter the World to Come. Rebbi responded: “That verse speaks only of one who acts in the manner of Esav.”

“This was also taught in a Baraisa: And there will be no remnant to the House of Esav. It could have been thought that this applies to all Edomites. To dispel this notion, [the Torah] states: To the House of Esav. By naming Esav, it teaches that only where the Edomite acts in the manner of Esav is he condemned; otherwise, he may enter the World to Come.”

All this is a direct quote from the Gemara.

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In the Artscroll notes it states:

“Edomites are barred from the World to Come only if they act like Esav (a barbarian who scorned God, committed murder and violated women.)….[A]ny gentile (even if he is not a ger toshav, who formally accepts the seven Noahide laws) has a portion in the World to Come, provided he does not emulate the barbaric Esav.”

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American white supremacism

Before we get into a discussion of whether the USA has a history of acting like the arch-hypocrite Esav, pretending to be good, pure and holy while actually rampaging around the world slaughtering anyone who stands in the way of its economic goals and other materialistic desires, let’s just return to the Gemara in Avoda Zara 10b.

Antoninus is still having difficulties believing Rebbi’s assertion that he will make it into the World to Come, and tells him:

But it is written: “There (in Gehinnom) is Edom, her kings and all her presidents.” Apparently, all the leaders of Edom are assigned to Gehinnom!

Rebbi replies that the verse isn’t talking about all Edom’s kings, just most of them; and that the verse states:

All her presidents, and not all her ministers.

The Artscroll notes explain:

“A president is a ruler of Rome who is not a king, but serves at the behest of the Senate (see Tosfos). A minister is a royal adviser (presumably a senator) – Raavad.”

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In other words, every single president of Edom / Rome / America is going to gehinnom, but here and there, there may be some Edomite royal heads of state, and also the odd Senator and Congressman who may actually escape the rampant moral corruption enough to make it into the World to Come.

The Gemara continues with more discussions about the relationship between Antoninus and Rebbe, and the Artscroll notes trace this back to the prophecy that Rebecca is told when she was carrying Esav (Edom) and Yaakov (Israel) back in Genesis, 25:23. I.e. the two babies are two nations, and when one is up, the other will be down.

“Two nations are in your womb…the elder shall serve the younger.”

The Artscroll notes then quote Rabbi Gedalyah Schorr, author of Or Gedalyah who explains that:

“Ideally, Yaakov-Israel and Esav-Edom were meant to enjoy a harmonious and complimentary partnership. Esav…was supposed to defeat evil, while Yaakov…was to promote good. Had Esav fulfilled his role, he would have been equal to Yaakov.”

This view is based on the midrash that states that six tribes should have descended from Esav and six from Yaakov, but this didn’t happen as Esav went bad, failed to live up to his spiritual job, and so Yaakov married Leah instead (who was Esav’s intended bride) and the whole course of Jewish history changed.

Again, Rav Schorr believes that the ‘perfect partnership’ between Edom and Israel did actually occur – uniquely – for one brief interlude in history, when Antoninus was (secretly…) subservient to Rebbe.

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From what I can tell, this passage in the midrash appears to be the basis of the idea that Trump is some sort of Edomite ‘good guy’, but there is absolutely no discussion here of any sort of ‘Edomite’ aspect of Moshiach and there is also a very large distinction made in these sources between EDOM and ESAV.

Parts of the former can make teshuva and get some share in the world to come. But Esav can’t. This is a very important distinction to make, if you’ve been reading articles like this.

Assuming Trump is a retread of Antoninus, the most that would mean is that he’s sneaking Rav Kanievsky sacks of gold and asking Rav Berland coded messages about what to do with Ivanka. Even Antoninus couldn’t and didn’t free Israel from Roman rule, nor give permission for the Jews to rebuild the temple.

And even making that equivalence between Trump and Antoninus seems to be stretching us past reality.  As we already mentioned, Trump is not sneaking billions to any Jewish sage, nor waiting hand and foot on any rabbi. If I’m wrong about this, please do let me know, as clearly that would change things.

Which bring is to the last part of this discussion, which is this:

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Is it realistic to assume that America is the ‘good’ part of Edom, and not actually the bad, unfixable, ‘Esav’ part of Edom?

And that’s where the conversation is going to get a little sticky, because once you move all the brainwashing about apple pie and Uncle Sam out the way, you’ll find that American history is just one, big list of atrocities, genocidal actions and wars. Sure, they were always dressed up as being ‘good’ and holy, but really, they boil down to America using its military might to bully the rest of the world into doing what suited it best, economically.

(Btw, the UK preceded the US, and is also totally corrupt and the ‘Esav’ part of Edom. Anglo Saxon culture also included the Nazis, who were clearly also really bad. However, we’re focusing on the US, because that’s who is still empire-building, and controlling the State of Israel, in 2019.)

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The United States committed the first ever genocide, when it brutally killed off millions of its native Americans over the course of a few decades, as I wrote about HERE.

For 250 years, it built its economy off the back of black slaves who were initially brought to America against their will, and then bred by their slave masters like so much chattel. No-one really knows how many blacks lost their lives amidst brutal conditions, worked to death by their pious, white American owners. No-one knows how many black women slaves were assaulted by their white masters. Blacks didn’t count as real people in America until well into the 1960s and the time of Martin Luther King Jr – and probably well beyond.

Then, we have all the European Jews that were barred from entering the US before and during World War II, even though Roosevelt knew they were being slaughtered by the millions. America held off from really joining the WW2 effort in Europe until the last possible minute, waiting for Stalin to have millions of his soldiers killed by the Nazis, and for the UK to be brought to its knees as an Imperial power.

And then, the US decides they are going to drop not just one nuclear bomb on Japan, but two. And not just on a smallish city of 10,000 people but on Hiroshima and Nagasaki, where they killed almost a quarter of a million people, half of them in under a minute. This from Wikipedia:

Over the next two to four months, the acute effects of the atomic bombings killed between 90,000 and 146,000 people in Hiroshima and 39,000 and 80,000 people in Nagasaki; roughly half of the deaths in each city occurred on the first day.

This was totally cruel, totally murderous behavior. You want to try out your nuke? Pick a small target! Keep bombing in increments, until the Japanese gave up! Why bomb two such big cities like that, chik chak, with such terrible loss of life?

To this day, the United States of America is the only country to have actually used its nuclear weapons to destroy tens of thousands of people.

American white supremacism

Post WW2, the Dulles brothers and Eisenhower decided to secretly ship 1,600 hardcore Nazi scientists over to the US, as part of Operation Paperclip.

That Nazi science has morally corrupted the US in a million different ways, particularly in the realms of medicine,  biology and economics and industry, which most people still are blissfully unaware of. (Btw, I think that number is way too low. If you include intelligence assets that were ‘taken over’ by the CIA and the British, the number of former Nazis working for the West bounds into the thousands.)

The US has spent decades since WW2 rampaging around the world, starting wars whenever its economic interests are threatened, that have totally devastated whole countries and left tens of millions of people dead, homeless or totally impoverished and with nothing to look forward to.

Of course, American actions are always dressed up as ‘good’ and ‘holy’ and above reproach ‘, but really?

America is acting exactly like Esav.

