The last few days, it’s been feeling very ‘heavy’ in the world again.

Two days ago, I sat on my couch in Jerusalem and literally watched them ‘chem trailing’ in the sky.

Suddenly, five different ‘trails’ appeared in one shot, they all circled around at exactly the same, like synchronised swimmers, then started to ‘puff out’ over the next couple of minutes, as the blue sky got filled with these weird ‘clouds’.

I didn’t see any planes.

So, I deduce they are using drones to ‘chem trail’ over the skies of Jerusalem.

And the whole thing got me feeling kinda down, as I’ve never seen that before, here in Jerusalem.

(I took some pictures, if I can be bothered, I might post them up later.)

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At the same time, there’s been a weird ‘rumbling noise’ going on for days and days.

Initially, I thought it must be military planes flying over head.

But then, I realised that military planes don’t fly overhead, continually, six hours a day, not even in the middle of the biggest war.

That same day I saw the chem trails, I started paying attention to ‘the rumble’ that I assumed was planes.

It stayed constant for a very long time, overhead.

And that repeated itself all through the day.

F16s just don’t act like that, they don’t sound like that, and they don’t ‘circle nonstop’ for many hours a day over Jerusalem.

And of course – there were no planes in sight.

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Is it CERN?

Is it something else?

I don’t know.

But I can tell you I had a really bad headache for days, that only disappeared after I did a small, $18 ‘pidyon’ on the RavBerland.com website.

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But nevertheless…hope springs eternal.

There are riots going on in China now.

The authorities are going to try and suppress them full-force, but it’s getting to a stage where the Chinese people are starting to understand that ‘open air prison’ (aka ‘Zero Covid policies’) is about to become a permanent feature of life, if they don’t push back now.

China is the test case for the rest of the world.

If China starts to push back, that is going to cause the NWO massive issues with their roll-out schedule for digital IDS and Covid concentration camps for the rest of the world.

(At least, I hope….)

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I also felt some hope when ‘hackers’ released footage of the bus bombing last week, that the Israeli authorities claimed didn’t exist.

It’s like that passuk from Tehillim, that the evil people will lay the trap for us, but then fall into it themselves….

They’ve set cameras up all over the place, in our ‘smart cities’, to monitor us and use against us.

But in the meantime, those cameras are now being ‘hacked’ by someone apparently on the outside of the ruling cabal here.

Footage can be released now showing who really planted those bombs by the bus stop…

And if it was an inside-job, designed to achieve a political aim and manipulate the public….

Well.

That changes the whole picture – and makes it way, way harder for the ruling cabal to continue using acts of terrorism against it’s own populace, to stay in power and maintain control, and pass more evil laws to continue putting us into ‘open air prisons’.

(Ben Gvir notwithstanding. Keep a careful watch on that guy, and understand that any law being demanded ‘against terrorists’ will be applied to Jews like you and me.)

God forbid.

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But, it made me happy to have another tangible sign that ‘things aren’t going to plan’, for the evil people who currently rule the world.

But honestly?

I’m still worrying.

I heard yet another story of a ‘died suddenly’ yesterday, that happened the same time as the others I wrote about.

A 36 year old doctor, who dropped dead of a fatal stroke when exercising.

Interestingly, she was ‘unvaxxed’ – i.e. she had no Covid shots.

Of course, EVERY INJECTION must now be presumed to have some of this nanotech in it…

[UPDATE: I’m not sure about this statement now, see below.]

But it got me wondering about ‘shedding’, or some other form of transmission, which means that we are all essentially in the same boat, at this stage, jabbed or not.

And then I started worrying again.

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It seems to me that at least part of the mechanism in play here, is that these shots rapidly age the body.

It’s speeding up the body’s processes, which is why the hair and the nails grow so fast (at least, when CERN is turned on…), and why people’s cancers suddenly pop-up, turbo-style, all over the place, all at once.

And why newborns of vaxxed mothers can hold their heads up within an hour of being born….

The aging process is being rapidly sped up.

This article, in Spanish, is also talking about this same idea.

Here’s a google-translated screenshot:

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When I clicked on the ‘source doc’ for this, the page could no longer be found.

That’s usually a good sign that you are on to something.

But, all this is still worrying me.

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So yesterday, I went to sit at the Rav for an hour, to do some hitbodedut, and to get some spiritual ‘light’ and strength to continue.

It has happened so many times, that I get to the Rav with a whole heart-full of worry and heaviness, and that I leave feeling much better, much lighter, much more optimistic.

That happened again yesterday.

I don’t know what’s going on, I don’t know where ‘moshiach being revealed’ seems to have disappeared off to, this year of motzae-shvit, when I felt that process was really going to start happening, in an open way.

And at the same time, I can see more and more people dropping dead, suddenly, and more and more worrying signs that the evil cabal is about to try their final pincer move on the rest of humanity, with all the digital IDs-linked-to-social-credit stuff that is already happening in China.

