Moving to Israel is a dream that many Jews from Jewish communities around the globe nurtured for 2,000 years.

Today, there is a Jewish State of Israel for Jews to make aliyah to. In a short 100 years, Israel has been transformed from a desolate place of sand and harsh sun to a place teeming with modern homes, skyscrapers and swimming pools.

Yet despite the enormous improvement in the materialistic standard of living, many Jews are still avoiding making the move to Israel, regret moving to Israel, or even, are moving out of Israel to other countries.

In this category, you’ll find a number of different articles looking at many of the different aspects and benefits of moving to Israel – the cons, as well as the pros. It’s certainly true that making aliyah  – especially if you’re moving to Israel without a job, or as a senior, or with school-age children – can be extremely challenging.

But the spiritual benefits of making aliyah are unparalleled. If you care more about the soul aspects of life than the material aspects of owning a large property and having lots of cheap holidays and clothes from Target (to name but a few of things some immigrants miss from the old country), then you will probably never regret making the move.

Some of the other things we cover on this blog include:

  • Moving to Israel with no money
  • What to expect if you move back to Israel from another country- as a toshav hozer
  • Where to find schools in Israel in English
  • Moving to Israel to convert
  • Retiring to Israel
  • Moving around within Israel – trying to find the right community
  • Is it worth moving to Israel – the material, emotional and spiritual aspects you need to consider, before making the decision
  • Converting to Judaism and then moving to Israel – what you need to know
  • Aliyah after 50
  • Aliyah and work options if you don’t speak Hebrew
  • Moving to Israel – the Jewish and spiritual dimension
  • Torah sources on making aliyah

Rav Arush is officially in Uman – he was in the kever yesterday.

I hope to write something later with an update on what’s happening with the poor Jews in Belarus.

This is becoming an international disgrace, that the Belarussion government is showing way more compassion to them than anyone in the State of Israel.

Hashem, how much more of this callous uncaring and cruelty can we take?!

And also, please remember the lesson taught by Rabbenu and the Baal Shem Tov (amongst others) that before Hashem delivers a harsh judgement upon a person, they are first shown the same circumstance by someone else, but it’s ‘dressed up’ in different clothes, to disguise the similarity.

This is what happened with David and Batsheva, when the Prophet Natan came before the king with a story of a rich man with a large flock who stole a poor man’s single sheep.

When King David judged that ‘rich man’ harshly – he signed his own fate.

And so it is with us.

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The Jews who are stuck in the border with Ukraine could be any one of us.

The State of Israel changed the rules of travel on them mid-flight, then bribed and pressured Ukraine to keep them out of the country illegally.

Now, they are using media propaganda to paint the victims as being somehow ‘to blame’ for what the State of Israel did to them.

If you are reading this sitting in chul, be aware that the same exact thing could happen to you – and actually IS happening to a lot of people I know, who are trying to make aliya legitimately, only to find the State of Israel keeps changing the rules on them to bar them from entering the country.

They don’t want any more religious Jews here, didn’t you get the message yet?

So, are you going to judge those Breslevers in Belarus harshly?

And if yes, where will that leave you, if circumstances worsen in chul for Jews and one day you find YOURSELF stuck at some foreign border with non-Jewish soldiers patrolling, no food, no money, and no help whatsoever from the ‘Jewish State’?

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And if you’re sitting there in Israel and judging them harshly, where is that going to leave you, when the ‘Jewish State’ sends its brownshirts in to your synagogues and schools and homes and businesses for ‘putting yourself in danger’ and ‘taking stupid and unnecessary risks’ just because of your ‘dumb beliefs’?

What are you going to say then, and how do you want God to help you out of your tough predicament?

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What’s happening in Belarus is just a massive test, ahead of Rosh Hashana, yom hadin, and however we react to the plight of those Breslevers – either with compassion, concern and mercy, or with harsh judgment, blame and callous indifference – that’s how we ourselves will be judged.

So, think very carefully what sort of year YOU want next year, and act accordingly.

And remember, that saying nothing when your brother’s blood is being spilt is also considered to be an aveira, and an act of passive cruelty and uncaring.

Make no mistake about it, those Breslovers in Belarus are the canary in the coal mine.

If you care what happens to them, God will care what happens to you, in 5781.

And if not…

Then you have signed your own judgment, and you will have to live with the consequences.

And yes, I’m also talking to all those bloggers out there, who are studiously ignoring the plight of their fellow Jew, while making all their pious statements about ‘who is going to make it’ to geula, and how to really make teshuva…. (pass the puke bag.)

Let’s just say, I probably won’t have a lot to read online in a few weeks time, the way things are going.

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And now, here’s the latest message about Moshiach being here in Eretz Yisrael, and just waiting to be revealed, from Rav Shalom Arush:

[This updated version has the message subtitles in English, from the breslev.co.il website, here.]

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Rav Arush ends by saying the generation’s elders are telling him to spread the message that Jews should make aliya ASAP.

I know it’s hard, believe me.

I know all the tricks the State of Israel is using to stop people from coming.

But learn from the Breslovers, and DO IT ANYWAY.

The obstacles are just an illusion, that are hiding Hashem, and to increase the desire to come.

If you pray, and you act with mesirut nefesh, the gates will open, and this evil government will fall very soon.

Ken yiyeh ha ratzon.

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Does all this ‘taking the knee‘ stuff sound familiar to you?

Cos it sure as heck sounds familiar to me.

In biblical times, whenever the nation of Israel was going to go out to war, there would be a selection process whereby those that had ‘knelt to the Baal’ were disqualified for service.

On a similar note, doesn’t all these statues – pessalim, idols – being smashed up, defaced and toppled all over the place remind you of something else?

Like, what happened in ancient Egypt during the 10 plagues, when the nation’s idols were destroyed one after another – except for the Baal Tzafon, that was left standing right until the end?

We appear to be in the middle of a modern day 10 plagues.

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Over the last week or so, there have been a series of 6.0+ earthquakes fanning out across the globe.

Dutchsinse got taken off the internet, because the powers that be didn’t want him educating the population about how geomagnatic phenomena and seismicity really works, so I can’t give you any ‘predictions’ for a big one, at least not from him.

But, I guess I don’t have to, because Rabbi Pinto told us many weeks ago that a big earthquake is coming soon:

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The kabbalists have told us that we are now in the middle of the 9 months of the ‘foreign rule’ that precedes Moshiach’s coming.

It’s all happening, folks.

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One last thought for today, then I have to get on with finishing another book project for the Rav, BH.

There’s a big discussion going on about aliya right now, given the mounting violence etc we are witnessing worldwide, and the fact that orthodox Jews are now being stabbed in the head in London, etc.

I live in Israel. I’ve struggled to live in Israel, financially, and socially, and in many other ways, too.

But I still know that living in Israel is 100% a gift from Hashem, and that when people are ‘stopped’ from making aliya, it’s because they are the subject of large spiritual judgments, above.

I’m not here because I have more emuna, more foresight, more bravery, more wisdom than anyone else.

I’m here because God decided to give me and my family a gift 16 years ago, and to push us out of the UK and into the Holyland.