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Is everyone in the US acting like Esav? No, clearly not. There are many good noahides / non-Jews in the US – and also in other parts of the Edomite Western world – and these people will be the parts of Edom who will make it to the World to Come, as described in the Gemara, above.

But America’s politicians? America’s presidents? America’s generals? America’s elites?

There is absolutely no basis in fact or Jewish sources for believing that these people are even close to being the ‘good’ part of Edom.

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What the sources do seem to clearly show, however is that the USA = Esav, mamash.

Right down to its ‘presidents’, senators, eagle emblem and stars and stripes flag. Here and there, there might be a good politician, but the Gemara is clear:

[A]ll the leaders of Edom are assigned to Gehinnom.

The LEADERS of Edom are all the politicians, heads of states and European royalty.

But America itself is obviously acting like ‘Esav’, pretending to be 100% kosher, but really just a pig.

And the sources are clear that:

[T]here will be no remnant to the House of Esav.

American white supremacism

Which is why I find statements like this to be extremely puzzling:

“When Esau is seen helping Israel, it is a sign Moshiach is right around the corner,” Rabbi Kessin said.

In explanation, Rabbi Kessin quoted the Bible concerning the prophesied fate of Jacob and Esau told to their mother, Rivka.

And Hashem answered her, “Two nations are in your womb, Two separate peoples shall issue from your body; One people shall be mightier than the other, And the older shall serve the younger.” Genesis 25:23

The rabbi noted an ambiguity in the Hebrew text that had vastly different import.

“Due to the absence of pronunciation markings, the wording of the Torah text can be read either as ‘va’ya’avod’, meaning he shall serve, or ‘va’ya’aved’,  he shall enslave,” the rabbi explained. “Esau will help Jacob by either serving him or by causing him to suffer since suffering is a way to bring God back into the world.”

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So, is Trump a possible reincarnation of Antoninus?

It’s possible, especially if you take into account Trump’s pronounced ‘anti war’ stances, but unlikely, especially if you look at recent tweets like this:

“President Trump is the greatest President for Jews and for Israel in the history of the world, not just America, he is the best President for Israel in the history of the world…and the Jewish people in Israel love him like he’s the King of Israel. They love him like he is the second coming of God… But American Jews don’t know him or like him. They don’t even know what they’re doing or saying anymore.”

Does this sound like the kind of guy who’d be sending Rav Berland secret sacks of gold, or letting Rav Kanievsky use him as a footstool?….

If you look through the history books, there are other Roman leaders who sound far, far more like Trump than Antoninus Pius. And we’ll take a look at that side of things in the next post, BH.

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Rebbe Nachman points up some interesting similarities between ‘spies’ and demons.

Last week, I was re-reading Rebbe Nachman’s story of The Cripple, when I suddenly started to see some interesting connections between Rebbe Nachman’s description of demons, and what’s going on today with the ‘deep state’.

(You can get an English translation PDF of it HERE).

I suddenly got the idea into my head that Jeffery Epstein could be the ‘son of the demons’ in Rebbe Nachman’s story, who was imprisoned and tortured, sparking off a war between the different factions of ‘Deep State’ demons that eventually leads to geula happening. So, I’m bringing it here, to see what you think, too.

FIRST, A QUICK RECAP OF THE RELATIVE BITS OF THE STORY OF THE CRIPPLE

The Cripple hears the Sun and Moon talking, and the Moon is complaining that there is a place of two thousand mountains, where a whole bunch of demons live, and these ‘demons’ are taking all the power from her feet.

Feet is an allusion to emuna, and true faith and trust in Hashem.

The Moon is often used as an allegory for the Jewish people.

The Cripple decides to visit this place called the ‘Two Thousand Mountains’, here’s what Rebbe Nachman says about that:

“When he got there, he stood at a distance from the two thousand mountains. He saw thousands and myriads of demon families. They have children just like human beings and are therefore very numerous.

“He saw their leadership sitting on a throne. No human being ever sat on such a throne. He also saw them ‘joking’ – one of them was ‘joking’ about the child he’d hurt, another about injuring someone’s hand, and another about injuring someone’s foot. They also joked in other ways.”

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I read this, and I immediately thought:

Mafia, crime families, ‘untouchable’ criminals and bent politicians sitting on pedestals where no-one can get near them, billionaires who are ‘worshipped’ for their wealth, child trafficking, child abduction and child abuse.

Before we continue, I also went to look up ‘Two Thousand Mountains’, to see where it’s located. Whaddya now? The only place I could find with that name is right next to Forth Worth, Dallas, Texas. Forth Worth was the last place JFK gave a speech, before he was shot dead by the mafia, under contract to the CIA.

(The former head of CIA, Allan Dulles, had a score to settle with Kennedy after the latter refused to bail out the CIA’s attempted ‘regime change’ in Cuba, as part of the Bay of Pigs fiasco. Kennedy had a strong dislike of the FBI and CIA, and their abuses of power, and was on record stating that he wanted to splinter the CIA into a 1,000 parts and scatter them to the wind, before he was assassinated.)

The links between the mafia and the spy agencies are well-documented. The former FBI head J. Edgar Hoover was part of a massive corruption racket that basically blurred the lines between criminals and law enforcement, with the mafia simply acting in the illegal sphere, while the spy agencies ‘pretended’ to act within the law. Robert Kennedy was knocked off because he had a sincere wish to tackle the mafia and organized crime – against Hoover’s wishes.

They look like you and me, they have children, they have families, but really – Rebbe Nachman tells us – they are demons!

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The story then switches to a pair of ‘demon’ parents who are very upset, because their son got kidnapped and tortured by a sorcerer who was working for a King who’d been ‘hurt’ by this demon-son, and his friend.

Back to Rebbe Nachman:

“We had an island in the sea, which we made our base. The king who owned this island decided to build it up, and began to lay the foundations. [The demon-son] said to me, “Let’s hurt him!” With that, we went and took away the king’s strength.”

In the footnotes to Aryeh Kaplan’s translation of this story, we find the following:

This ‘Island King’ wished to repent. This act on his part ultimately led to the downfall of the demons…. ‘Foundations’ is yesod in Hebrew. This usually refers to the se*ual organ. Thus the king wanted to begin by rectifying himself se*ually.

Let’s switch out ‘King’ for ‘President’, from here on it, to give it a more contemporary feel.

And before we continue, let’s also remind ourselves that over in US, the Feds are currently exploring Epstein’s ‘pedo Island’, our in the American Virgin Islands. Man, the clues are coming thick and fast, here.

The demon parents go to the Demon King with this story, and he orders that the President should be given back his ‘strength’. It’s not so easy to do that, because the demon who took the President’s strength has now become a cloud on a particular city.

[We’re going to skip the middle part of the story, which involves an old Jewish sage taking on the ruling atheists and the demons, and continue with the story of the demon-son and the President.]

“The Demon King ordered that the cloud’s strength be taken and given back to the President, and it was done. The demon-son was then able to return to his parents. He came back worn out and in great pain…since he had been tortured very much there. He was very angry at the sorcerer who had tortured him so much, and he left orders to his sons and their families, that they should always lie in wait, to entrap the sorcerer.”

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When Rebbe Nachman is talking about ‘families’, could he really be referring to clannish crime families and spy organisations here?

