As ‘lockdown’ draws closer, I’m feeling that there is nowhere left to run.

Since Pesach, I’ve basically been trying to keep one step ahead of the Corona Fascists, and all their nefarious schemes for using COVID-1984 to impose their controlling agenda on the world.

I hate being controlled.

I hate being policed.

I hate having my basic freedom to walk places, to breathe fresh air, to visit holy sites, to get out in nature, to meet up with friends, to pray – curtailed.

And I’m also pretty scared about the motives and agenda behind all this ‘control’ and false COVID-1984 narrative, which makes it even harder to deal with the day-to-day Corona Fascism.

For the last few months, I’ve been trying to run away from the ‘control’ anyway I can.

But here in Uman, it’s finally starting to dawn on me that I am running out of places to run to.

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The plan today was to try to take a cab to Rabbi Natan’s grave in Breslov, and then to carry on to the Baal Shem Tov in Medzhiboz.

Yesterday, I walked out on Pushkina to try to find a cab. Usually, there are 5 people every square foot, asking me if I want to exchange money or take a cab. Yesterday, there was no-one. Maybe, it had something to do with the group of 4 masked Ukrainian police who have now taken up permanent position on the corner of Pushkina, where you head down into the tomb.

They just strike me (and everyone else…) as menacing, so we’re all kind of staying away from them.

A lot of the taxi guys are working in the black economy, off the books, so I guess they are also being scared off.

Point being, I couldn’t find a cab to order for Medzhiboz.

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This morning, I woke up early to see if I could arrange a cab now instead.

But I found myself kind of stuck to my sheets with a sick feeling that it took me a while to pin down as ‘fear’. I’m scared to leave Uman. I’m scared to leave the sanctuary of Rebbe Nachman. Things are so changeable, I don’t want to find myself somehow trapped outside of Uman (even though we have a rental here now through Rosh Hashana), or having to deal with the Ukrainian authorities again.

So, it looks like I’m not risking going to the BESHT after all.

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After some consideration of why I’m feeling so stressed all the time, I came to realise how much pressure I feel to keep things ‘working’ in my family unit.

Thanks to Corona Fascism, I have spent the last 6-7 months in close proximity to my husband and children, with very little break. Even though as soon as the last lockdown was lifted, I went all over the country to maximise the ‘freedom’ I had – and encouraged my kids to do the same – the idea of being ‘stuck’ with my family, with no escape, is still very hard for me.

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I knew they were going to lockdown in Israel before Rosh Hashana. 

They were threatening that for months, it’s always been part of “the plan”.

And at least in part, the knowledge of that encouraged me to run off here, to Uman, although clearly there was also a big aspect of being ‘pulled’ to Rabbenu, too.

Today, I’m realising that I can’t keep running away from the difficult feelings all this COVID-1984 stuff is bringing up in me.

The last few months, I’ve run away into cooking, I’ve run away into nature, I’ve run away into turning out one book after another and work, I’ve run away into gardening – a million different things.

And here in Uman, it’s finally dawning on me that I can’t keep running. I’m exhausted. I’m tired. I’m overwhelmed. I’m lost.

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Underneath all this, is the knowledge that I find ‘home’ a very difficult place.

‘Home’ for me was always a place I wanted to escape from, and while I’ve done a lot of work on myself since I was married to transform that tendency, so my kids wouldn’t end up as psychos, I can see there is still a stubborn nub of fear of being at home, and of being with my family, that has resisted all efforts to shift it.

At the end of the day, God is the One who is running this COVID-1984 show.

God is the One who is putting me – and all of us – under this tremendous pressure. God has an outcome He is trying to achieve, and end in mind, a goal to reach.

For me, it’s finally making my peace with just ‘being’. ‘Being’ at home. ‘Being’ with my family. Not constantly running to the next distraction, the next escape hatch.

That’s very hard for me to accept.

It’s very hard for me to handle.

But increasingly, I’m seeing that the only way I can really get away from this ‘fear of being’ is to stop running away, and to turn around and face it down.

Holding God’s hand.

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It’s not against COVID-1984, or against corrupt government officials.

The real war to be fought here is against our own bad middot, and especially our tavot mamon.

Ukrainians are notoriously stingy. Like, notoriously. We have been charged by a taxi for wanting to turn the airconditioning on, we’ve been charged extra for towels, extra for toilet paper, extra for taking especially big gulps of air (ok, that last one is a lie.)

Point is, money is definitely what makes the world go round in the Ukraine.

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The landlord we’re renting from here in Uman is actually OK, as Ukrainians go, and has shown me a few kindnesses in the two days I’ve been here. He gave me pegs (for free…) He gave me bin bags (for free…) – but he was careful to tell me that I could only throw the bin bag out when it was totally full. And he’s also careful to let me know when the toilet flush gets stuck, so I don’t waste a grivna of his money on that trickle of unnecessary water.

A grivna is worth approximately half a cent.

And Ukraine is totally awash in water – it’s literally everywhere.

I’m not like this at all, so living in close quarters with such a stingy person is proving quite eye-opening. Not least, it’s showing me how very stressful it is, to have people like that around, always looking over your shoulder and critiquing your spending, like an in-house accountant. And it’s also showing me how much unnecessary pain and suffering all this stinginess and tavot mamon (lust for money) is bringing to the world.

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This morning, our landlord finally managed to rent out the unit next to us.

The group of 8 Israelis who rented it got a really good deal, because our landlord is scared no-one else is coming out to Uman this year.

(He’s wrong, but he doesn’t know that yet.)

Usually, beds like his, in this location, in a reasonable apartment like his, go for at least $500 a head. This morning, he let the group have it for $180 a head, but he made the same condition that he made with us, that no-one else could come round to flat unless they were renting a bed in it.