For me to think that I somehow got here under my own steam, or because of my own spiritual merit is totally laughable. I was really not such a nice person when we made aliyah, and my emuna was practically non-existent. We got here because God basically scared the pants off me via a series of nightmares, and then helped me to buy a much bigger house here, than I could have afforded in the UK at that time.

There was a very big carrot, and a very big stick.

What there wasn’t, was a person with great middot or a burning desire to move to Israel for spiritual reasons.

I can’t claim any credit for moving here, it was all God’s doing.

I guess what I’m really trying to say is that if God could get me to Israel, then He can certainly do that for everyone else, too.

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All this upheaval is a present, to clear away the judgments that have been preventing Jews from coming to Israel.

The single best way to help people to make aliya – including ourselves! – is to:

  1. Pray
  2. Make some sincere teshuva
  3. Connect to the true tzaddikim, and their Torah and advice, including Rebbe Nachman and Rav Berland.

No-one got out of Egypt without Moshe Rabbenu.

No-one.

And no-one got into Eretz Israel if they were still bad-mouthing other Jews, speaking badly of them, and going against the Tzaddik HaDor.

I’ve written about this subject elsewhere, below, I’ll attach a few posts on the subject.

But let me end with this snippet from Rabbenu, which goes to the heart of the question of whether moving to Israel and living here is really enough, to be ‘saved’ from the chevlei Moshiach all by itself:

The motive for making the journey to Eretz Yisrael should be purely spiritual: to draw closer to God. A person who goes there with this as his aim will certainly benefit….On the other hand, if a person’s motive has nothing to do with devotion to God and cleansing himself of his evil, then what help will Israel be to him? The land will vomit him out…

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I am sure that there will still be an opportunity for people to move here, even though most of us still haven’t woken up to the unpleasant fact that the State of Israel has closed its borders to Jews abroad – and from what I can see, this seems to be part of a deliberate strategy to stop people making aliya.

Otherwise, why not just test anyone who flies here for Corona first, why not just put them up in the empty hotels and Air BnBs for 2 weeks of quarantine?

As that Cypriot billionaire showed us all last week, where this is a will to get people into Israel, there was always a way, even at the height of the lockdown here.

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The Rav said many months ago that people will come on boats – and I don’t think he was referring to private yachts.

He’s talking about luxury liners that can hold thousands of people. At some point, the penny will drop, and Jews abroad will realise that every word the Rav says should be explored in total seriousness.

But even if that’s not the case, and people don’t make it here – God has a plan for them.

As long as someone is working on coming closer to God, and working on their emuna that whatever God does, it’s for the best, ultimately they will end up in a good place. That doesn’t necessarily mean getting to Israel, or even coming through the whole process alive.

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There are no guarantees for anyone, wherever they happen to live, except this:

If we accept God’s will for us with emuna, then whatever happens down here, live or die, aliya or not, our souls will end up in a very, very good place.

And that’s really the whole point, hard as that can be for us to swallow.

We all remember the stories of the chassidim in World War II who danced into the gas chambers, because they knew that their souls were going straight to the highest places in shemayim.

And we all remember those reshaim in Israel, all those Labour Zionists, and others, who survived the war and even held prestigious jobs running the country for decades.

Where did their souls end up?

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So, take courage dear reader. Wherever you live, you can continue to do God’s will sincerely, and if you get the chance to move here – take it! And if you don’t, your emuna is what is really going to count, at the end of the day.

Rav Berland has explained more than once that we all have to die before techiat hametim can occur, even if just for a second.

So trust God, remember that the SOUL is what really matters, not the body, and get as close as you can to Rav Berland and Rebbe Nachman’s Torah.

Because no-one got out of Egypt and into the Holy Land unless they were following Moshe Rabbenu and listening to the Tzaddik HaDor

Even if they already happened to live in Israel.

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UPDATE:

I just noticed something interesting:

Black Lives Matter = BLM.

BiLaaM.

There is nothing new under the sun.

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I spent a lot of today on the beach with a good friend (and her baby son) who got cabin fever from being locked down for 3 months.

She is a ‘beach’ person (or at least was, in her former life, before making teshuva and having a lot of kids back-to-back), so we went to Palmachim beach. I had my ‘super-tznius’ swimming costume, she had her ‘modest swim dress’, and we were all set.

Honestly?

I didn’t like Palmachim very much. It was beautiful, but the waves were for surfers, not bathers, and the beach was full of hairy (men…), fat (women…) secular types, many of whom reminded me, in the strongest possible terms, why cellulite is totally unattractive.

Even when they are burnt brown, wobbly bottoms being bifurcated by stretch lycra and hairy-rug-eight-month-pregnant stomachs (on men…) are just not attractive.

Please pardon me, for stating the obvious.

But my friend was loving the ability to just relax on the beach quietly for a couple of stolen hours, so I just kind of walked up and down observing humanity and pondering on how sad my life would be if THIS was all I had in it.

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Sure, it’s fun to bat around a hard black ball for a few minutes.

Sure, when the waves aren’t so strong that they can take your legs out from under you even when you are standing out of the water it’s fun to jump the waves for an hour or two.

But as a group of middle-aged hi-tech execs set up their yom kef behind me, all edgy tattoos and cut-off jeans, and expensive-looking grapes from the cool box, and even more expensive dyed hairdos on the women – I suddenly realised that the beach life is actually so empty.

That was useful. Very useful.

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Because in case you haven’t noticed, I roared out of lock down with a serious mid-life crisis.

For a month, I was seriously considering learning how to ride a motorbike, and then toying with buying a pink moped. And I’ve bought my weight in new clothes the last 3 weeks. And I’ve barely had a day in the house, because I had a panicked feeling that I was going to get locked down again, and there is so much I haven’t done yet.

So many streams I haven’t paddled in, so many beaches I haven’t visited, so many natural beauty spots I haven’t seen….

Now, after almost 3 solid weeks of driving literally all over Israel pretty much every day, it’s finally starting to wane.

This morning’s experience, where I watched a bunch of expensively-dressed, miserable secular people trying to cover up all their anxiety with ‘opinions’ about Covid -19 and edgy tattoos and loud red lipstick has made me so very grateful that I spent the last 15 years chasing after God, instead of money and status.

I think I have about another week of full-on tiyuling going on, maximum, and then I’ll be ready to knuckle down again, and to start writing again here properly.

And there is so much to write about.

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Like, about the fact that the State of Israel is refusing to allow Jews into the country, unless they already have an Israeli passport.

Given that the diaspora is currently facing its worse crisis since WWII, with Warren Wilhelm Jr (aka Bill de Blasio) living up to his German ancestry over there in NYC, and given that the State of Israel has always made such a big deal of being the country Jews could flee to when it all hit the fan, what’s going on now is totally scandalous.

My siblings all have Israeli passports, but their spouses and children don’t.

They are literally being told that they can come – alone – but the rest of the family can’t.

This makes no sense, logically, and is also immoral.

So, expect to see a replay of ‘Exodus’ happening soon, but this time with the State of Israel’s navy operating in place of the evil British, trying to prevent ships with Jews from docking in Haifa port.