Let’s continue.

“The talkers amongst the demons told the sorcerer to watch himself, since [the family] were lying in wait for him. The sorcerer made use of his devices to protect himself from them, and also asked other sorcerers to help him, who knew other [crime] families.

“The demon-son and his family were really furious at the talkers for revealing their secret to the sorcerer. Once, this son’s family and some talkers were going to serve a term of duty for the President. The family fabricated a false accusation against the talkers, and the President killed them.

“The surviving talkers were very angry, and they incited rebellion against all the kings. The demons were stricken with hunger, weakness, sword and plague. There were wars among all the kings, and this caused earthquakes. The ditches fell in and the tree was completely watered. All the [demons] were then destroyed, and nothing remained of them. Amen.”

Note: ‘the tree’ refers to the Tzaddik, aka Moshiach, and the demons spend their whole trying to keep people away from the Torah and mitzvos that will ‘water’ this Tree, and enable it to take it’s true place in the world.

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Lots to unpack… let’s continue.

I don’t watch TV, thank God, but someone told me I should look at THIS post on the Tomer Devorah website. I went, and it’s talking about a new documentary about THE FAMILY, a bunch of power-obsessed evangelicals who apparently rule Washington DC by co-operating with other evil groups like the Vatican, and all the usual suspect spy agencies / mafiosos.

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Because they are all connected to each other, and they all coordinate their activities with each other, just they operate as different crime ‘families’ or syndicates.

So now, let’s take that piece of information, and plug in THE FAMILY for every mention of ‘family’ in Rebbe Nachman’s tale, and see what other insights that starts to spark off in your head.

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THE GEMARA EXPLAINS WHO THESE ‘DEMONS’ ARE

In Makkot 6b, in the middle of a long discussion about false witnesses and criminals being given ‘prior warning’ of imminent punishment by a ‘Demon’, the Gemara says the following:

“The one giving the warning…may even be [the victim] himself, and even a demon. The warning necessary to convict the offender need not come from one of the witnesses, but is acceptable from any source.”

Ramban in the footnote explains that: ‘demon’ refers to “any voice whose source cannot be observed.”

In Brachot 3b, we get the following statement:

“The Rabbis taught in a baraisa, that one should not enter a ruin for the following three reasons: 1) Because of suspicion, i.e. because people may suspect one of entering there to meet a harlot, 2) Because of the danger of collapse, 3) and because of the danger of demons, who lurk in deserted areas and ruins.”

The footnotes state:

Demons will not attack two people together. Separately, it also states: [W]here men of low moral character are concerned, even ten men are not trusted to be alone with a woman.

In Brachot 43b:

“To one person [a demon] appears and does harm; to two people it appears but does no harm; to three people it does not appear altogether.”

The footnote states: The demon will not take action to harm him, but the person will suffer the effects of having seen a demon (i.e. they get ‘warned off’ and they threatened if they start digging too much into what the demons are doing, or saying too much about their activities. But they only actually get assassinated if they are alone, with no witnesses.)

But Chagigah 16a is really the kicker:

“There are six characteristics that were said regarding demons: Three like ministering angels and three like human beings. These are the three characteristics in which demons are like ministering angels:

  • Demons have wings like ministering angels

  • And [demons] fly from one end of the world to the other end [of the world] like ministering angels

  • And [demons] know what is destined to be in the future like ministering angels.

The Gemara interrupts the Baraisa to clarify this last point:

“Can it enter your mind that they know the future on their own?… Rather, the Baraisa means that [demons] hear what is announced from behind the Partition, like ministering angels.”

Doesn’t this excerpt from the Gemara conjure up visions of spies with recording devices, who fly all over the place in their personal jets and unmarked planes?

And here’s how demons are like humans, from that same Gemara:

  • Demons eat and drink like human beings
  • Demons are fruitful and multiply like human beings
  • And demons die like human beings.

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I haven’t made an exhaustive survey of every instance of where demons are mentioned in the Gemara, but one other notable place, in Niddah 24b, places demons bang in the middle of a discussion about aborted fetuses.

All this, when taken together, suggests quite a lot, doesn’t it?

To recap the main message:

before Moshiach actually is revealed (aka ‘the Tree’ gets watered), all these crime families and spy agencies start to turn on each other, and take each other out. And the demonic forces who are leading these activities are the talkers. Talkers could refer to journalists, spies, bloggers, social media ‘manipulators’ and also movies and Hollywood (the original home of the ‘talkies’.)

Demons look like human beings, but really aren’t.

They have zero real emuna and faith in Hashem (the ‘chicken feet’ = atheists), and they are organized as crime families and syndicates. You’ll find demons in the middle of abortions…. And in the middle of hurting children and other people… And in locations where men are lured to be ‘entrapped’ with harlots…. And demons love ‘devices’ and can listen in on people’s conversations, fly all over the world and appear to be totally untouchable.

The last thing to tell you about demons is probably the most important.

In Rebbe Nachman’s tale, he explains that the human beings who are with the Jewish Sage who stands up to the King Demon, and who are within his ‘circle’, are safe from the harm demons can do.

Rebbe Nachman tells us:

“The demons approached, but they could not come near [the humans] because of the circle [that the wise man had made] around them. [The King Demon] sent other messengers, but they also failed.”

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We need to stay close to the Tzaddik HaDor, and to stay far, far away from the places where these ‘demons’ hang out. When Moshiach comes, they will all disappear. But for now, they are still all over the place, and still causing a lot of harm, wars and ‘earthquakes’.

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It’s time to draw a line in the sand, and to stop excusing and flattering evil.

The last few years, we’ve all just sat here and watch the politically-correct brigade demolish one fortification in the wall of personal holiness and morality after another.

They encouraged men and women (or let’s be honest, teenage boys and girls and even younger, lo alenu) to have intimate relationships that were totally divorced from any idea of marriage, or bringing new life into the world. They encouraged promiscuous behavior at every turn. They threw all notions of self-discipline and personal holiness out the window, and mocked the people who tried to stand up to them as ‘bigots’.

The internet accelerated the process of moral disintegration, beaming its smut straight into our homes, phones and neshamas. All of a sudden, there was no getting away from it, all that politically-correct programming, that told us we all just had to sit here and say nothing, as these people assaulted the foundations of holiness.

They hold all the cards, that’s how it seems.

They have all the money. They have the expensive lawyers. They have the politicians stitched up, and the judges in their back pockets.

What can small people like you and me do, to really protest all this, and to stand up for personal holiness, and what is objectively right, as defined by God and His Torah?

Not much, that’s the truth. I am regularly censoring myself on my blog with every third word, worried that the thought police who have taken over the internet will find some way of ‘de-platforming’ me, too – even though the only platform I really have is my blog.

Google has gone after so many ‘alternative’ voices the last few months, and totally buried them with algorythms designed to only give ‘the official’ version of events, as decided by the immoral, anti-God and anti-holiness people who are running Google.

So, I measure my words carefully, and try to tell you what’s going on without naming names, or sailing too close to the wind. Because also here in Israel, these same forces for immorality – all those Jewish billionaires based in the States, but who have been warping the sanctity of the Holy Land with millions of dollars from their ‘charitable foundations’ – are operating here, too.