And other places just as scary as China – like Trudeau’s Canada.

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Someone just sent me this:

https://www.legitgov.org/british-columbia-bill-c-36-drafted-secret-lays-groundwork-forced-vaccination-any-illness-government

Here’s the headline:

British Columbia Bill C-36, drafted in secret, lays the groundwork for forced vaccination for any illness the government chooses

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Sigh.

Our demonically-inspired ‘Western Medicine’ strikes again.

It worries me.

But at the same time, I don’t want to spend the next few weeks, months, years, whatever worrying all the time.

It’s a very hard balance to pull off.

But the Rav and Rabbenu is what’s helping me to cope, and to carry on trying to uncover the truth of what’s happening, while still remaining hopeful, that God will save us from all this, ultimately.

But it’s not easy.

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PS: Another reader just sent me a link to this:

https://bartoll.se/2022/11/stew-peters-died-suddenly-psy-op/

I’m including it here, to keep the discussion moving forward.

Here’s a pertinent snippet:

[M]ost of us are aware that a lot of people are dying “suddenly” (SADS) at a very young age, all around us.

And yes, the most likely cause is the Covid-19 vaccine, but that’s about it. The problem is that the “anti-vax” movement should not even exist, as vaccines should not exist. This goes back to the core lie, the lie that really need to be exposed, that no virus has ever been isolated nor proven to exist. And that goes for transmittable diseases as well.

Contagion has never been proven, only the opposite – that you can not catch a disease from someone else. As I write this, 211 health and science institutions around the world has been asked, through the free information act, to provide a record of a virus isolation, a proof that viruses exist, and yet not one single institution of these 211 has been able to do so. Not a single one of 211!

And that takes us back to this psy-op “documentary” called Died Suddenly. Right off the bat they talk about Covid-19 and viruses as if they are real, which they absolutely are not.

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That’s also the conclusion I’m coming to.

That ‘viruses’ exist permanently in the body, but can’t be ‘caught’ from others, just ‘triggered’ when a person’s immune system is down or compromised, thanks to stress, starvation, or toxicity (like from poor sanitation, etc.)

And there may well be an electro-magnetic dimension to all this, that ‘triggers’ disease to occur, but not in a contagious way.

I’m still trying to shuffle through an awful lot of material to try and get more of this figured out.

And yes, Stew Peters is almost certainly controlled opposition – we discussed that a while back on the blog.

BUT – I don’t agree that you have to throw the baby out with the bathwater.

We have to do a birur, and seperate lies from truth, and good from bad.

And the birur is very difficult, tiring and kinda sucks.

But that’s what’s required.

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I woke up yesterday morning to the news there had been a ‘twin terrorist attack bombing’ in Jerusalem.

***Important updates below***

I’m very sad for the family of the 16 year old boy who was killed yesterday, as well as the others who have been injured.

BH, the family should be comforted, and the other victims should have a speedy, easy and total recovery.

But that’s not really what this post is about.

This post is about this:

(Screenshot from the Times of Israel HERE):

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Cui Bono, from yesterday’s terror attack?

And, why did the police ask for yet another 30 day ‘gag order’ to be slapped on the reporting about it?

These are questions we all need to be asking, because by now, we should all be 100% clear that:

THERE IS NO WAY YOU COULD PLANT TWO BOMBS AT TWO DIFFERENT BUS-STOPS IN CAMERA-INFESTED JERUSALEM, AND THE SHABAK HAD NO IDEA ABOUT IT.

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There are 3,000 cutting edge AI facial recognition cameras all over Jerusalem now.

I’ve seen at least two angles of ‘official camera footage’ of these blasts online, already.

Yet, the police are claiming they have no leads to go on….

So, what’s really going on here?

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The real terrorists are running our government.

Remember that.

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UPDATE:

Fancy that: look what is trending on Daniel Amram’s Telegram channel HERE:

Screenshot:

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The highlighted comments are Amram’s, google translated.

Does this make any sense?

That they didn’t have cameras ‘working’, just at the site of the attacks, but now they discover, no, whoops, got that wrong, the cameras were working after all… because someone else ‘hacked in’ and posted the footage online.

So of course, if the cameras were working DURING the blast, they were also working BEFORE the blast.

And that’s the bit they don’t want you to think about.

Because the people who carefully placed those bags full of nails and explosives may well not look like Ahmed and Mahmoud.

Maybe they were wearing the same orange vests they showed up in at Meron… who knows?

But this time, it seems that the people orchestrating this ‘terror’ for their own ends are meeting some internal resistance.

It’s about to get really interesting (scroll down, for the Rav’s comment this morning.)

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BTW, Ben Gvir is Israel’s answer to ‘Trump’, i.e the ‘outsider’ who is really just as ‘inside’ as all the other corrupt politicians.