I understand that condition.

I know it’s coming partially from a stingy place, but I also understand that the temptation to sneak another person in to sleep on a spare bed without paying may prove too strong for many people.

Long story short, the group invited two more people to come eat with them just now who aren’t renting there – and the landlord showed up, and asked them to pay more money.

They refused.

And then, instead of working it out like grown ups, the group of 8 decided to stand on principle and to leave. 

It was 6.30 at night, and their chances of finding somewhere else to sleep or rent right now are pretty small.

And for what? A few extra dollars? Whatever they think they saved, it’s going to cost them way more in hassle and effort.

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This morning in the kever, I opened Rebbe Nachman’s Tales to the story of the Master of Prayer, where the Master of Prayer was taking the people of the Land of Money to task, for devoting their whole life to money.

Retarded people!!! Don’t you understand money is a tool, it’s a means to an end, not an end in and of itself!!! Why waste so much effort, so much energy, trying to conserve a couple of bucks, or trying to squeeze a couple more bucks out of other people?!?

(Clearly, I’m paraphrasing what Rabbenu said here.)

I have seen so many people sour relationships and cause massive emotional damage to others, especially their children and spouses, by making their money, their bank account, their principal priority in life.

Personally, I am at a stage that I literally can’t stand all this stingy ayin hara over money any more.

I can’t stand the people who criticise others for spending a little bit more on their groceries; or for giving some charity to askers who can’t be proven to be 100000% ‘kosher’; or who make it a big ‘mitzvah’ to try to screw prices down so hard (or inflate them so high) it literally hurts.

I can’t stand those people.

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Recently, I read a prayer from the Rav, Rabbi Berland, which set up a clear correlation between the trait of stinginess and the ayin hara. People who have the first invariably have big problems with the second.

And that’s the whole war that we’re fighting right now, to convince all those people living n the Land of Money to finally give up on their false beliefs and destructive ideology.

Money is for spending.

Money is for sharing.

Money is for building the world, not boosting your investment portfolio.

Rebbe Nachman teaches very clearly that before Moshiach comes, anyone who has a lot of money will be totally shamed and disgusted by the money itself.

All those millionaires and billionaires, who could have helped so many people, done so many kindnesses, but preferred to continue to suck everyone else dry, and to take bribes, and to promote the agenda of evil in the world, just so they can have a few more zeros in the bank.

And what about us?

How much are we also stuck in the Land of Money, putting our savings ahead of helping our kids, or inviting guests for Shabbat, or even buying ourselves a new frock for the chag?

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Money as we know it is about to disappear.

That’s why the tests involving money are becoming so sharp.

And that’s why God is checking us so carefully right now, to see how caught up in the lust for money, tavot maimon, we really are.

The more of us can kick free from it, and start to trust more in God and less in our savings and ability to manage money, the easier this next stage will go.

So, I give us all a blessing that we will replace our stingy, ayin hara with a generous ayin tova. That we will want to give to others generously. That we won’t worry about spending what we need to, in order to live and to celebrate Jewish holidays, and give ourselves and our families what we really need.

Because when enough of us get out of the Land of Money, Moshiach will come.

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This morning, the world felt like a really heavy place.

I woke up, went to get some oatmeal and lentils from the Uman outdoor market (a place I never went to before, in the last 14 years of coming to Uman…) and the whole of Pushkina just kind of felt weird and quiet.

Later on, I found out why.

On Monday, a local visible Jew had gotten beaten up by locals at the end of the street  – right next to the supermarket I went to yesterday, without knowing what had happened the day before.

The guy had lived here for 10 years and knows the city. But thanks to Gamzu and Netanyahu’s efforts to turn the local populace against frum Jews, as being an unhygenic ‘public health’ threat, the guy was punched in the face badly enough that he bled profusely from his nose.

Thanks, State of Israel!

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There was other weird stuff, too.

The 10 year old who runs the local kosher makolet suddenly got super makpid that everyone should wear a mask, if they wanted to come in and shop. When someone asked him why, he explained the police had been round ‘enforcing’ masks.

Thanks, State of Israel!

Also, there were a few clearly not Jewish people trying to shop (suspiciously…) in the kosher shop, and it seemed clear they were undercover Ukrainians working for the government, to check if the ‘dirty Jews’ were keeping the ‘hygiene laws’ properly.

Heyyy, wait a minute. Where have I heard that before?

https://www.researchgate.net/publication/8428324_In_the_Name_of_Public_Health_-_Nazi_Racial_Hygiene

The history of Nazi racial-hygiene policies and eugenics reminds us of the importance of guarding against the use of genetics for the purpose of discrimination.

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Then, I went for a walk down Pushkina towards the lake, and I saw that the road had been dug up, like you would dig it up if there was a pipe that needed replacing.

But I peered down the 2 metre deep crevice dug horizontally across the bottom of Pushkina, and I can tell you there is nary a pipe in sight. It dawned on me that the roadblocks that the Mayor of Uman (also paid off by the State of Israel) has been threatening to implement for weeks already had finally arrived.

There was a smaller hole dug at the other end of Pushkina, too, as a matching pair.

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Then, my kids got weird, as they’d heard back on the Israeli grapevine that the State of Israel is intending to dump everyone who comes to Uman into a COVID-1984 hotel upon return to the country.

We’ll cross that bridge when we come to it, I told them.

If the government lasts even 12 hours beyond Rosh Hashana 5781, I’ll be very surprised.

Because already by this afternoon, the Uman see-saw had swung back to optimistic again.

There were people back in the streets. There was music. The atmosphere lightened up considerably.

I don’t know what happened to change things around, but you could definitely feel the spiritual fight-back throughout the whole of Jewish Uman.