These people, and their front men, were the ones who were really pulling the strings behind the investigations into Rabbi Berland and Rabbi Pinto, and the late Rabbi Yoram Abergel, zt’l. It was part of a stated aim to take down the so-called ‘kabbalah rabbis’ who were so revered by so many Jews in Israel, and to break their power.

But that’s only a small part of the spiritual and moral corruption that has so many Jews at its heart, and which seems to have spread around the globe.

And which is on the cusp of finally being exposed, even though the mainstream media is still trying to divert the public’s attention away from the real stories and facts that are unfolding. 

(Clue: go and Google ‘Epstein and Mossad’ and see what you find.)

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The reason the MSM doesn’t report on all of this stuff, or reports this stuff with a ‘fake news’ spin is very simple: The MSM is owned by a small group of immoral billionaires who are up to their necks in vice and criminality. And sadly, a large percentage of these people are Jews.

There is a growing band of independent journalists who are bravely putting the facts together and putting them out there on the internet. Even though the corrupt establishment is trying to stop them, the trickle is building to a flood, as more and more people are realizing that so many of the people who are in the top positions in our societies are actually evil, in the truest sense of the world.

Which brings me to the point of this post.

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Three weeks ago, I got an email asking me if I wanted to review the latest book by a very well known ‘defender of the State of Israel’. This guy had recently been in the press for very successfully defending billionaire child abuser Jeffery Epstein, 10 years ago. Thanks to this guy’s legal smarts, Epstein literally got away with murder.

When I got the request, I started pondering on all this. Here’s a little of how that conversation went:

The guy is defending Israel. He must be good, no?

The guy defended a known pedophile. He must be bad, no?

Backwards and forwards, backwards and forwards, until finally, the brainwashing dissolved and I got some clarity:

This guy is awful!!! He’s spiritually corrupt!!! How can anyone sleep soundly in their beds at night, knowing that they are regularly abetting the scum of society to escape justice, just because these evildoers have the money to pay their outrageous legal fees?!

So what, that this guy is famous? So what, that he’s got money, or a lot of connections? So what, that he publically defends the State of Israel. He’s totally immoral. He sold his soul for some dollar bills.

Instead of placing these people on a pedestal, more of us need to start calling these greedy, immoral bullies out, and to stop flattering evil.

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At this stage, every Jewish organization and charity and individual that accepted cash from Epstein, and from all the other immoral Jewish billionaires that are closely associated with the awful things currently being investigated in New York, are morally suspect in the profoundest of ways.

How can I state that so directly? Because like attracts like. It’s an iron-clad rule, and even our Sages taught that: show me who your friends are, and I’ll show you who you really are.

And in the meantime, I had another penny drop about how I can and probably should be reacting to the tsunami of evil engulfing the Jewish world, in my personal dalet amot, too. And it comes down to this:

BH, I want to start putting way more emphasis on my own personal holiness again.

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I already told my teens that I can’t hear their soul-destroying secular music being blasted through the house any more. I went out today and bought longer socks, to replace my ankle socks. And I have decided that I am going to start standing up for kedusha and holiness again, and to stop flattering evil.

What does that mean, exactly?

I’m still figuring it out, but one thing it for sure means is that I am no longer giving the benefit of the doubt to people who are going against the Torah, or railing against a mitzvah-observant lifestyle, and especially those people who are going against holy people like Rabbi Berland.

Without naming names, I went to check the social media of a big-mouth commentator who has made a huge deal about being pro-human rights, and being pro-women’s rights, and who publically left orthodox Judaism because of all the ‘terrible’ things he was seeing happening in his community.

Now, this guy is openly pushing immorality like it’s the biggest mitzvah in the world, and of course, he was one of the main guys writing negative stuff about Rabbi Berland a few years’ ago.

What did that bastion of justice, morality and human rights have to say about Epstein, a secular New York Jew with connections to a whole bunch of other New York Jews, who is guilty of some of the most mind-boggling human rights abuses in modern times?

Nothing.

The silence is deafening.

(I went to double-check after I wrote that, and this lone tweet is all I found. Compare and contrast.)

The guy is a total hypocrite (at best), and the ‘orthodox’ people who are continuing to buddy-up to him, and to defend and excuse his spiritual corruption and immorality, are 100% guilty of flattering evil.

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Let’s try to define the term a bit more carefully.

Flattering evil is where you know someone else is saying or doing evil or immoral things (as defined by God, in His Torah), but you still hang out with them and suck up to them because of their wealth and connections; or because they can do favors for you; or because they are a ‘minor celebrity’; or because it just suits you better to turn a blind eye to their bad behavior and immoral lifestyle choices.

That is flattering evil.

And so very many of us are guilty of it.

When I sent back my reply to the famous author’s publicist, I made sure to tell her why I’m saying no to reviewing his book:

In all good conscience, I can’t promote something written by someone who thinks its ok to defend known pedophiles.

And I felt pleased with this minute step towards trying to tip the balance towards God and good again. If I’d have said ‘yes’, that would mean that I’m effectively also condoning that pedophile’s awful, immoral behavior, and enabling it to continue, God forbid a million times over, and saying its ok to hang out with these people, and to keep pretending like there’s nothing wrong with them, and their world-destroying ideas and actions.

I can’t protest everything, I can’t stand up to every sin, and every evil person out there, but whatever God gives me to do, I’m going to do it.

I’m drawing a line in the sand.

From here on in, no more flattering evil, just because someone is well-known, or gives a lot of charity, or defends Israel, or has a lot of ‘backing’ from their community, or is a ‘king’ of political-correctness, or because I’m scared of them.

And I’d be thrilled if you’d consider joining me.

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I’m starting to realise that putting my head in the sand may be good advice.

Yesterday, I got the same message in three different ways. Once was from the husband, who told me that he thinks I’m getting distracted from what I should be doing by getting too caught up in all the shenanigans in the US.

Once was from my brother, who told me:

I think I need to have a bit more of your paying attention to things, and you need to have a bit more of my putting my head in the sand and ignoring it all.

And once was from a reader, who made no bones about telling me:

You aren’t Hashem, you aren’t the Tzaddik. You don’t need to be worrying about all this stuff.

After some pondering, I see that they are all right.

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I also see that my yetzer has been pulling a fast one on me, trying to tell me that I need to be ‘warning’ all these people, all these Jews, in chutz l’aretz, about what is about to happen over there.

It’s like World War II all over again!!! You have to tell them to get out!!!

Blah blah blah.

What, I’m the only person who can watch a Youtube channel and figure out what’s really going on behind the scenes in the US?

Of course not. Anyone who wants to can figure things out for themselves, there are so many non-Jewish journalists and bloggers and Youtubers now, who are doing a much better job than the mainstream media of putting the pieces together, and explaining what’s really going on.

I don’t need to waste any more of my time being a second-rate imitation of them.

I realized some more stuff:

I live in Jerusalem. I already took the ‘red pill’ a long time ago, and that’s why I moved out of London. There is nothing ‘practical’ I need to change about my life right now to be ready for Moshiach and geula. So paradoxically, I can actually stop obsessing about what’s happening in the wider world, and just get on with living my life and doing my own thing.