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And then, there’s the forces of evil’s ‘reset’ agenda going on, with digital currencies and global population control, and all sorts of scary biology. COVID-19 was only ever the ‘excuse’ to role out this plan, it’s not real, it’s a fake pandemic.

But they ARE right, that a Great Reset is going to happen soon – probably by Tisha B’Av 5781.

It’s called the coming of Moshiach, and once Rav Berland finally gets out of prison, things are going to skyrocket.

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And then, there’s all the stuff with the ‘peace’ plan for the Middle East, which I haven’t even touched on yet.

And then, I’m having the growing urge to pull together One in a Generation 3 – which MUST mean more fireworks are imminent, as those books always coincide with some big things shifting in the geula process.

And a lot more, besides. Like DARPA’s link to Operation Paperclip Nazis…

And how failing banks ushered in the last round of Nazis, prior to WWII.

And how there is really nothing new under the sun….

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So patience, dear readers.

My mid-life crisis seems to be drawing to a close, and in around a week or so, I will be back at my keyboard, and back answering emails, and generally back with more enthusiasm and emuna again.

I just need to visit a few more kivrei tzaddikim, to recharge the batteries, and then we will be ready for take off again, and the holy, good ‘Great Reset’ that is going to usher in the geula for real.

I can’t wait.

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Photo by Jose Antonio Gallego Vázquez on Unsplash

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As we move back to ‘semi’ normal life, Hashem is watching closely to see if we learned our lesson.

You could be forgiven for thinking ‘everything is going back to normal’. It certainly looks like that on the surface, but really?

Hashem is giving us a mid-term exam, to see if we learned the lesson of the recent Coronavirus ‘pandemic’, and to make the appropriate teshuva.

Some of that teshuva could include:

  • Making plans ASAP to move to Israel, as soon as the skies open up next week
  • Making some real teshuva on all our arrogance, and tendency to gossip and judge other people harshly
  • Working on our mitzvot bein adam l’havero – and again, let me underline this WITH A BIG RED PEN, that the first and main place to look with this is our kids, and especially our teenagers. More on this in a moment.
  • Making some effort to rectify all the gossip and slander we participated in with regard to Rabbi Berland. More on this in a moment, too.

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Most of us still have our work cut out for us, and God gave us a taste of what ‘the end of the world’ really looks like, minus all the pie-in-the-sky pretend-Jewish Disney-style cack about magic carpets flying all those good Jews – and their big houses and expensive cars – to Israel as soon as Moshiach shows up.

That’s just not how it’s going to happen.

Things are going to get hairy again, that’s not me talking, it’s Rav Pinto, who has successfully ‘predicted’ a whole bunch of things in recent months, and is now calling for an earthquake followed by a war.

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Rav Kanievsky also said that Corona was a gift from Hashem, to encourage Jews to move to Israel to avoid the war of Gog and Magog that’s about to break out in chutz l’aretz.

But then, we have Rav Berland who said that the wars will only be in 200 years, and who is currently suffering so much in prison, where they are withholding even the basic things like a change of clothing, or medicine, and who even knows what they are *actively* trying to do to harm him.

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Today, one of the biggest rabbis in Israel made a public statement that the State of Israel ‘has decreed a death sentence against Rabbi Berland.’

He’s calling for a peaceful protest to take place, and for every Jew to take to the streets to protest – totally within the law, of course – until the government releases the Rav. I just got sent this over email:

We will all be gathering at the kever of the Shlah Hakadosh erev rosh chodesh Sivan to pray for the Rav and from there will we show our support with a peaceful demonstration outside Tzalmon prison where the tzaddik is being held.

Schedule:
This Thursday May 21
Buses leaving Jerusalem from Shivtei Yisrael at 3pm (reservation required 0583255645)
Mincha at the Shelah at 6pm
Maariv, Tikun Hakali and show of support at 8:30pm
Buses returning to Jerusalem at 10:00pm

Everyone is welcome to join from anywhere in the country

Cost of buses one person per seat as per the Health Ministries instructions is 100 shekel round trip

We are looking for sponsors to subsidize this cost

“Our strength is only through prayer”

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I plan on going, BH.

Not on the bus, but up in the car.

Why am I making all that effort, in this horrible heatwave, to take a 5 hour round trip just to stand outside a prison reading the tikkun haklali?

  1. I’m trying to do what that big Rav said, and to protest Rav Berland’s totally unjust and cruel incarceration.
  2. I am providing myself – and my family – with some spiritual ‘life insurance’ for the next birth pang, that is going to show up soon enough, make no mistake about it.

During this whole Coronavirus thing, it was so blindingly obvious to me that the people who were more with Rav Berland, and working on their emuna and emunat tzaddikim, came through this whole episode with way less suffering than everyone else.

For example, I heard stories of how Breslov families living in Uman were all hit by ‘Coronavirus’, but the ones who were close to the Rav all came through with minimum disruption and very mild symptoms, while those families who were ‘anti’ the Rav suffered tremendously, in many different ways.

And I saw that playing out in my own life, too.

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Midda kneged midda, the people who believed the lying media about Rav Berland also believed the lying media about the fake ‘pandemic’ too, and have gone through – and continue to go through – months of sheer panic and self-inflicted suffocation inside their super-duper KN95 masks.

Whereas those people who were with the Rav had a lot of siyatta de’shmya to see through all the hype and fearmongering, and to continue walking outside as much as possible, and to breathe fresh air as much as possible, and to continue ‘normal life’ as much as possible, baruch Hashem.

From my own life, I have no idea how my husband’s parnassa has held up as well as it has during this ‘pandemic’ except to tell you that I think it’s a present from shemayim for being so vocally behind the Rav.

So, I’m heading off to Tzalmon to demonstrate, because I want that spiritual protection to continue, and to continue to shelter under the Tzaddik’s wings when the next round of ‘interesting’ shows up.

Because make no mistake, it’s already on its way.

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This ‘normal’ is just a breathing space, a chance for all of us to action all the teshuva we swore we would make when we thought the world was ending imminently.

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And on that front, I just want to end with one more thought about bein adam l’havero, and how that relates to our teenagers and kids.

The last three months, we’ve all been living in close quarters with our kids and families. God did that on purpose, so we would be forced to look our relationship blind spots straight in the face, and actually try to fix all that stuff that is broken.

You really want to make some serious teshuva?

Ask your teenagers and grown up kids to rate your performance over the last few months, and pay careful attention to what they tell you.

Were you panicking your bottom off about Corona, and forcing everyone to ‘self-isolate’ for 8 solid weeks and to wear facemasks 24/7?

Were you using the whole ‘pandemic’ thing as an excuse to get your kids back under your thumb, and to start controlling their every move again?

Did you empathise when your kids hit the skids and couldn’t get out of bed because they were suffering from social withdrawal, fear and yeoush, or did you just angrily criticise them for being lazy do-nothings?

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If you really want to take this up a level, you can also ask your spouse to rate your recent performance, too.

Were you more giving, or more taking the last few months?

Did you make an effort for the people in your life, to try to smooth as many of the rough edges of the ‘Corona Pandemic Experience’ as you could, or did you expect other people to make your life easier?