They won’t win.

They won’t win.

They are fighting Rabbenu now, and there is just no way they will win, this time around.

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In the meantime, my landlord kindly showed up at the door with my ‘washing machine’ for the next 3 weeks – a big plastic bowl.

I was actually very grateful to him, as there is no laundrette here, and I only bought enough underwear to last a week.

This trip is teaching me the value of all the ‘small things’ I take for granted every single day.

Like, having a washing machine.

Like, being able to buy a kosher loaf of bread whenever I want – in so many different styles.

Like, being a Jew in a Jewish country, even though that country is far from perfect.

For sure, there will be more lessons to learn.

You can’t spend 3 weeks solid by Rabbenu without something massive shifting around.

And that thought is exhilarating – and also kinda scary.

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The facemask fascism has now followed us here.

If you read my blog on a regular basis, you’ll know that I totally don’t buy into all the propaganda around ‘why we need to wear facemasks’ – or all the propaganda about Covid-1984, generally.

As soon as I hit Ben Gurion in the wee hours of Thursday morning, I was forced to wear a mask – over my nose! – pretty much non-stop (except in the toilet cubicles) through Charles de Gaulle and Lisbon airports, until we hit Zhuliany airport in the Ukraine.

There, we noticed a curious thing:

Hardly any of the Ukrainians were wearing facemasks at all, and very few of those who were wearing them were wearing them over their noses.

That was a silver lining amidst all the difficulty of being detained in Zhuliany airport for 17 hours, that at least no-one was enforcing full-on facemasks. That would have been unbearable.

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When we got out to Kiev, I saw that less than one in 10 Ukrainians were wearing facemasks on the street – and my heart leapt with joy.

For the first time in months and months, I could walk around the streets without peering over my shoulder waiting for the Corona-fascist cops to fine me for not wearing a mask.

It was the first time I could really ‘breathe’ outside for about 4 months, as I live in Jerusalem where Corona Fascism is unfortunately flourishing.

We had the same sense of freedom when we first got to Uman, early Sunday morning. In the shops, some people were wearing masks, most people weren’t, and no-one was enforcing anything.

Already by today, that’s all changing.

Facemask fascism has caught up with me in Uman, and when I went to the pizza shop today, they were marking out the retarded ‘2 metre social distancing’ measurements on the floor with pink stickies.

Sigh.

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At the kever of Rabbenu, big signs popped up like so many red and white mushrooms, telling us all to wear a mask, because the Rosh Hashana gathering in Uman depended on us being seen to follow the rules, and the fate of millions and billions of people were hanging on whether Rosh Hashana in Uman happens this year, or not.

At least with that last point, I couldn’t argue.

Rav Berland said a few weeks back that if 40,000 people got to Uman this year, the whole Corona plandemic would be cancelled and obliterated.

Halavai.

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Just now I was in the women’s section by Rabbenu, still trying to get my head together after having 4 straight days of no sleep, 17 hours of incarceration at Zhuliany airport, one shabbos with 120 male chassids all squished into one hotel in Kiev, and (the most difficult of all…) approaching a week non-stop of spending time with my family.

Don’t get me wrong, I love my family, my kids, my husband and my daughter’s ‘plus one’, hopefully bashert.

But this morning, I started to feel so wobbly again inside.

God, when does this madness end? Not just the madness of me now being in Uman for three weeks, totally on the back foot and unprepared for that, but all this general madness, of feeling pursued by Corona fascism wherever in the world I go?

That’s how it feels at the moment, that I can’t get away from the tyranny, the obvious ‘bad’, the obvious evil that is happening here.

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In Jerusalem, I tried to insulate myself from the madness by stocking my house with enough basic food staples to last us a month, if it had to, so we could wait out any ‘storm’ without having to go outside.

And now…. I’m here.

And all my couscous and tuna is there.

And here…. I don’t even know how the sugar looks, or have an oven to cook in.

These are small things, but today I felt them overwhelming me.

I am so unprepared for this. I can’t look after my family properly. I don’t have a washing machine, I don’t have any tea towels, and I’m here in Uman for 3 weeks over Rosh Hashana….

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God has been very good to us.

We managed to rent a really good place within a couple of hours of arriving (apparently, that’s unheard of for Rosh Hashana, but with all the uncertainty, we probably found it easier than otherwise.)

In terms of Uman, Rosh Hashana, we are in a 3 roomed mansion that’s new, clean and has a big (traif…) kitchen. But the stove and sink are easily koshered, so I’m already cooking here, and there’s no oven to worry about in any case.

I’m two minutes from the kever, and our landlord is grumpy, but apparently one of the better Ukrainians we could be dealing with.

I know in so many ways I’m so lucky to be here.

And at the same time, my soul is just so very tired of all this, and can’t take any more of it.

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Just now, I was in the kever and Shula, that permanent fixture of the ladies’ section, rushed in to tell us that we had to past the mivchan (the test) tomorrow.

Apparently, the president of the Ukraine is coming tomorrow, to check that we’re all wearing our masks and keeping our distance and praying in the retarded ‘capsules’ they’ve now set up on the mens’ side of the kever.

If we pass the test, word is they will open the borders to religious Jews, and Uman Rosh Hashana 5781 will happen after all.

Halavai.

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Sigh.

Dear readers, my whole world is so upside down at the moment. I’m living in a country where a hand-turned wooden chopping board costs less than a single kosher bread roll, where the chickens are as big as ostriches, where the cucumbers look like prickly cactii, and where I have no idea where the ‘me’ is really meant to fit into this equation.

A woman in Uman in Rosh Hashana, with my two girls.

My laptop is at home in Jerusalem, with all the login info I need for my emails.