Maybe this sounds a little selfish. But I got the last couple of days that I’m effectively wasting my time banging on about this stuff, because most of the people it will directly affect don’t want to hear it, and certainly don’t want to believe it, anyway.

All my readers are grown ups who can think for themselves, and who are responsible for their own lives and neshamas. I am no cleverer than them, no more insightful than they are. All this ‘trying to predict the future stuff’ is just a big personal ga’ava trip.

And in the meantime, it’s also taking so much of my energy away from my own projects, like this new book I’m trying to write, BH, which is a personality typology based on Jewish sources. I want to go back to writing about life, pure and simple, on this blog. With some Rebbe Nachman stuff thrown in.

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I know, I’ve said that before and I’ve got pulled off into other directions. It keeps happening, it may well happen again. But what I want, really, is to leave the geula stuff alone for a good long while, because the boulder is gathering steam and is rushing down the hill all by itself now, and it doesn’t need any more prodding from me.

I need to take a break from all that, and try to put something useful out into the world. Even though my books barely sell, writing them is what I really love to do.

So, this is where I’m holding in life:

If I have any more geula insights, I will stick them up on my weekly blog at ravberland.com – as that is the appropriate place for them. Otherwise, I’m half putting my head in the sand about world events, so I can go back – and go forward! – to writing about other things, especially how to handle our emotions and develop healthier relationships.

That’s plenty controversial enough, all by itself.

And at least for now, that what God is telling me I need to be focusing on.

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Plagues of rats, swarms of locusts, killer hail and tar bubbling out of the payment – what is going on in the USA?

Last week, I was browsing the incredibly anti-semitic SOTT website – which I wouldn’t have to do, if any of our mainstream media actually printed any real information about what’s really going on in the world – when I noticed a few stories that made me think “the 10 Plagues of America.”

First, there were a couple of stories about how LA and Baltimore – and a few more of the US’s biggest cities, besides – are basically facing a plague of rats that is growing by the day, and that they can’t seem to get rid of.

Now, people will tell you that this rat plague is being caused by all the garbage lying around the streets – particularly in LA, which appears to be imploding under the weight of its own moral corruption – but honestly? I’m not so sure. More on that in a mo.

If LA’s garbage problem is the only reason for the rats, then why are so many other big cities in the US also having a plague of rats?

Something else, other than the garbage, has to be causing the problem.

And then that same day, there was also a story of how Las Vegas got shut down for a day because it was blanketed by a bizarrely massive swarm of locusts.

So many massive hailstone storms have hit the US the past couple of years that’s almost not news.

What? Hailstones the size of baseballs and grapefruit hit Colorado again? Yawn. What’s for supper?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dGEoL2-VAHs

But what with the earthquakes rocking the West coast…and the wildfires that have come back with a vengeance in Oregon near to where some recent quakes were located, and the 850,000 acres that are currently burning up in Siberia, and volcanoes mightily popping off all over the place – well, strange geological events are definitely on the rise all over the planet.

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It would appear that the expected Grand Solar Minimum which I wrote a whole bunch of stuff about HERE has shown up, exactly on schedule.

Again, without rehashing everything I’ve written about this, suffice to say that Grand Solar Minimum occurs roughly every 210 years, and the bottom of the cycle can last for 20 years – or way, way more, if it sparks off another ice age.

Throughout that 20 year cycle, the intensity and frequency of the earthquakes and volcanoes increase all over the planet, and our weather first gets crazily erratic, and then starts to get much, much colder. We’re in the opening stages of the Grand Solar Minimum drama, and from here on it, it’s going to be quite the rollercoaster ride, weatherwise.

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But I’m digressing. Let’s get back to the rats.

While I was pondering all these strange plagues of rodents and other creatures in the US, a reader sent me an email to say that bubonic plague has started back up in LA and Oregon. By itself, that’s not so shocking, because California has been steadily reporting isolated cases of plague for the last few decades. Or to put it another way,

Bubonic plague never actually stopped in California, just so far it’s been very well contained.

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Here’s a few articles I found noting the problem, and blaming it on the corrupt politicians, the lack of waste disposal, California’s drought (which ended two years ago…) and the growing army of homeless people in America, that everyone likes to pretend doesn’t really exist:

There have been 42 cases of plague in California since 1970, and nine were fatal.

This is from a post from a few months’ ago:

“All that garbage [in LA] attracts rats, which “pose a public health risk,” an infectious disease specialist told the [NBC news] outlet, because the rodents can lead to the spread of salmonella and bubonic plague — not to mention fleas that have been infected with typhus.

At least nine people were reported ill with typhus in downtown Los Angeles between July and September [in 2018], with officials pointing to refuse and stray animals as potential catalysts, according to reports from October.”

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While it’s tempting to say it’s all because LA is so corrupt and politically backwards that they can’t even arrange proper garbage collection for its residents, I personally think that’s a red-herring.

I think what might be going on there is far more interesting – and potentially, far more disturbing.

I haven’t written one of these long wild-side posts for a while, but it seems the time has come to take a deeper look at:

Black death pandemics, ‘Nibiru’ and the 700 year connection

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A while ago,  I was reading Immanuel Velikovsky’s ‘Mankind in Amnesia’, where he basically set out that every 700 years or so, there’s some sort of cataclysmic ‘supernatural’ event that comes along with a whole bunch of weird ‘supernatural’ phenomena, and strange portents in the sky.

We are currently in the Hebrew year 5779. In the Hebrew year 1656, 4068 years ago, Noah’s flood occurred, with all its comet-inspired attendant supernatural miracles, and enormous deluge of water.

Some 789 years later, in the Hebrew Year of 2445, the Exodus occurred, with all its comet-inspired attendant supernatural miracles, fiery hail / meteor showers, plagues, earthquakes and geological disruption, including seas splitting and awesome electric storms as the Jewish people received the Torah on Mount Sinai.

Another 760 years’ later, in the Hebrew year of 3205, (known as – 687 BCE in the secular world), Sennecharib’s army of 185,000 men was destroyed on the eve of Passover, as they camped outside the Jerusalem City walls ready to invade and destroy the holy city. That same year, Sennacharib’s army had conquered the Kingdom of Israel, and dispersed the 10 tribes who lived there.

While Greek sources like Herodotus claimed that these soldiers had been killed by ‘the plague’, deeper Jewish sources suggest they were actually electrocuted to death instantaneously, as part of a comet-inspired supernatural miracle which also saw the sun reverse five hours as the earth’s axis and orbit were once again affected by ‘action at a distance’ from an enormous, planet sized celestial object.

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In the Hebrew year of 3828, 623 years’ later, the Second Temple was destroyed by the Romans, and the Jewish people lost sovereignty in Israel. 52 years after that, in the Hebrew year of 3880, the Bar Kochba revolt ended, and the Jewish people were sent into exile.

There is nothing new under the sun

When all that stuff was happening in Israel, around 2,000 years ago, speculation about ‘end of days’ was at its peak within the Jewish nation. This was the time when all the Yoshki stuff started to gain a footing in the world, and it’s also the time of the Essenes and their Dead Sea Scrolls talking about teachers of darkness and the teacher of light. In 44 B.C.E., a brilliant comet was seen in the daytime sky for months after the murder of Julius Caesar in Rome – as recorded in many contemporary sources.