Were you grateful for all the kindnesses Hashem continued to shower on you, during this whole experience?

I could go on (and on and on) but you get the idea.

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We all have some serious teshuva to make, and God is giving us this quiet time to action it.

I hope we’ll use this time wisely.

Because every small action we make know is going to decide what happens next, both in personal space, and in the world at large.

And the stakes continue to be very large.

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More than anything else, I wanted to run away.

I wanted to pull the plug on all my ‘citizen journalism’, all my attempts to keep telling people what’s really going on with the fake, politically-engineered ‘pandemic’, and all the research and effort and soul power that costs me.

What I wanted to do was basically give up on ‘reality’ as it’s currently playing out, and to just concentrate on getting my Secret Diaries out there – regardless of who reads them – so I could feel I really did accomplish *something* in life, and then just spend the rest of my time gardening and knitting.

That was basically the plan.

But as so often happens, God decided differently.

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I’m 99% sure that Amazon is about to ban my Secret Diary #2, Questions for God, at least the Kindle version – which is the only way anyone is really buying books these days.

It’s still ‘in review’ – after 3 days – and the last time that happened was when Amazon decided to ban Rabbi Berland’s book of Prayers for Health, which included a tagline for the Coronavirus prayer on the cover.

Amazon being Amazon, they never tell you why they are banning anything, so it was a lucky ‘guess’ with Rav Berland’s book. I switched the cover around a little (after it took me 3 weeks to recover from the disappointment), removed any mention of ‘Corona’, and managed to get it past them that way.

But when it comes to Questions for God?

I have no idea why it appears they want to ban it. So, I have no idea what I can do to get it unbanned. Of course, this all may be premature, we’ll see, but in the meantime I did another six hours yesterday, and a bit more hitbodedut about it all today, too, and the message I got was this:

Rivka, you can’t run away into your books. There’s a lot of other stuff you still need to do.

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I typed that, and I sighed a big sigh.

Because honestly? I’ve had enough.

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Jews are so stubborn.

For years, most of my extended family members and friends have been relating to me as an amusing, but somewhat demented conspiracy theorist.

I am the weirdo who totally trashed my career prospects and social life by moving to Israel. And if that wasn’t bad enough, I then added insult to injury by becoming a ‘religious extremist’ who started talking to God every day, and visiting the tombs of dead saints.

Of course, things went up yet another level when I started getting closer to Rav Berland. That’s when I started getting into arguments with just about everyone I know, both on and offline, who were convinced that they knew better because they avidly read Ynet and the Yeshiva World News every day.

Even my own children spent two years thinking I was a brainwashed, cult-member ‘lunatic’ for supporting the Rav, because that’s what they were hearing from their media-indoctrinated friends.

That was, and still is, pretty painful.

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But you know why I threw myself so wholeheartedly behind Rabbi Berland?

Because every time I talked to God about the subject, I got the ‘message’ back that I should do everything in my power to help him, any way I could.

You know how I knew that Coronavirus was a crock right from the beginning?

Because every time I talked to God about what was going on, that was the message I got. That it really was meant to have been awful, but that the Rav had sweetened it with his self-sacrifice and prayers.

You know why I keep putting ‘unpopular’ posts up encouraging people to move to Israel ASAP, and having awkward conversations with people about how their pension – and savings, and stock market portfolios, and properties – are about to disappear in a puff of pixie dust very, very soon?

Yup, you guessed it.

Every time I check in with my neshama, and ask God about what’s happening, that’s the steer I get. Also from the writings of Rebbe Nachman (check out The Master of Prayer) and also from what I can see so clearly with the two eyes in my head that God gave me.

But Jews are so stubborn.

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And that’s why so often, I just want to give up and go and do something more rewarding, like knitting a blanket, or something.

How many times can a person write the words:

Doing hitbodedut is the only way you are really going to figure out what’s going on?

How many times can I keep sticking hours, days and weeks’ worth of rock-solid research up here on the site, just to keep seeing it derailed by innate biases, bad middot, and arrogance?

God, I give up!!!

Let me just go and write some books – just for my own enjoyment and edification, I don’t even care if people don’t buy them anymore – and forget about trying to change anybody else’s mind, or viewpoint.

Dayenu!

I’m done. I’m finished. I’m retiring.

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What can I tell you?

I want to give up. What’s the point of writing this stuff, when so many people just can’t hear it, or believe it, or deal with it?

What’s the point?

I want to give up and go and do something more personally fulfilling, that doesn’t keep putting me in opposition to 99.9% of the rest of the world.

But God isn’t letting me.

Again.

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Apparently, the gates of Eretz Yisrael are now shut to Jews.

That’s what I’ve been hearing from many of my contacts abroad, that unless you have prior Israeli citizenship, you can no longer move to Israel because of ‘COVID’ (sarcasm is included in the quote marks).

The last few weeks, I’ve had a bunch of conversations with people all over the world, who are trying to get back to Israel, but now can’t. Some of them own property here, some of them were in the process of making aliyah formally and were literally at the last step and had tickets bought – but they still aren’t being allowed in.

Yesterday, I had this email land in my inbox from someone in the States who wants to get to Israel ASAP, and has been told they can’t, unless they are a citizen:

Rivka, I spoke to Jewish Agency and been informed Aliyah would take too long.

The dangers may be imminent, all this information im hearing about FEMA camps that can actually be concentration camps and martial law worries me and Poskim over there like Rav Berland and Rav Yoel Shwartz of Dvar Yerushalayim has said to return to Israel asap. I definitely want to leave at most in a few weeks. A bunch of companies especially Elal are restarting 2nd week of May.

Can you inquire from any of your sources if non Israeli Citizens / just US citizens have been able to fly to Israel and get in, which defers from what they say online about not being able to unless Aliyah has been completed. Ive read that they might be more lenient than they say.

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I was pondering all this in hitbodedut this morning, and God reminded me about these MTV ‘commercials’ from back in 2011 (warning: they are not shmirat eynayim suitable).

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They were taken down very quickly, and scrubbed off the net.

But some people saved them at the time, and are now re-uploading them (we’ll see how long this video stays up on Youtube, more evidence of the ongoing censorship in action). That’s also why the quality is grainy – they aren’t the originals. They got ‘removed’ a long time ago.

When I first saw them 9 years ago, I thought they were bizarre – but a warning from Heaven.

Today, they are making me pretty nervous.

So, WHAT CAN WE DO ABOUT ALL THIS?

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Here’s what I think.

We need to put our own brains aside, and follow the advice of the Tzaddik HaDor, Rabbi Eliezer Berland.

Last week, he put out a statement saying that millions of Jews will come to Eretz Yisrael on ships.

Just like the authorities shut down the escape route to Eretz Yisrael (in connivance with the people who then went on to become the ‘official’ government in the State of Israel….) before World War II, so history appears to be repeating itself.

The planes are down, the gates are apparently shut, for now.

But I am sure that God is not going to leave it like this.

I’m sure that anyone who really wants to get here still can. Just it’s going to take a lot of prayer and mesirut nefesh.

And probably, hiring a boat.