My books are there.

My garden is there.

My friends are there.

My baking equipment is there.

What am I doing here?

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I guess God will show me when the time is right.

But in the meantime, events of the last week have really pushed me to the edge of my koach, and my ability to manage.

BH, Rebbe Nachman will help me to find the strength to bounce back.

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It’s going to be slow posting on the blog until Rosh Hashana.

Very long story short, I decided very last minute to try to go with my husband to Uman for Rosh Hashana this year. He got stuck at Borispol with 120 chassids, and I got stuck at Zhuliany with my kids.

I could write reams and reams of the miracles that occurred, and the difficulties we endured when the Ukrainians changed the law mid-flight to make us ‘illegal’ when we landed. If we’d have started out ‘illegal’ I never would have gone.

But they bowed to pressure from the State of Israel – and probably also got bribed with a few million dollars – to root out any obviously Jewish Jews from getting to Uman this year.

They had a harder time with us, because my kids have nose rings and none of us were carrying a siddur.

But that didn’t stop them from barring us entry into the country illegally, then forcing us to sign a deportation order in Ukrainian that we had no idea what it said, then leaving us in the airport with no information or help for hours and hours and hours.

This was all Friday morning.

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Then, I finally got to speak to someone who told me the next flight out back to Lisbon (where I’d flown in from, because there are no direct flights to Israel from Zhuliany) was on September 3rd.

At that point I cried.

Then I got my act together, and me and my teens started calling everyone we knew back in Israel to see if we could get some help out of our predicament.

There is no kosher food in Zhuliany and September 3rd was 6 days away.

One friend contacted the Israeli consulate for us, who arranged for Chabad to deliver food for us to the airport if we ordered kosher take out from Kiev. That was something.

Then, I decided to not wait to get ‘officially’ deported, and to try and buy the next ticket back to Israel. The officials told me I couldn’t be moved to Borispol, where there are direct flights, and so the nearest ticket I could find was a connection Sunday morning via Belarus.

My brother lent me his card to make the payment – God bless you, J! – and I started to breathe a little easier that at least some sort of ‘end’ was in sight.

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Then, the Ukrainian soldiers who were sitting there ‘guarding us’ suddenly started telling us to not bring any bags, and to follow them. Where are we going? What’s happening?

Nothing. No explanation. Just a lot of smirks. My stomach sank.

We got rounded on to a bus (!) – just us and a late-coming group of 3 chassids from London – driven away from the terminal into the middle of the airfield, and then, the cherry on the top was when they released a vicious looking attack dog to keep circling around the bus every minute, while they sat there and smirked.

After a while, both my kids needed the toilet.

They asked if they could go to the toilet, and were rebuffed.

After another half an hour, they got so desperate one of them decided she was going to try to get off the bus anyway (dumb teenager syndrome resurfaced 400%) which is when I ran over and tried to calm things down.

Just wee on the floor if you have to!!! 

I said this deliberately. I knew that some of the guards spoke good English, and I knew that stating the obvious outcome of not letting someone use the toilet when they needed to would make them very uncomfortable and if I was lucky, even a little bit ashamed.

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Five minutes later, the bus drove back to the terminal, and they let us out.

Both my kids ran off to the toilet in hysterical tears for an hour, as a female soldier paced around the cubicles ‘guarding them’.

Little did they know, my daughter’s boyfriend secretly filmed the whole debacle on the bus, so reminiscent of World War II. My daughter has a very ‘connected’ friend who sent the video to the consulate, and also to about 100 whatsapp groups.

While all this was going on, we finally managed to email my husband to find out what was going on with him. That’s when we learned he was stuck in Borispol, and had become the unwitting English spokesman for his group.

As the minutes ticked down towards Shabbat, I kind of zoned out.

There’s always miniot (obstacles) to getting to Uman stam, and they go up a level for Rosh Hashana, and they went into stratospheric range this year.

Up until the Nazi-bus-deportation replay, I was handling it OK.

But after that, seeing how upset my kids were getting, it started to be more challenging.

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Salvation came at the last minute.

Apparently, somehow Aryeh Deri got involved, and pressured the Israeli consulate to agree to the request to free us from the airport.

Because you should keep this very clear in your mind:

The Ukrainian government was only doing the bidding of the Israeli government, in blocking religious Jews from entering the country. The Ukrainians were the bagmen, but it was the State of Israel who was the really guilty party in what was going on.

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We got out 20 minutes before Shabbat, unconditionally, and we booked into the kosher hotel in Kiev and immediately shot off there by taxi.

Technically, we probably broke Shabbat by about 10 minutes, which was very upsetting but under the circumstances, there was nothing I could do about it.

I booked two rooms  – and then half an hour later, the hotel starts filling up with the 120 chassidim who had just been released from Borispol airport.

In one of the last vans out of the airport, we found my husband.

It was an emotional reunion.

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Friday night, I went to sleep determined to get out of the Ukraine ASAP.

Other members of my family argued against doing that. If we were now in the Ukraine legally again, they said we should stay for Rosh Hashana.

Shabbat morning, I did a lot of hitbodedut about it, and I decided they were probably right.

It was a tough decision to make, not least because (unfounded….) rumours were reaching us that they were setting up roadblocks around Uman to prevent Jews from reaching the town.

We got here yesterday, and I had the first proper nights sleep in around 5 days.

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Today, I read headlines like this:

https://www.jpost.com/bds-threat/dozens-of-haredi-jews-stuck-on-a-plane-in-kiev-640524

The Ukrainians are becoming increasingly violent and unlawful to the Jews trying to get in – Jews, NOT just Israelis, so forget all that ‘Corona hotspot’ propaganda.

