But of course, it doesn’t always feel like that.
Israel is apparently going into another totally unnecessary lockdown from Sunday, and I’m struggling a little to deal with the fact that these evil people are still continuing on with their nefarious agendas.
It’s pretty demoralising.
Not least, the idea that I feel so powerless to stop them, or to do anything that will make a difference.
But really, that’s not true.
God is controlling the world.
And just as Joseph HaTzaddik ‘unmasked’ himself before the brothers, Hashem will ‘unmask’ Himself from behind all the pain and craziness that’s currently going on, which is really just a test of our middot.
All this cleaning out the pipes, it’s drawing those lines in the sand that start to clearly delineate who is doing what, which side people are really on – the side of truth, or the side of lies – and to encourage all of us to get down to the work of forging a real connection with God.
At the same time – I have never found it so hard to do hitbodedut.
I wake up and just stare at the walls for an hour, instead of doing al netilat yedayim and getting on with my prayers and my hour of talking to God.
BH, I still manage to do it at some point in the day, but I know from past experience that when I find it hard to talk to God, it’s because I’m angry at Him.
I’m angry that innocent teenagers are being killed in cold blood by the evil Israeli police.
I’m angry that we’re having to go into yet another lockdown, supported by the usual tissue of propaganda and outrageous lies.
I’m angry that God has let the Jewish people be lead and mislead by a bunch of evil, two-faced narcissists who are really only interested in money and power.
I’m angry that Moshiach isn’t here already, clearing this mess up.
That’s my work right now.
To admit I’m angry, and then to take that admission back to God, in hitbodedut, and to try to turn it into emuna and bitul, acceptance of God’s will.
But that’s the whole point.
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