Dumb as this sounds, if you really want to get to Israel and they aren’t opening up the flights soon, and they aren’t letting ‘non-citizens’ come, club together, hire a boat, and sail to the Holy Land.

The boat ride will act as official ‘quarantine’ in the meantime, and then the Israeli Authorities will face a public relations disaster of enormous proportions mamash, if a boat full of Jews who want to make aliya shows up at an Israeli port, and the State of Israel tries to turn it away.

Only nazis would do something like that…..

And our wonderful government, with the holy Bibi at its head, would never do something that evil…

Especially not when the public is watching, and the civil unrest in the country is already starting to build.

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So yalla!

Start organizing the next ‘Exodus’ ASAP.

Things are going back to fake ‘normal’ for a few more weeks, a few more months, so that anyone who just woke up and now wants to make aliyah can still do it – just with a lot of effort.

BH, they will re-open the flights, and re-open the ability to get here as a non-citizen in an easier way soon too, but don’t rely on that. If the Tzaddik HaDor is talking about coming on ships, that’s probably good advice to at least start exploring from a practical perspective.

Because just like those MTV commercials, I’m starting to get holocaust deja vu.

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PS: I just want to add, as an afterthought, even though part of me is so sick of repeating the same thing and being almost totally ignored, that if more of us would throw our weight behind Rabbi Eliezer Berland, the Tzaddik HaDor and hezkat Moshiach of our generation, that all these negative scenarios would disappear like a puff of smoke.

But so many of the Jews out there seem to be playing some kind of weird game of ‘chicken’ with God, seeing who is going to blink first.

It seems to me that so many people are so invested in their egos, and their public appearance, and have such an overwhelming need to be ‘right’, that they literally can’t climb down from whatever ‘anti-Rav Berland’ tree they backed themselves up into, by believing all the lying media reports of recent years, even if it’s going to prevent another holocaust.

28 people downloaded Rabbi Berland’s Prayers #2, and just one holy soul – may God bless them! – actually bought the paperback version, so the book was officially ‘printed’ in the world.

Modest as that sounds, I know that sweetened things tremendously, at least here in Israel, because yesterday – the last day of the free download – nearly all the businesses in Israel reopened, albeit with the dumb masks and police state still clearly lurking.

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Getting behind the Rav sweetens all this, and brings geula the much easier, nicer way, without FEMA camps, COVID-19 or martial law.

BH, I really hope more people will be able to swallow their pride, and admit they made a mistake. About slandering the Rav, about mocking the rabbis who were calling for people to make aliya for over a decade, about thinking they know better than our holy leaders….

If we make teshuva, everything can and will turn around in the blink of an eye.

The choice is ours.

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Another short post, as I’m trying to pull together Secret Diary of a Jewish Housewife #3.

#2 is almost ready, and I’ll let you know when it’s up on Amazon.

So, I was thinking about what Rabbi Berland said way back in 2016, as part of this post:

“The Rav said that at the moment that Moshiach would be revealed, Armilus HaRasha [the head of the mixed multitude, or Erev Rav] would come, together with all of the nations of the world, and he would try to fight against the Moshiach. So then the Moshiach would escape to the desert, together with some simple, pure-minded people, and there they would hide-out for nine months, the same amount of time as it takes to bring a pregnancy to term.

After nine months, the Moshiach would return and would reveal himself openly to everyone, and then everyone would reconcile with him, and make peace with him. The Rav said that the moment that Moshiach received his [spiritual] crown on the day of hakhel, soldiers will come from all over the world, with warships from all the nations of the world, against Eretz Yisrael.”

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Go back and re-read the whole thing, as it’s talking about what’s happening right now, and what will occur before we get to Moshiach and geula, hopefully the sweet way.

Because even with all the corona-fascists, this is still the sweet way, at the moment.

There is food to buy, electricity, some sort of ‘law and order’, however corrupt and stifling.

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But the key points that struck me are these;

  1. The Moshiach will be hidden for 9 months – which corresponds to the 9 months of ‘foreign rule’ in Israel.
  2. Rav Berland went into prison on February 9th. Two weeks later, we all followed him into ‘prison’, as Corona Fascism began in Israel, and other places around the world.
  3. In 9 months time, we get to Succot.
  4. The Moshiach reveals himself during Succot, specifically the Hakhel ceremony that occurs on the first day of that chag, on the 8th year after Shmitta.
  5. That’s when all the nations of the world will come to fight against the Moshiach, and Israel.

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Here’s what the Jewish Virtual Library has to say about Hakhel:

HAKHEL (Heb. הַקְהֵל; “assemble”). The Bible enjoins that “At the end of every seven years, at the time of the year of release, at the Feast of Tabernacles” there is to take place an assembly of the whole people, “men, women, children, and the stranger that is within your gates.” The purpose of this assembly is “that they may hear and so learn to revere the Lord your God and to observe faithfully every word of this Teaching” (Deut. 31:10–13).

This ceremony, called Hakhel (“assemble”) after the opening word of verse 12, is mentioned only once in the Talmud (Sot. 7:8), but in great detail and includes an interesting historical incident. The Mishnah lays it down (ibid.) that the date referred to is on the first day of the festival of Sukkot after the close of the seven-year period of *shemittah, i.e., on the 15th day of the first month of the eighth year.

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We know from HERE, that Rav Berland told us that this process of Moshiach coming is going to last until 5781 – next year.

Rav Berland, shlita, said then:

“We are now preparing the Yom Kippur of 5776, preparing the Yom Kippur a day of salvation of 5781 when the Rosh Hashanah will come out on Shabbos and Pesach on Motzaei Shabbos and there will be a Purim Meshulash, when there will be the geulah, then it will be a day for relief, 5781, so will the true salvation to Israel, which Daniel prophesized that this will be on two thousand and three hundred, morn till eve, 2300 years, which will end in 5781, the year of Israel’s salvation.

The Rav continued:

“AND NOW WE ARE PREPARING IN THESE SAME SIX YEARS, AND THOSE SIX YEARS FROM 5776 UNTIL 5781, THESE ARE YEARS OF REDEMPTION. THESE ARE YEARS IN WHICH THE PEOPLE OF ISRAEL WILL DO TESHUVA, THE BIGGEST CRIMINALS WILL DO TESHUVA, BECAUSE THERE ARE NO SECULAR IN THE JEWISH PEOPLE, AND THERE ARE NO CRIMINALS AMONG THE PEOPLE OF ISRAEL, AND NO WICKED PEOPLE OF ISRAEL.

“These are all just stages in the salvation, it’s all stages in the development of the soul, in accepting the parts of the soul, the biggest gangster in the end will become the most righteous man.”

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The next shemitta year beings in 5782 – September 2021.

So, I have no idea how all this is meant to fit together.

And also, our teshuva can definitely get everything to change overnight, especially if all the Jews move to Israel, as the Rav is now explicitly urging them to do.

But it looks like things are going to continue along the ‘weird’ path for a while still, as this process unfolds.

So prepare yourselves mentally.

 

 

Six days ago, Israel upped the # of tests for COVID-19 to 11,000 a day.