And remember, it’s the State of Israel who is behind all this, and who is sponsoring this discrimination and violence against chareidi Jews in the Ukraine.

So, it’s going to be slow posting on the blog while I’m here.

But I have the feeling God sent me here because a good story is developing. So, I will do my best to keep you informed with the real information about what is really going on, and who is really behind it all.

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UPDATE:

My husband met someone he knows from Shuvu Banim who told him they flew into Ukraine on Thursday night – even earlier than we did – and also got stopped at the border, forced to sign a piece of paper to deport them, and then the Ukranians literally tried to physically force them back on to the plane back to Israel.

So, what did they do?

They called the Israeli ambassador (stupid, stupid…) thinking that they would want to help Israeli citizens being hassled and illegally threatened by Ukrainian border police.

Instead, the ambassador told them that if they didn’t get on the plane to Israel ASAP, they would wait one day, then force them to get on a plane to Israel on Shabbat instead.

At that point, the man told my husband they were ready to crack, and agree to go back to Israel. Except then, some miracle happened and they were let into Israel unconditionally. There seems to be a pattern developing here.

But again, the story is shocking that the ISRAELI AMBASSADOR said and did this to religious Jews.

TBC

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It seems that Ukraine bent to the pressure from corrupt Netanyahu and Israel, to ban Jews coming to Uman for Rosh Hashana.

UPDATE:

This decree only comes in on Saturday, August 29th, 2020. There is time to go now, if you can! May God help us all to beat this horrible decree of COVID-1984 once and for all.

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Ah.

I’ve just seen this;

https://www.ukrinform.net/rubric-society/3087826-ukraine-to-close-borders-to-foreigners-until-end-of-september.html

The darkness is sometimes so dark, isn’t it? But Rabbenu told us already, 200 years ago – ain shum yeoush be’olam klal!!!!

So, don’t give up if you or your loved ones have booked tickets for Uman this year.

If we keep dancing, and praying, and spreading the light of Rabbenu and Rav Berland around the world, everything can still all change.

All it takes is for a few more people to wake up and understand that we’re all being ‘played’ with COVID-19, and ‘global warming’ and all the other lies we’re being told.

The cracks are staring to show – even in the mainstream.

Take a look at this:

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These people are going against Rabbenu now, and that is a step too far.

They are going to fall fast, and hard.

Just watch.

Ain shum yeoush be’olam klal.

We ARE going to be in Uman for Rosh Hashana, somehow or other. The small person is starting to stand up and roar all over the world.

And God’s light WILL shine out all over the globe.

And there is nothing anyone can do to stop that.

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God gives us messages in all sorts of ways.

For example, today I decided to walk off to the Kotel (which is letting far more people pray at the wall again, than since before all this Covid-1984 stuff began) – and on the way, I got a ‘message’.

I passed a tree trunk, where someone had carefully propped up a copy of the Likutey Etzot in Hebrew. I took it, opened it ‘randomly’, and got to a passage talking about how Pesach is an aspect of Tishrey, and how the whole ikker of these times is to make teshuva.

Pesach – Seder Night – is when the Covid-1984 panic was at its peak here in Israel, including a ridiculously harsh lockdown.

It seems Rabbenu was hinting that the ‘aspect’ of the madness we had at Pesach time is going to return and intensify in Tishrey – the month of the High Holy Days.

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Perhaps weirdly, since Rosh Chodesh Elul I’ve actually been feeling in a pretty good mood.

Just quite chilled and relaxed.

I have no idea why, but given that I have a tendency to pick up the ‘vibes’ before they really manifest in the world, I’m taking it as a good sign.

Maybe it’s because my husband already booked for Uman, and Rabbenu is already starting to work his magic for 5781.

Who knows.

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In the meantime, a reader, OS, sent me this video of Rav Pinto, with a small snippet of what he’s saying.

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In a nutshell, he’s saying that we are entering the year when Moshiach ben David will come.

He’s also saying that Hashem is dismantling the whole world of lies, and there will be nothing to rely on except our bitachon and emuna in Hashem. There will be no banks, no money, no ‘doctors’, no secular courts – everything, all the lies will be dismantled.

And that’s why we need to make a big effort now to work on our emuna, and to stop trying to hoard all our money, because very soon, that money will be totally worthless.

[I’m saying this next bit, not Rav Pinto: Go spend your money on mitzvot! Go buy the apartment in Israel, if you can afford it, go treat your wife to that ‘thing’ she’s been hankering after for years, go spend your money on your kids, and yourself, go give massive amounts to tzedaka. Because very soon, all that money that you have in investments and savings will be totally worthless.)

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Rav Pinto isn’t the only one who is saying things like this.

You remember THIS post, where Rav Arush basically said the same, last week.

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This is a screenshot – also sent to me by OS – quoting the Chatam Sofer:

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The last part reads that:

“190 years ago, the Chatam Sofer said that 5780 would be an awful year, and that 5781 would be a year when the poor man would be raised up from the garbage.”

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We can’t wait.

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Postscript:

BH, I managed to put another new book out for the Rav last week.

It’s called: Rabbi Eliezer Berland on Jewish Holidays, and you can get the paperback from Amazon (if you don’t live in Israel….) here.

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How do we deal with ‘reality’ without going nuts?

On the last post, one of the commentators, Alizah, asked this:

Rivka, how do we read this without going nuts? Reminds me of something that says at the end the yetzer hara will appear like a mountain to some people and to others like something small.

If we follow your blog it’s enormous. We want to cry.

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It’s a very good question.

On Shabbat, we were at friends for Friday night, and the conversation turned (as it inevitably does…) to the whole Corona stress we’re all under.

I couldn’t help it.