Big geo-political world changes always seem to go hand-in-hand with a renewed obsession with comets. From Parshat Balak, we know of Bilaam’s prophecy of the ‘Kochav Yaakov’, which will usher in time of the Moshiach, and the Zohar in Parshat Shemot 7b also talks of this:

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The non-Jews of this time, just before the Second Temple was destroyed in 70 C.E, were also obsessed with portents and signs, due to the heavens being lit up by tons of comets and other unusual celestial activities.

A pagan philosopher / writer, called LUCRETIUS wrote about this time: “destruction awaits the heavens and the earth…within some short time you will see the worlds in commotion and the universe convulsed with shocks…the universe can collapse, borne down with a frightful-sounding crash.”

(If he was alive today, that guy would DEFINITELY have his own Youtube channel…)

At this time, the Sibylline Oracles were also written, shamelessly plagiarizing from Jewish traditions, to predict the forthcoming end of the world because:

“God, Whose dwelling is in the sky, shall roll up the heavens as a book is rolled, and the whole firmament in its varied forms shall fall on divine earth and on the sea; and then shall flow a ceaseless cataract of raging fire and shall burn land and sea, and the firmament of heaven and the stars and creation itself shall cast into one molten mass and dissolve. Then no more shall there be luminaries, twinkling orbs, no night, no dawn… no spring, no summer, no winter, not autumn.”

Compare that to this description of the end of days from Isaiah (Chapter 34) (and then figure out why they decided to rewrite it, a little):

4: And all the host of heaven shall melt, and the heavens shall be rolled like a scroll, and all their host shall wither as a leaf withers from a vine, and as a withered [fig] from a fig tree.

5: For My sword has become sated in the heaven. Behold, it shall descend upon Edom, and upon the nation with whom I contend, for judgment….

8. For it is a day of vengeance for the Lord, a year of retribution for the plea of Zion. 

9. And its streams shall turn into pitch and its dust into sulfur, and its land shall become burning pitch. 

10. By night and by day, it shall not be extinguished; its smoke shall ascend forever and ever; from generation to generation it shall be waste, to eternity, no one passing through it.

The proto-xtians also got in on the ‘end of days’ act (does any of this sound familiar to anyone, btw?) and based their book of Revelations on the Sybylline Oracles, which in turn was plagiarized from the deeper Jewish sources, including the book of Isaiah.

“So highly regarded were the Sibyl’s prophecies that the fourth century church usurped her second book, inserted narratives that dealt with Christian characters,and then said it was a divine revelation given to the apostle John by Jesus Christ from Heaven, and added it to their New Testament.

Church records state that Cerinthus ‘rewrote’ the original Sibyl’s prophecies to create a falsified version, that was adjusted again in the fourth century, when it was added to the New Testament. The early church was so concerned that the general populace would learn that its Book of Revelation was a forgery, that in 405 CE the Bishop of Rome ordered the Roman general Flavius Stilicho to burn as many copies of the Sibylline Books as he could find.”

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Here’s what’s so interesting, from a Jewish perspective: each time Moshiach could have or nearly did come, it was attended by unusual comets, political chaos and unusual geophysical occurrences.

When Noah left the ark, we’re told he could have rectified the whole of creation and ushered in redemption right there and then – but he stuffed it up by getting drunk. And so, we carried on another 700-odd years until the time of the Exodus.

Again, Am Yisrael could have ushered in redemption after they accepted the Torah at Mount Sinai – but again, they stuffed it up, by building a golden calf. The next ‘et ratzon’ for Moshiach to come occurred around another 700 years later.

That’s when King Hezekiah could have been the Moshiach, and the Assyrian invader Sennacherib could have been Gog and Magog –  except Hezekiah wasn’t appropriately grateful for the miracle that God had done for him (and us…) by saving Jerusalem. The Talmud (in Sanhedrin 94a) says that:

The reason Chizkiyahu was not the Mashiach is that he didn’t sing after Hashem did miracles for him.

And so geula was pushed off for around another 700 years.

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At that stage, Rabbi Akiva (incorrectly…) believed that the Jewish rebel Bar Kochva was the Moshiach – but he wasn’t, in the end. Which just goes to show that even a massive Torah personality and Gadol HaDor can be wrong, when it comes to making predictions about who Moshiach might actually be.

The Second Temple was destroyed, the Jews were banished from their land, the Shechina went into exile – and God’s face was hidden from the world.

Yet 2,000 years ago, all the peoples of the world, Jewish or not, could still ‘feel’ that something huge was going on, that was somehow connected to the end of days.

I know, what’s all this got to do with the black plague in LA? Patience, we’re getting there.

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Another 700 years’ later, in 541-2 C.E., we get to a time when the Western Roman Empire finally ended.

And the nail in its coffin was a terrible outbreak of an unusually virulent, mysterious ‘plague’ that was centered around the Byzantine Empire’s capital, in Constantinople. That pandemic was called Justinian’s Plague, and it killed a quarter of the Empire’s citizens.

Five years after that plague struck, Constantinople was almost totally razed by the biggest earthquake it experienced in the last 2,000 years. It’s walls were severely damaged, and that made it a cake-walk for the Huns to conquer Constantinople, and put an end to the tottering Roman Empire crumbled.

After this, the so-called ‘dark ages’ began in Europe.

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It’s roughly 700 years’ after Justinian’s plague, and now we’re in the 14th century.

Once again, there are strange portents and omens in the skies (i.e. comets and meteors), strange geological phenomena and earthquakes, reports of death-dealing ‘miasmas’ rising from the ground, and water sources being poisoned.

While modern science and modern history scoffs at these descriptions as being the product of superstition and ignorance, it sounds to me like a very good description of the processes we are now seeing going on around us. The ‘miasma’ could well be an unscientific medieval description of natural methane gas rising up from the ground.

Well water – water that is raised from deep underground – would also be more susceptible to being affected by volcanic gas and if there was more ‘heat’ happening underground, to speed up the process of organisms multiplying in still or stagnant water.

Europe’s ‘Black Death’ pandemic is traditionally blamed on sailors entering the Italian port of Sicily in October, 1347. The story goes they were carrying rats aboard that spread the plague all over Italy and then on across the continent.

Very interestingly, Italy was hit with a massive earthquake in 1348:

“The 1348 Friuli earthquake, centered in the South Alpine region of Friuli, was felt across Europe on 25 January. The quake hit in the same year that the Great Plague ravaged Italy. According to contemporary sources, it caused considerable damage to structures; churches and houses collapsed, villages were destroyed and foul odors emanated from the earth.”

Medieval people connected the Black Death to the earthquakes, but didn’t go beyond explaining them both as acts of God. (If only we modern humans had their degree of perception…)

Also very interestingly, Sicily is one of the most volcanically-active areas on the planet, home to Mount Etna (which is still erupting today), and also home to Vulcano and Stromboli – after which the field of volcanology is named.

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LEPTOSPIROSIS AND PNEUMONIC PLAGUE

Last Summer in Israel, the stagnant water pools in the Golan – Israel’s volcanic region, with 63 volcanoes being officially acknowledged by geologists –  had a massive problem with the leptospirosis bacteria that is very similar to yersina pestis.