Before that, they were testing at somewhere between 5-6.500 tests a day:

On Wednesday, 5,570 tests were conducted; on Thursday, 5,421 tests; and on Friday, there were 5,980 testing kits that arrived at the coronavirus laboratories.

It’s important to understand that the number of tests being done in Israel has effectively doubled over the last week, so that you can really start to grasp just how much COVID-19 has come off the boil here.

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The figures below are from the Worldometer website.

They show some very good news.

This figure shows the ‘peak’ of the number of people actively infected with COVID-19 that occurred on April 15th, i.e. they hadn’t either recovered from it, or died from it, lo alenu.

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This shows where we’re holding now – the TOTAL number of active cases is down, plus they also effectively DOUBLED the number of people they are testing – so the real infection rates in Israel are falling even lower than this number suggests.

The last 5 days, the number of new cases has just been in the 200+ region.

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Similarly, daily deaths are down from a ‘peak’ of 13 a day (and can I just point out again, that on average 131 people die in Israel EVERY SINGLE DAY, even when there is no pretend pandemic):

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And there is a sharp spike in the numbers of newly-recovered, while the numbers of new cases has dipped – and remember again, they have doubled the testing over the last week, so these stats are even more impressive than it appears, on first glance.

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In Israel, there is no pandemic.

And in the rest of the world, the numbers of people dying are also well in line with a bad flu season.

Let’s take the UK, which so many people like to talk up as a ‘terrible example’ of mortality from COVID-19.

In 2017 – known as a ‘bad’ flu year – this is what the UK National Office of Statistics says, about total number of people who died that year:

There were 533,253 deaths registered in England and Wales in 2017, a 1.6% increase from 2016 and the highest number registered annually since 2003.

So, in a bad flu year, 533,000 divided by 12 months of the year = 44,416 deaths every month, on average.

When you have that context, 17,337 deaths in total (over three months, meaning 5,779 deaths per month – when 44,500 normally die every month), attributed to COVID, in the UK, just doesn’t sound so much. It’s around a 9th of the normal dying rate).

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This table shows the excess mortality from winter deaths in the UK, from the office of National Statistics.

https://www.ons.gov.uk/peoplepopulationandcommunity/birthsdeathsandmarriages/deaths/datasets/excesswintermortalityinenglandandwalesreferencetables

It shows that over 50,000 EXTRA people died during the winter in 2018, presumably from flu and other cold-weather related issues.

This figure hugely dwarfs the 17,337 people dying from COVID-19 – and we are almost in May.

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If you look at that same table, in figure 3, it also shows the daily death rates for the UK in 2018.

There is not a day goes by that has less than 1,150 people dying every single day – as normal – even in the middle of the Summer.

And in the winter, the ‘normal death rate typically spikes up to well over 2,000 people dying a day.

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So, let me ask you again: Does this really sound like an unusual pandemic is going on, with COVID-19?

In the meantime, it’s now illegal to go to the Kotel, to grab a breath of fresh air without wearing a pointless mask, and to visit your friends, go for a long walk, or invite guests for Shabbat.

Why?

Even though COVID-19 is already fading from sight, the OTT dictatorship and police state is sadly not going anywhere fast. They are now trying to talk up the ‘second wave’ of COVID-19 to justify keeping us under lock and key for the foreseeable future, seeing as the first wave failed to deliver millions of dead people, like it was meant to.

The good news is:

Geula is on the way.

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And you can do your bit to get it the sweet way by encouraging as many people as you can to download Rabbi Eliezer Berland’s Prayers for Health, for FREE, over the next five days.

The book contains a prayer to be saved from the Coronavirus, and as regular readers of this blog already know, without the Rav’s prayers, self-sacrifice and sweetening, we would be in a very different situation with the COVID-19 ghost pandemic.

But there is still a lot to do, especially for the Jewish communities in NY and New Jersey, who HAVE been hit hard by COVID-19. There is a lot of teshuva still to make, a lot of ‘sweetening’ still required.

You can go HERE to download the book for free, and it will stay free until Sunday, April 26th, 2020.

(Personally, I’d keep it free permanently, but Amazon won’t let me….)

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Two days ago, Rabbi Berland gave over a shiur where he said this:

If everyone would have made aliya to Eretz Yisrael, then immediately the Moshiach would have come.

Everyone needs to make aliyah to Eretz Yisrael, we need to return everyone to here, great and small, as one. Rabbanim, Admorim and Chassidim – everyone needs to ascend to Eretz Yisrael.

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It looks like the time of the ‘3 oaths’ preventing Jews from ascending ‘like a wall’ to Eretz Yisrael has now been clearly ended.

Even if the COVID-19 ‘pandemic’ drops off, there will be another birth pang along shortly. As soon as the skies reopen, plan to make aliya ASAP. Don’t forget the lessons learned from what we’ve all been through the last 2 months, if things go back to ‘normal’ soon.

That lull is only temporary.

It’s only so you can get your act together, and get over to Israel ASAP.

Don’t forget that, when it all starts to return to ‘normal’.

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UPDATE:

Look at this headline, from today’s Jerusalem Post:

Here’s how it’s misleading the public, deliberately or otherwise:

  1. As opposed to the number of people who are ACTIVELY infected, which are the numbers I’m using in the article above, which peaked at 9,808 thousand people 7 days ago, and is now dropping every day, as more people recover than are infected, they continue to tell you – wrongly – that ’14, 326 patients are infected’. I.e. they are including everyone who ever came back with a positive test result for COVID, even though well over 4,000 people have now officially recovered.
  2. Maths is not their strong point, you can tell. Even though we are now – after 6 weeks of total fearmongering – getting a little bit of honesty from the MSM about the numbers of old people dying from COVID-19, even now, the Jpost is still fudging the issue. Their headline makes it seem as though 25% of people who apparently died from COVID were UNDER 70. But if we add up the numbers for how many people were over 70, we actually get:

88.58%

And if they would include the figures for the over 65s too, then this figure would expand significantly.

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To put this in other words, close to 90% of all the people who died from COVID in Israel were over 70.

If they were telling you this fact from a few weeks ago, would you have agreed to let them stop schools, shut down synagogues and crash the economy so that 25% of all Israelis – and 50% of those aged 35 or less – are now unemployed?

Nope, me neither.

I guess that’s why they didn’t tell us.

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I just got sent this link from the author of the IsraelTruthTimes blog.

You can see her full post HERE and make up your own mind about what she writes. At this stage, I’m still reserving judgment, but after I found some hard evidence in the ‘real world’ that Israel’s PM Netanyahu and Health DG Moshe Bar Siman Tov are openly cooperating to sell our medical records to Big Pharma; and also that Bill Gates owns a lot of the 5G tech in the US, I have to say that more and more of my skepticism is starting to evaporate.

Also, as I see more and more decisions being made that seem to be 100% political, with no stated scientific evidence to back them up even remotely, my BS-o-meter is pinging off louder and louder.

To quote some examples from today, some anonymous health official in Israel was saying that Corona is ‘out of control’ in East Jerusalem.

How do they know?

Where are the numbers to back this up?

Where is the evidence? Any evidence, I mean, apart from this one hysterical statement that can’t be pinned down with any solid numbers?