I tried to explain what’s really going on with all this – how it’s all just part of a deeper ‘depopulation / eugenics’ agenda that’s been in the works for over a century, already – and my host looked at me with a pitying smile.

I’d outed myself as that most lowly of creatures, a conspiracy theorist.

The argument raged on for around two hours, and I realised that the more hard facts and solid information I was throwing at the other people around the table, the more their defenses got entrenched, and the more pointless the whole discussion became.

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At one point, my host turned to me and said:

Why do we need to know all this stuff? What can we do anyway? Why do you keep looking at all the ‘bad’? We can’t make any difference, and I don’t want to be kept up at night worrying about all this stuff.

The answer to that is really the answer to a lot of other big questions. Here’s what I told him:

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Truth is God’s seal.

The more ‘truth’ we acknowledge and let in to our lives, the closer it brings us to God.

The more we see how broken this world really is, the more we will start to really yearn and beg for something to change. The more we will yearn and beg for geula, for Moshiach.

The more sincere teshuva we will make.

The more minutes and hours of heartfelt prayer we will engage in, asking God to fix things and to right everything that is so very wrong.

Knowing the truth gives us the motivation we need to really turn to Hashem, and come back to Him wholeheartedly.

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I guess what I was really trying to tell my host is that I’m not buying into all the yeoush and despairing attitude that says we are nothing, and we can’t do anything to change all this, so why even bother trying to grapple with it?!

The Jewish soul is infinite.

It’s a part of Hashem.

Sure, me by myself I’m totally and utterly nothing and nobody.

I can’t take on the Rockefellers, or Bill Gates, or the corrupt State of Israel.

I know that.

But here’s what I can do:

I can go and pour out my heart to Hashem about all the ‘bad’ that’s going on in the world, and beg Him to fix it, and to fill the world with His light and the light of the true tzaddikim, and to get things to finally all turn around.

That’s all I can really do – but it’s everything.

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If we believe in the power of prayer, if we believe in the power of the Jewish soul to stir Hashem’s mercy and compassion, if we believe in miracles, and that God is the only force that really exists in the world, then uncovering the ‘bad’ doesn’t scare us and overwhelm us and cause us to go into denial in quite the same way.

It might anger us, upset us, shock us – but it also motivates us to PRAY.

To turn to Hashem and to PRAY.

And that is the true strength and the true power of the Jewish soul, and it’s a power that every single one of us can access and activate.

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When the Nazis were rising to power before World War II, so many people stuck their head in the sand and whistled.

God won’t let it happen, they said. I trust that God will continue to look after us, they said. I can’t do anything about this ‘bad’ stuff, so I’m just going to pretend it’s not happening, they said.

That was totally the wrong approach.

Rebbe Nachman spoke about the correct way to deal with harsh decrees:

He said:

“[E]ach person must say that the world was only created for his sake, and [the Rebbe said] how every person must endeavor to make up the deficiencies of the world, praying on its behalf – i.e. before the decree [actually materialises].

He also said the following:

“That year [1803] the Rebbe was very preoccupied with the Cantonist Decrees. He was extremely worried about the situation and said they were not an idle threat. He disagreed strongly with the people who were saying nothing would come of it in the end, for how could God do such a thing to the Jewish people?!

The Rebbe said several times that this was nonsense.

We find many occasions when harsh decrees did materialise.

The Rebbe spoke about this a great deal and said that the rumored decrees had to be taken with the utmost seriousness and not be treated lightly. We had to pray and cry out to God, and to be and beseech Him in the hope that He would hear us and annul them….

If only people had listened to his call to set the earth shaking with prayers and appeals to God, these decrees would have been nullified completely!”

(Tzaddik, Conversations Relating to His Lessons, page 132)

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God forbid, I’m not uncovering this stuff to get anyone down, or add to the despair.

Quite the opposite.

I believe – so strongly! – in the power of prayer.

I believe in the power of a Jewish soul to turn everything around when they partner with Hashem and pray their hearts out.

This stuff scares you? It overwhelms you? It upsets you?

Go talk to God about it, and beg Him to clean up this mess!!!

When you do that, you change everything, literally.

The ‘weapon’ of Jacob is our prayer.

And I’m urging every single one of you to take a deep breath, and go pick it up.

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I’m back, and 28% refreshed from a few days holiday in the North.

It was a nice trip, as these things go, but I’m still feeling pretty knackered today… It’s hard to keep our batteries recharged at the moment, isn’t it, with so many things continually wearing them down again.

Anyway, I’m working on a series of ‘deep dive’ exposes about what’s really going on here, and I hope to have something meaty for you to dig your teeth into next week.

In the meantime, I just saw this video over on the ravberland.com website, of Rav Shalom Arush encouraging everyone very strongly to still go to Uman for this Rosh Hashana, 5781:

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https://ravberland.com/rav-arush-this-is-the-last-uman-rosh-hashana-before-moshiach/

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In the Levy household, we’ve been having a serious debate about Rosh Hashana this year. My husband has gone every year for the last 14 years, and he put his name down to go with Netivot tours a few weeks ago, too.

But then, the stories came out that the Ukraine was limiting the number of visitors from Israel to 5,000. Then, some other site said 10,000.

Then, the Yeshiva World [Fake] News website started running one story after another quoting Israeli officials who were trying to pressure the Ukrainian government into banning any Jewish visitors to Rabbenu this year, because of the fake Covid plandemic.

Like this one:

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I went to look up who Dr Asher Salmon actually is.

He’s an oncologist – a cancer specialist – and deputy director of Hadassah Hospital.

He also happens to be Israel’s ‘go to’ man for that tool of the bunch of eugenicists behind COVID-1984, the World Health Organisation.

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Each time you see one of these ‘medical experts’ being quoted in the fake news MSM, spend a minute to go and look them up.