I don’t want to throw too many curve balls at you at once, but here’s an excerpt from a scientific journal from 2017 that noticed that killer pneumonic plagues seem to be connected to both the yersina pestis bacterian, and leptospirosis:

“Conditions in the Democratic Republic of the Congo provide an ideal environment for leptospirosis and plague, both of which can cause severe pulmonary manifestations. In December 2004, an outbreak of lethal pneumonia occurred in a local mining camp, affecting 130 persons and killing 57 of them. Clinical signs, fast disease spread, and initial laboratory investigations suggested pneumonic plague….

Twenty-nine of the 54 patients or convalescents tested for leptospirosis were seropositive. Two cases showed a confirmed infection for both plague and leptospirosis. While evidence supports the plague nature of this outbreak, the results suggest that some of the suspected plague cases might be due to leptospirosis. In any case, this diagnosis will have to be evoked in the future if a similar outbreak occurs in this region.”

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OK, let’s get back to the 14th century, and the Black Death.

Here’s an excerpt from Historical Tales, by Charles Morris:

“The middle of the fourteenth century was a period of extraordinary terror and disaster to Europe. Numerous portents, which sadly frightened the people, were followed by a pestilence which threatened to turn the continent into an unpeopled wilderness.”

(Point to note: ‘pestilence’ is often used interchangeably with ‘plague’ in many historical accounts. It refers to some unidentified ‘disease’ that kills an awful lot of people in a very short amount of time.)

Morris’s account then goes on to list the following:

  • 1337 CE – a great comet appears in the heavens
  • 1337-40 CE – three years of terrible famine, caused by never-ending swarms of locusts
  • 1348 CE – an enormous earthquake strikes Europe, devastating large parts of Cyprus, Greece, Italy and the Alpine valleys, together with fiery meteors and a ‘gigantic pillar of flame’ that’s seen by hundreds of people descending on the Pope’s palace in Avignon.
  • 1348-1349 CE – The black death began in Europe, killing between a third and a half of the inhabitants. (It broke out again in 1361-62 and then for a third time in 1369).
  • 1356 CE – another massive earthquake destroys the whole of Basel

Here’s a few more interesting things to note:

Morris recounts that:

“The disease appears to have been a very malignant type of what is known as the plague, a form of pestilence which has several times returned, though never with such virulence as on that occasion.”

He also notes that:

“In many localities, the hatred of the Jews by the people led to frightful excesses of persecution against them, they being accused of their enemies of poisoning the wells. From Berne, where the city councils gave orders for the massacre, it spread over the whole of Switzerland and Germany, many thousands being murdered….”

Shortly after all this killing of innocent Jews occurred, the Swiss city of Basel got destroyed by a massive earthquake.

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The crusades had happened a century before all this.

God had clearly tried to wake the Jewish people up to make some serious teshuva, preceding another golden occasion for Moshiach and geula to begin, but again we dropped the ball, and the supernatural ‘change’ that came to the world was one of wholescale death and destruction instead.

Velikovsky, writing 50 years ago, said:

“If we project this periodicity of [comet inspired / end of days] frenzy, occurring at intervals of approximately seven hundred years, into the future, will the twenty-first century mark another epoch of terror and frenzy?”

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I know, I know. You want to know about how all this is connected to LA’s rats and bubonic plague.

Patience, we’re getting there.

‘Space weather’ – the solar wind and cosmic rays – directly affects human health, including our immune systems. Space weather also affects things like the rate that bacteria and other organisms mutate and reproduce.

It seems to me that some comet-induced changes to the earth’s electromagnetic atmosphere probably had something to do with the regular ‘plague’ – which has always been present, just as it’s still with us today, even in ‘civilised’ California – morphing into ‘Justinian’s plague’, and then the black death pandemic, around 700 and 1400 years ago, respectively.

Because even now, the scientists don’t really know why yestis persina, as it’s called, morphed from the bog-standard bubonic plague into such an awful pandemic. Or even, whether yestis persina was really the culprit.

Two scientists released a book in 2001 where they set out a very compelling argument for how the ‘Black Death’ can’t have been spread via rats and fleas – which meant something else was responsible for creating the pandemic, and causing it to spread so fast:

“First of all, bubonic plague is intimately associated with rodents and the fleas they carry. But the Black Death’s pattern of spread doesn’t fit a rat and flea-borne disease. It raced across the Alps and through northern Europe at temperatures too cold for fleas to hatch, and swept from Marseilles to Paris at four kilometres a day – -far faster than a rat could travel.

Moreover, the rats necessary to spread the disease simply were not there. The only rat in Europe in the Middle Ages was the black rat, Rattus rattus, which stays close to human habitation. Yet the Black Death jumped across great tracts of open country-up to 300 kilometres between towns in France-in only a few days with no intermediate outbreaks. “Iceland had no rats at all,” notes Duncan, “but the Black Death was reported there too.”

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What there WAS, however, was a lot of reports of urban centres in Europe being totally over-run by rats, shortly before the killer plague began.

Now, are you starting to see what I’m getting at?

And the same thing happened in San Francisco in 1904, when they had a massive rat problem, and a bubonic plague problem a couple of years before the 1906 earthquake hit and devastated the city.

This comes from a piece in the NY Times in May, 2019 called ‘Rats are Taking Over NYC’:

[T]he onslaught of rats extends beyond New York: Cities such as Philadelphia, Chicago and Los Angeles are also confronting outbreaks.

“Everywhere I go, rat populations are up,” said Robert Corrigan, a research scientist in New York who estimates that their numbers may have increased by as much as 15 to 25 percent in some cities.

The rodents are not only a nuisance and a blight on the quality of life, but also a health risk. A bacterial infection spread by rat urine, leptospirosis, killed a Bronx resident in 2017.

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Let’s take a breath, and ask the question:

Why are all these rats coming out of hiding from their nests and tunnels underground in the US?

Like all rodents, rats prefer dark places to sunlit ones. And even if there is a ton of garbage lying around, they would just come and scavenge it at night, before returning to their underground nests.

But now, apparently, something is forcing them up and out of their underground burrows.

If you ask me, it’s rising methane, rising heat, something do with the magma in the US coming much closer to the surface. A few weeks’ ago, before the two large earthquakes struck California, there were a lot of reports of boiling tar literally spilling out across pavements in the La Brea area of Los Angeles.

Does that sound normal to you?

[WARNING: This video is not shmirat eynayim friendly.]

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It’s a long post, I know, so let’s try to sum things up neatly, to give you the take-away points.

  • Every 700 years, there seems to be some massive plague pandemic that engulfs humanity.
  • This ‘plague’ or pestilence is usually accompanied by a lot of celestial ‘portents’, i.e. comets, meteors and other unusual disturbances in the Heavens.
  • It’s also accompanied by freak geological events, unusual swarms of rodents and other creatures, earthquakes, fires, ‘poisoned water’ and poisonous ‘miasmas’, or gas clouds, rising from the earth.
  • Many of these pandemics have been historically associated with plagues of rats being seen in urban centres shortly before they began.
  • Yersina pestis – the bacteria thought to be responsible for the black death – is always with us. It’s unclear whether yersina pestis was actually responsible for the mass pandemics of the past, or whether things like the Black Death were caused by something more like an ebola virus..
  • Rats are pouring out of the ground all over America.
  • Plague cases are on the rise in California.
  • We are approximately 700 years after the ‘great plague’ decimated Europe in the 14th
  • This seems to be another of Hashem’s et ratzon’s for Moshiach and Geula.
  • Hopefully, we won’t drop the ball this time and see another massive spike in violent anti-semitism / Jews being blamed for everything.