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In the meantime, they are now set to lock down places like Meah Shearim, Har Nof, Elad, Modiin Illit and Bet Shemesh.

But strangely, not Beer Sheva – where a large proportion of the elderly people who are actually dying from COVID-19 come from.

Again, don’t look at the rates of people testing positive for COVID-19, the more people they test, the more that number will rise and rise.

Look at the numbers of people who are dying, and then do your own research to check whether those numbers are above the seasonal norm for this time of year.

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Yehoram Lass, the former DG of the Health Ministry, publically stated that 126 Israelis die from flu every single year – and we’re still nowhere near that with COVID-19.

The numbers dying of flu in the US are 40,000, and 17,000 die in Italy EVERY SINGLE YEAR.

The COVID-19 numbers are still coming nowhere near the numbers of people who die from flu, and the vast majority of those dying are over 70.

And in Israel, from what I can see, a large percentage of the victims are over 90. They aren’t putting all the figures out, if they were, it would be easy to see that between 1/3 -1/2 of those dying here in Israel from COVID-19 are actually over 90.

I strongly recommend that you take a moment to go and read this interview with Lass, if you haven’t already, as it will instantly take your stress levels about COVID-19 down – and but probably raise your stress levels about what the heck our politicians and leaders are actually doing, with this massive, WHO-sponsored over-reaction:

https://en.globes.co.il/en/article-lockdown-lunacy-1001322696

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So now, over to the spiritual aspect of what’s going on, because that’s actually crucially important.

The following was set out on the Israel Truth Times blog, as a statement made by Rav Chaim Kanievsky on Wednesday last week, April 1, 2020. You can hear the audio on the Sod1820 website HERE.

Now, I don’t know if this is genuine or not. You’ll have to do your own hitbodedut, and you’re own figuring things out, and no-one can do that process for you, because this is an integral part of GETTING REAL, and getting into a mode of being that will ‘fit’ the time of geula and Moshiach’s open revelation.

But given that Rav Eliezer Berland put out a message the same time that said this:

“ALL OF THE JEWS IN THE DIASPORA WILL LEAVE THEIR HOMES AND THEIR BUSINESSES, AND WILL BOARD BOATS, AND THEY WILL ARRIVE WITHIN A WEEK FROM EVERY CORNER OF THE WORLD.”

I’m taking it way more seriously than I otherwise would.

BTW – when the Rav is saying ‘within a week’, it’s not clear that this means within a week from the Rav giving his message. If you read what he said in context, there is a chain of events that occurs, and the Jews coming to Israel on ships is a specific part of that process.

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So with all that build-up, here’s the message that may or may not be from Rav Chaim Kanievsky, as brought on the Israel Truth Times site:

https://sod1820.co.il/%d7%9e%d7%93%d7%91%d7%a8%d7%99-%d7%94%d7%a8%d7%91-%d7%a7%d7%a0%d7%99%d7%99%d7%91%d7%a1%d7%a7%d7%99-%d7%94%d7%a7%d7%95%d7%a8%d7%95%d7%a0%d7%94-%d7%96%d7%94-%d7%94%d7%a6%d7%9c%d7%94-%d7%9c%d7%99%d7%94/

Listen to the audio not the video – and what follows below is just a small part of the audio message, so if you understand Hebrew, it’s good to listen to the whole thing.

(English follows Hebrew):

הרב יקותיאל פיש שליט”א (מוציא לאור של עלון סוד החשמל), מביא את דבריו של הרב חיים קנייבסקי שליט”א :

קריאה דחופה ליהודים שגרים בחו”ל : תגיעו מהר לארץ

הקורונה היא לא מגפה ולא מחלה, היא הצלה.

היא הצלה ליהודי חוץ לארץ להציל אותם ממלחמת גוג ומגוג.

בארץ ישראל יהיו ניסים גדולים.

חברה קדישא שבדרך כלל קוברת מדי יום בין 80 ל 100 מתים, כעת בתקופת הקורונה חברה קדישא קוברים בין 10 ל 20 מתים.

מגפת הקורונה היא הצלה. היא חוסכת כ 80 מתים ביום.

קריאה נרגשת ליהודי חו”ל:
תשכרו טיסות מאורגנות ותגיעו מיד לארץ.
תוכלו להתאכסן במלונות הריקים.
יש לכם כסף והכסף נועד להצלת נפשות.

הרב קנייבסקי שליט”א אומר:
המצב בחו”ל הוא סכנה, וחמירא סכנתא מאיסורא.

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Translation:

URGENT CALL TO THE JEWS WHO LIVE IN CHUTZ LA’ARETZ:

COME QUICK TO ERETZ YISRAEL!

THE CORONAVIRUS IS NEITHER A PANDEMIC NOR A DISEASE: IT IS A SALVATION.

IT IS SALVATION FOR THE JEWS OF CHUTZ LA’ARETZ SO THEY CAN ESCAPE THE WAR OF GOG AND MAGOG.

IN ERETZ YISRAEL THERE WILL BE GREAT MIRACLES.

THE HEVRA KADISHA USUALLY BURIES FROM 80 TO 100 DEAD (in Israel), THESE DAYS OF THE CORONAVIRUS THE HEVRA KADISHA BURIED BETWEEN 10 AND 20 DEAD.

THE PANDEMIC OF THE CORONAVIRUS IS A LIFESAVER: IT SAVES ABOUT 80 DEAD PER DAY.

URGENT CALL TO THE JEWS OF CHUTZ LA’ARETZ:

ORGANIZE GROUP FLIGHTS AND COME IMMEDIATELY TO ERETZ YISRAEL.

YOU WILL BE ABLE TO STAY AT THE HOTELS THAT ARE EMPTY.

YOU HAVE MONEY, AND MONEY IS TO BE USED TO SAVE LIVES. 

THE SITUATION IN CHUTZ LA ARETZ IS DANGEROUS, 

AND

חמירא סכנתא מאיסורא
 DANGER IS WORSE THAN DIFFICULTIES
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Everyone reading this is a grown-up.

Everyone can think for themselves, and do a lot of praying on this asking God to show them what’s true, and make their own cheshbon hanefesh as to whether it sounds realistic, or not.
Everyone can take their own actions – or not.
But as things continue, I can tell you one thing for sure:

The world is not going back to ‘NORMAL’ after all this, whatever else happens.

There may still be a semblance of normalcy that returns before the next stage of this geula process unfolds, but let’s be honest that it’s going to take some massive shocks to the system to dislodge Jews out of chul to the point where they will be coming to Israel on ships, for kibbutz galiot.
And this fake Corona pandemic is probably just the first of them.
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Am I the only one who’s got a profound sense of deja vu?

Man, I am so tired at the moment. True, I woke up at 4.15am today, and couldn’t get back to sleep. But why I’m really tired at the moment is because my soul is very tired. I’m not even saying that in a bad way, or a despairing way, it’s just a statement of fact.

Really since last Shavuot, I’ve been burning the candle at both ends, trying to do this, and trying to do that, and trying to work on stuff for Rav Berland, and move my own stuff forward, somehow.