I guarantee you will find that they are either directly linked to the WHO, and / or they are heading up organisations and ‘non-profits’ that are being funded directly by big Pharma and / or eugenics-promoting organisations like the Bill and Melinda Gates Foundation, the Wellcome Trust, or the Rockefeller Institute.

(Many of them can also be directly linked to the Milken Institute, too, but that’s still harder to spot and a work in progress to bring those links more to the surface. But it’s coming. Believe me, it’s coming.)

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So anyway, after we saw that video from Rav Arush, saying that this is the last Rosh Hashana before Moshiach, and promising massive spiritual benefits to anyone who makes it out there this year, I encouraged my husband to book ANOTHER ticket to Uman.

On a different date, a little earlier.

We are doing our bit.

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Things are so changeable right now, who knows what the travel restrictions will actually look like, when we get there.

From what I can see from the headlines, ‘the evil plan’ is really NOT going to plan at all. Rav Berland sweetened it, exactly as he said he would, and now what’s going on is an increasingly desperate circus designed to keep the world’s population preoccupied while they try to get ‘the evil plan’ back on track.

Here in Israel, they have tried, and tried and tried so many times to reinstate a full lockdown, and for some bizarre reason, they just can’t do it.

More and more Israelis are waking up to the fact that COVID-1984 is a plandemic.

Fewer and fewer of us are buying the propaganda being churned out on sites like the Jpost and the Times of Israel and the Yeshiva World [Fake] News. And as we’re increasingly spotting the lies being told about COVID-1984, that is also translating into more and more people spotting the lies being told about everything else, too.

Like the Beirut Port bomb in Lebanon.

Like the ‘convenient’ nature of Hamas starting it’s fire balloons again now, for no other reason than to shore up Puppet Netanyahu and keep him in power long enough to deliver his end of ‘the evil plan’.

And all these planned and organised ‘spontaneous protests’, which are being jumped on by all the other corrupt MKs and ministers like Benny Gantz and Moshe Ya’alon, who are pretending to be serving the interests of the public, when really, they are just serving themselves and their masters in chul.

But we’re just not buying it anymore.

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Let’s end this with some encouragement:

Go buy your ticket for Uman Rosh Hashana, and don’t be scared. Ladies, encourage your men to go even though it’s so very uncertain and stressful at the moment. Rabbenu is always our main line of defense, our key spiritual defender, for a good year.

And 5781 is shaping up to be the biggest year ever.

If the WHO is going to such great efforts to try to stop people from being in Uman for Rosh Hashana, that tells you how big, spiritually, it really is.

So go buy your ticket!!!

Because ‘the evil plan’ is on its last legs, and you definitely want a front row seat when all the spiritual light of geula starts to shine out into every corner of the world, from Uman this year.

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Required reading for anyone who wants to really understand what’s going on, here.

If there was any ‘justice’ in the world, then journalist James Corbett, of the Corbettreport.com website, would get about a thousand Pullitzer prizes for his sterling work. At least.

But there isn’t, so he won’t.

In the meantime, one of my friends (thank you Chana!) ‘happened’ to mention this episode to me, without knowing that I’ve spent the last month trying to figure out how the State of Israel is connected to the Hedjaz railway, and the Armenian genocide that occurred around World War I.

This episode is bringing A LOT of the pieces together, and it’s required viewing (or if you prefer, you can read the show notes HERE) – to understand what is really going on here, and who is behind all the mess the world is currently in, most recently with this COVID-19 plandemic.

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UPDATE: HERE’S PART II:

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Of course, the State of Israel has a very special role to play in all this ongoing external control of the Middle East (i.e. the oil and gas fields that were discovered here).

As we continue to see in our day, whenever there is some sort of externally manufactured ‘war’ or civil unrest going on in the Middle East, that gives the oligarchy-controlled politicians the cover they need to wade in as ‘peace keepers’, to take over the natural assets of the country under guise of ‘protecting them’.

The US has done that in Iraq.

Apparently, it’s just done that in Syria, too.

And also in Libya.

And Corbett explains how Rockefeller (Standard Oil) protege Henry Kissinger helped to engineer the Yom Kippur war in 1973, to helpfully ‘spike’ oil prices for his masters.

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Where we all keep going wrong is that we’re seeing this as ‘nation states’ against each other.

That’s rubbish.

There are oligarchs, billionaires, royalty, bankers at the top of the pyramid, and those people literally redrew the map of the world around World War I, to better serve their economic interests, and to create nations and political systems that would serve them, and their socio-economic aims.

And the State of Israel was one of those ‘created’ countries.

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If you go HERE, you’ll find a very interesting Wikipedia article about the McMahon-Hussein agreement of 1915, where the British agreed to create ‘nation states’ for the Arabs under Turkish rule, if they would rise up and revolt against the Turkish empire.

Of course, they double-crossed the Arabs, published the Balfour Declaration in 1917 instead – notably, after the Rothschild family intervened – and the rest is history.

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The Paris Peace Conference between the allies to agree territorial divisions after the war was held in 1919. The correspondence was primarily relevant to the regions that were to become Palestine, Transjordan, Lebanon, Syria, Mesopotamia (Iraq) and the Arabian Peninsula. At the conference, Prince Faisal, speaking on behalf of King Hussein, did not ask for immediate Arab independence but recommended an Arab state under a British mandate.[57]

… [In] April 1920 the San Remo conference was hastily convened in response to Faisal’s declaration. At the conference, the Allied Supreme Council granted the mandates for Palestine and Mesopotamia to Britain, and those for Syria and Lebanon to France.[59]

The United Kingdom and France agreed to recognize the provisional independence of Syria and Mesopotamia. Provisional recognition of Palestinian independence was not mentioned. France had decided to govern Syria directly and took action to enforce the French Mandate of Syria before the terms had been accepted by the Council of the League of Nations.