We certainly live in interesting times.

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Before Moshiach shows up, it says the troubles will pile up non-stop.

The last few months, I don’t think I’ve had a single night of peaceful, unbroken sleep. Between the teenagers, the heat (I don’t have air-conditioning) and the endless mosquitoes, every single night has seen me wake up multiple times.

And this has been going on since November. And really, I can’t even blame the teenagers because even on the nights that they’ve both been in school, I still have been sleeping pretty badly.

All this means that I am plodding through life like a half-dazed zombie at the moment. There are some days I’m so tired, I can’t even think about what to make for supper, let alone actually go and buy the stuff. It’s a problem.

I feel I can’t really ‘interact’ at more than a basic level with anyone right now, because I’m totally whacked out and I just don’t have the energy to do it. And then, there’s the matter of the book.

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I was actually just finishing up a piece of creative non-fiction five months ago, that I’d been working on with a developmental editor, and it was coming along very nicely. Literally as I got to the last page of that, One in a Generation Volume II suddenly came back on to the radar as a ‘live’ project, and I spent the 6 weeks before Pesach working at the speed of light to get that book out before Seder night.

I don’t know why there was such a mad rush, exactly, but I had the sense that it was very important spiritually to get that book ‘out there’, even though so few people have actually bought it or read it.

Then it was Pesach, which I had to sort out in a week as I had so little time beforehand because I’d been working on One in a Generation, and like all of us, I found preparing for the festival pretty exhausting. Over chol hamoed, I was so whacked out that mostly all I did was stay home, which is pretty unusual for me.

Time to slow down a bit, paint some more, do things at a quieter pace, I told my husband back then, as he nodded sagely.

That’s not exactly what happened.

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Post-Pesach, Shuvu Banim decided that they’d like to make something of a PR push around the book.

They found a professional who was happy to volunteer their services, so that more people would have a chance of hearing the truth about the huge miscarriage of justice around Rabbi Berland. So, I spent the month after Pesach putting together one PR proposal after another, one website after another, and having regular meetings to try to get One in a Generation to take off, somehow.

So much effort. So much work. So little to really show for it.

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This is how the PR guy recently summed up our campaign, in an email he sent me about all the problems he was having with the newswires.

“They think Rav Merav didn’t say his quote, that we faked it. But they don’t want to speak with him and then they want him to have an email with an official domain of a business or a Shuvu Banim email to then go through some verification process. However the strength of his quote is the fact he is an independent well known rabbi and not part of Shuvu Banim. We followed their process without giving him a Shuvu email and they said it was not good enough…
They also said a couple lines from your quote must be removed because it is against the Israeli court ruling… They also said we could not link to your video because of the same.  They didn’t want the parts saying there was fake evidence, the accusations were false, and that this was like Yosef from 3,000 years ago.  They got very nasty on the phone…
Most opposition I ever got in 15 years and that includes working for a company accused of compromising US national security and another accused of causing cancer!”
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Go back and read that again, because I want you to really grasp how much censorship of information is going on in the world generally, and about Rabbi Berland specifically. The media is totally manipulating the public to only think what they want us all to think, and to suppress any facts that goes against their narrative.

In the end, we had to shoot a video of Rabbi Meirav with totally toned-down quotes, just so the newswire would agree to even cover it. More ‘troubles’….

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So then, we got up to Shavuot and I was feeling mega exhausted.

I asked my husband if we could go to Uman for the chag, just us two. He agreed, we went – and then I discovered that the kever is totally closed to women over Shavuot, so I couldn’t get in. More ‘troubles’…

Instead, I went to Gan Sofia, and spent isru chag lying under some massive trees on an island in the middle of the main lake there. It was bliss. It was probably the first time I’ve ever chilled out in Uman, and I felt like Rabbenu was giving me a massive dose of ‘relaxation’ to counter-balance all the stress and lack of sleep of recent months.

The night we flew out, we’d also swung past Hevron for an hour, to join in Rabbi Berland’s prayer gathering, which he’d called after we’d already booked our tickets to the Ukraine. Rabbi Berland promised: Everyone who comes won’t have a minute more of suffering!

Who could resist a deal like that?

So now we get to the crux of this post.

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The day after I got back from Uman, I answered an ad looking for a new service that was looking for books to launch as part of a pilot program that was heavily discounted from what they’d charge once they’d got it all figured out.

I figured I’d try my luck, so I sent a two line email describing a book that was ‘almost finished’, that maybe would fit their program. In reality, I hadn’t written it yet, I just had the title, but I was so sure they wouldn’t respond.

Long story short: they took the book.

Which means I’ve spent the last few weeks furiously typing like a banshee again, trying to get the draft done to something at least approaching the time scale. It’s nearly done now, but in the meantime I’ve been totally neglecting my household and family the last month, AGAIN, and I know that’s not good, but what could I do, really?

The ‘troubles’ pile up like one wave after another, before one trouble is over, another begins…

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Yesterday night, after another day’s hard typing, I staggered off to bed at 10pm to see if I could try and get a good night sleep.

Just as I was dozing off, the ubiquitous mosquito showed up, and started dive-bombing my face.

This usually occurs in the five minutes just before I’m about to drop off, and I can get so agitated trying to find the mosquito zapper to electrocute it that all my adrenalin starts pumping, and then it takes me hours and hours to calm down enough to get back to sleep.

Yesterday, I was so tired, I couldn’t be bothered fighting that thing.

Let it bite me, let it suck my blood. I’m past caring.

I fell asleep – and an hour later, I woke up again because my husband had come home, and had just switched on the bedside light to try and track down the mosquito. He’s a great guy, but he’s got this habit of shining that spotlight straight in my face in the middle of the night, like he’s practicing to join a Mexican torture gang.

I squinted at him standing there with the mosquito zapper, looking apologetic but determined, and I wondered to myself:

God, are You out to get me? Because I have to tell you, it’s really starting to feel that way.

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I was too tired to take it further yesterday night, but this morning, I think I finally figured out what’s going on.

It says before Moshiach comes, the troubles will come so thick and fast that before one ‘problem’ is even over, the next one starts up. I know so many people are going through the ringer at the moment, with awful, massive problems hitting them thick and fast.

And in my house?

The ‘problems’ are my books, which are taking up so much headspace and energy without really giving a heck of a lot back, and the ‘troubles’ are the mosquitos, that hide out in my room just waiting for me to go to sleep.

But this morning, I realized just how lucky I am to have troubles like these.

Yes, on one level I’m having difficulties coping with the daily challenge of not getting enough sleep, but I’m not really suffering from all this, even though it’s challenging.

After Hevron, it seems ‘the troubles’ got sweetened.

But let’s be clear, I’m still looking forward to the time when I get have a good night’s sleep again, and not walk through life like a spaced-out zombie, and have a bit of time to paint and to actually interact with people.

But at least until Tu B’Av, it seems that just ain’t going to happen.

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