Spiritually, I hope it’s made a difference. But honestly, I’m not so sure.

And while I am one of those dumb people who will continue going long after everyone else gave up, if I really believe in something, I have to say I’m approaching the point of burn out. Maybe, we’ve just reached that stage now where the die has been cast, and whatever is going to happen next is going to happen.

I really hope and pray that Rav Berland and his community, and the rest of the Tzaddikim, are going to continue to be able to sweeten the threat from Iran.

But honestly, part of me is just so tired of being locked up in Geula Ground Hog Day, where every few months we go through the whole pantomime again, with no obvious resolution.

The most primitive part of the human brain hates uncertainty. That’s why fortune tellers, and soothsayers and false prophets have always done such a roaring trade since the dawn of time, and are still going strong today.

The primitive part of the brain, aka the yetzer hara, just wants to have a conclusion already, a decision. It doesn’t really care if we’re going to get nuked to smithereens, it just wants the denouement already, because sometimes the uncertainty is unbearable. At least, for the yetzer.

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They did a research project a little while back where they asked volunteers to play a video game where they had to turn over stones to find a snake.

Every time they found a snake, the volunteer got a small, but unpleasant, electric shock.

The researchers incorporated a bunch of obvious clues in the game, which gave players a reasonable certainty of whether there would be a snake, or not. And they discovered a very interesting thing: players were less stressed about knowing with certainty they were about to find a snake, than if there was a 50-50 chance of finding or not finding.

This study explains something that has always puzzled me, namely why there are so many of us out there that seem to be secretly anticipating Iran nuking Israel. Is life that boring, or that miserable, that this seems like a preferable scenario to soldiering on, even though the uncertainty is sometimes just so hard to take?

Apparently for many people, the answer is ‘yes’.

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Nothing is certain today, is it?

Not the weather, not the economy, not the elections, not the whole idea that hard work and effort inevitably brings reward – so much is up in the air, and for sure, that’s totally stressing us out.

We don’t care too much WHAT is around the corner, Hashem, but the not knowing is driving us totally bonkers…

So what’s the answer to this?

How can we put some ‘certainty’ into what is fundamentally one of the most volatile periods of time in the history of mankind?

The answer is, only be trying to boost our emuna that God is running the world, and our bitachon that whatever God has planned, it’s all for the best.

Apart from this sort of radical emuna, there is no other workable option on the table.

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Three days ago, my husband and I visited the 8th circle of hell that is Bank Mizrachi’s mortgage department.

I warned my husband going in that he was probably going to have a PTSD flashback, after the last time they agreed a mortgage in principle only to revoke their agreement after we’d signed.

But last time it was a complicated property in a complicated part of Jerusalem, and we were asking for a relatively massive mortgage. This time, we were asking for a relatively small mortgage in a new build property in Harish, so what could be the problem?

Aha! Fool that I am.

We sat there, exchanged precisely 1 ½ words of ‘pleasantries’ before the mortgage clerk put the clamp on us and went straight for the jugular. Because my husband switched over from being self-employed to being a business in 2019, whatever paperwork we’d put together apparently wasn’t enough to show them we had the income we were claiming.

Apparently, because his clients don’t pay precisely the same amount into his account, in round numbers, every single month, our mortgage approval (which again, we’d received in theory) was now in jeopardy.

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I watched my husband’s eyes dilate, and all the blood rush from his cheeks as the bank devil continued to dance around him, jabbing her French-accented Hebrew pitchfork into his face. A classic PTSD response. His breathing sped up and went more shallow (ready for fight or flight) and I also felt my stomach muscles tense up (definitely fight…)

But then, a strange thing happened.

I remembered God runs the world, and that if God wants to stuff up our mortgage yet again, then that must be for the very best of reasons, and a million percent what we need.

I started clapping my hands as the bank devil continued to prod my husband, and I stage-whispered at him: “Clap your hands and don’t fight back! There’s nothing you can do, except to clap your hands and dance!”

By this point, the fight response was gathering steam above my husband’s head, so he was effectively carrying on two arguments at once: one, with the bank devil, who was trying to explain to him how even earning a gazillion shekels a year isn’t enough to get a mortgage guaranteed, if it isn’t appearing in his account in a neat little box every single month.

And then a second argument with me, who was stage whispering at him to go outside the bank for a minute, and do some dancing.

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I also nipped off to the toilets, to see if I could do a bit of jumping up and down to stomp on the head of the forces of evil that run Israel’s banking industry.

I couldn’t manage a lot of stomping – I didn’t want the Arab lady cleaning the toilets to report me for borderline psychotic behavior – but even the little bit I did made me feel way better.

I returned to the little booth, where my husband was still caught in a classic PTSD response, and I started clapping my hands again, while the bank devil looked at me a little quizzically.

“Go outside and dance!” I hissed at him. “There is nothing else to do here!”

So he did – literally for half a minute – and when he returned, the bank devil got the phone call we’d been waiting for, announcing that the bank would review her refusal of the mortgage, as long as we would send along a few more documents, and twist ourselves into a few more pretzels, and agree to sacrifice a close family member to the Moloch.

(I made one of these statements up. See if you can guess which one.)

The uncertainty continues, the madness and the unfairness continues. The bad guys are still running the country and holding all the cards in their hand, but I don’t really care anymore.

Mortgage or no mortgage, I can still be happy. Nuke or no nuke, I can still make supper and love my family, and carry on working on my ‘beat your stress course’ – which I have to tell you, has been totally stressing me out for months, already.

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The last few weeks, it seems as though pretty much every source of stress and uncertainty that we’ve ever had to struggle with the last few years has been sent back to us to deal with, as part of the ongoing Geula Ground Hog Day.

The last few years, I’ve whinged and complained so much about not having a house, and finding it so hard to find a place to live in Jerusalem, and not having a mortgage, and being strapped for cash, and not getting my books to sell, and not being able to keep my kids settled in school – and a million other things, besides.

But no more! This time, whatever else happens, I’m not going to complain.

God wants to nuke me off the face of the earth? That’s fine with me. Really.

God doesn’t want me to have a mortgage? OK, no big deal. If I have to sell the apartment in Harish, I will.

God wants my kid to drop out of school (again….)? Great! That’s clearly what she needs to do at this point, because I have tried everything I can to keep her in that framework, and I can see how bad ‘school’ actually is, for her soul.

You remember in Ground Hog Day, by the end Bill Murray actually starts to look forward to each repeated day, because he can act like a crazy person and do a bunch of things that otherwise, he’d never do in a million years?

Like sit there clapping in the face of a bank devil who’s telling you they aren’t going to give you a mortgage? Again?

This time around, I’m determined to enjoy the 8th circle of hell that is Bank Mizrachi, whatever else happens. There’s no such thing as ‘certainty’ in 2020, and certainly not in my small corner of it.

The only certain thing is that God is behind all this stuff, and it’s somehow good.

What else do I need to know?

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UPDATE:

I just found this video (above) of a Nanach guy which made the point about dancing and clapping hands sweetening judgments, and also made me laugh. Thank God for strange people who believe in Hashem and have Youtube channels. Where would we be, without them?

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