The French intervened militarily at the Battle of Maysalun in June 1920, deposing the indigenous Arab government and removing King Faisal from Damascus in August 1920.[60]

In Palestine, the United Kingdom appointed a High Commissioner and established their own mandatory regime….

….At the same conference, US Secretary of State Robert Lansing had asked Dr. Weizmann if the Jewish national home meant the establishment of an autonomous Jewish government. The head of the Zionist delegation had replied in the negative.[o]

Lansing was a member of the American Commission to Negotiate Peace at Paris in 1919; he said the system of mandates was a device created by the Great Powers to conceal their division of the spoils of war under the colour of international law.

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What’s really interesting, is that Chaim Weizmann is on record as not wanting an autonomous Jewish Government in Israel:

Weizmann’s reply to Lansing was as follows: “Dr. Weizmann replied in the negative. The Zionist organisation did not want an autonomous Jewish Government, but merely to establish in Palestine, under a mandatory Power, an administration, not necessarily Jewish, which would render it possible to send into Palestine 70 to 80,000 Jews annually.

The Association would require to have permission at the same time to build Jewish schools, where Hebrew would be taught, and in that way to build up gradually a nationality which would be as Jewish as the French nation was French and the British nation British. Later on, when the Jews formed the large majority, they would be ripe to establish such a Government as would answer to the state of the development of the country and to their ideals”[66]

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I always found Weizmann’s and Ben Gurion’s stance of NOT wanting to create an independent Jewish country very strange, but now I think this is the answer to that conundrum.

The State of Israel was ‘created’ by the French Rothschilds to ensure they would have their people on the ground, to keep the oil flowing from the Middle East, where it could be barrelled and shipped off from Haifa Port. It was never intended to be a true home for the Jewish people – and especially not the religious, ‘primitive’ type of Jewish people.

This from the corbettreport:

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In 1891, the Rothschilds contracted with M. Samuel & Co., a Far East shipping company headquartered in London and run by Marcus Samuel, to do what had never been done before: ship their Nobel-supplied Caspian oil through the Suez Canal to East Asian markets.

The project was immense; it involved not only sophisticated engineering to construct the first oil tankers to be approved by the Suez Canal Company, but the strictest secrecy. If word of the endeavour was to get back to Rockefeller through his international intelligence network, it would risk bringing the wrath of Standard Oil, which could afford to cut rates and squeeze them out of the market.

In the end they succeeded, and the first bulk tanker, the Murex, sailed through the Suez Canal in 1892 en route to Thailand.

In 1897, M. Samuel & Co. became The Shell Transport and Trading Company. Realizing that reliance on the Rothschild/Nobel Caspian oil left the company vulnerable to supply shocks, Shell began to look to the Far East for other sources of oil.

In Borneo they ran up against Royal Dutch Petroleum, established in The Hague in 1890 with the support of King William III of the Netherlands to develop oil deposits in the Dutch East Indies. The two companies, fearing competition from Standard Oil, merged in 1903 into the Asiatic Petroleum Company, jointly owned with the French Rothschilds, and in 1907 become Royal Dutch Shell.

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You can read about the ‘Valley Railway’ that snaked through the Middle East down to the port of Haifa, here:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jezreel_Valley_railway

And then, you can read about the Kirkuk-Haifa oil pipeline that was being operated by the British between 1935-1948 – until Begin’s lot finally pressured the Brits enough to leave Israel – here:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Kirkuk%E2%80%93Haifa_oil_pipeline

“The pipeline and the Haifa refineries were considered strategically important by the British Government, and indeed provided much of the fuel needs of the British and American forces in the Mediterranean during World War II.”

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I have to tell you, so many ‘mysteries’ are starting to resolve, at least for me.

The State of Israel really was a ‘colonial’ project, conceived of as a way to leverage Western oligarchical control of an area rich in oil and minerals.

Just as the House of Saud was ‘created’, and the Jordanian royal family was ‘created’, and the Syrians ended up being ruled by the tiny minority Alawites, the oligarchs supported those Jews for governance who were a fanatically secular ‘minority’ who the majority of Jews had nothing in common with (at that point….)

These Jews used the pretext of World War I to grab the haluka and other charitable payments for themselves, that were coming in from the diaspora to support the Old Yishuv – the frum Jews who saw it as a mitzvah to settle the land – and by so doing, effectively helped to starve their religious ‘opposition’ in the land of Israel to death. Literally.

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The population of Eretz Yisrael shrank from 85,000 to 55,000 over World War I.

Most of the people lost at that time came from the religious community. Before World War I, religious Jews were a large majority in the Holy Land, but the secular Jews managed to ‘leapfrog’ over them, by the end of the war, and to push right to the head of the queue for becoming the defacto ‘leaders’ of what became the State of Israel.

If you want to learn more about what happened here, I recommend reading the biography of Rabbi Chaim Sonnenfeld, and also Between Redemption and Revival: The Jewish Yishuv in Jerusalem.

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So much more to say, as always.

Where the Armenian genocide fits into all this, I’m still trying to figure out.

But it’s growing clearer that everything that’s going on with the Port of Beirut, and with the oil in the Golan Heights, and with the US pressuring Israel to not let the Chinese build the new hi-tech port in Haifa, and even with all the ‘manufactured wars’ going on all around us, this is all some sort of re-hash of what was happening 100 years ago.

It’s unfinished business, part of the oil oligarchs’ continuing manipulation of the world’s little people, to keep us at each other’s throats while a handful of billionaires continue to plunder the world of its natural resources and try to play God.

But not for much longer.

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