But it seems to me, that somehow, Hashem is going to fix things again that our corrupt politicians actually can’t put a strong government together until Moshiach finally shows up… Which will tie their hands, in terms of how ‘full on Covid-Dictator’ they can actually get, until the curtain finally falls permanently.

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UPDATE:

10 minutes after I wrote this, I got sent this message:

“עכשיו במולד מתחיל הממשלה של עם ישראל” The Rav just now

Translation:

Now, at the time of the molad (the beginning of the new Hebrew month), the government of ‘Am Yisrael’ is beginning.

That ‘government of Am Yisrael’ is highly unlikely to have any of our current politicians sitting in it…

Yesterday night, the Rav was full of fire, and was singing songs about Uman and having the crowd clap and dance for literally an hour, after Ma’ariv.

I left at 10pm, and it was still going.

I had the feeling something big was being sweetened again,  down there on Ido HaNavi.

Let’s see what happens next.

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UPDATE 2:

VINNEWS has the footage of the actual blast (not the aftermath).

You can see it here:

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The Hebrew basically says that if we were Druze, this would be the last murder in Jerusalem.

But after a Jew is murdered, the only thing that’s important is to watch the World Cup….

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I know that bus stop well, it’s one of the busiest trempiadas, or hitch-hiking spots, in the city, and it’s almost exclusively chareidi and frum Jews that use it.

An ‘obvious Arab’ standing there would stand out.

An ‘obvious Arab’ who left their bag there, and then left, would almost certainly have been noticed very fast.

This is Israel. When there are ‘unattended bags’ for more than a couple of minutes, people call the police to get them dealt with very fast.

The VINNEWS is claiming this footage is from a Shabak camera, that ‘the Iranians’ just happened to hack, while the police and the Jerusalem Municipality are claiming they have no footage – not of this bus stop, and not of the second bus stop in Ramot, also targeting chareidim, where the bomb thank God didn’t do anywhere near the same damage.

What a coincidence, that cameras at both these bus stops were apparently not working… yet ‘Iranians’ have the footage…

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One more thing about that Givat Shaul trempiada.

It leads out on to the motorway, there are only two ways you can go, either straight down the motorway to the Motza Illit turnoff, or to take the left back into Givat Shaul / Har Nof that runs past the Har Menucha cemetery.

There are cameras that whole route.

And if someone walked to the trempiada, placed the bomb, and then walked back into Jerusalem – that would also be caught on cameras further up from the bus stop, and would be kinda obvious, because people don’t tend to walk down to that trempiada with a bag, leave it there, and then return to the city on foot.

As usual, the whole thing stinks.

As usual, they are lying about everything.

Cui Bono?

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This is not an easy post to write.

Last Thursday, news started circulating on social media in Israel that a 16 year old boy ‘died suddenly’, for no reason, when he was sitting with his friends outside on a street.

If you read Hebrew, you can see more of that discussion on the Daniel Amram Telegram channel HERE, below is a screenshot:

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I like a fair bit of what he posts, but Amram is very ‘pro-vaccination’.

In the screenshot above, he’s having a go at one of the boy’s family members, who is basically saying her relative ‘died suddenly’ thanks to the Covid shots.

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In shul this evening, the uncle of our landlord came over to my husband, to tell him our landlord’s niece just ‘died suddenly’.

Our landlord is in his forties, so I can’t imagine that his niece would be older than in her twenties, max.

One thing I can tell you, is that my landlord’s whole family were very into getting the shots and wearing their masks.

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Every Saturday night, my husband learns chevruta with a friend of his.

Tonight, the chevruta got cancelled.

The chevruta’s mother is in town, and just when Shabbat got out she got a text message that the 40 year old daughter of her very good friend just ‘died suddenly’.

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Coincidence?

I have a lot more to say about this, but slowly does it.

I could hear the fear in my friend’s voice as she was telling me about the 40 year old, above.

My friend was emotionally coerced into getting two shots, so she could get on a plane to visit her elderly mother.

While she was telling me that ‘they don’t know what happened’, I could hear in her voice that she is starting to develop a real fear that all those ‘crazy conspiracy theories’ about the shots being, ahem, not so good for a person’s health and longevity, ahem, might just be true.

I really feel for her.

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Here’s what I want to say, for now:

There is still everything to play for, and everything to hope for, and EVERYTHING to pray about.

Rav Natan of Breslov wrote that God is so great, that even if a person already went to a doctor, God can still heal them!

For years and years and years, I puzzled over this sentence.

Now, I’m starting to understand the tremendous ruach hakodesh in even the smallest throw-away comments in the authentic Breslov works.

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As ‘the problem’ starts to swing into much clearer focus – and make no mistake, that is what we are starting to experience, here – many people are going to be faced with a very difficult internal test.

The yetzer wants us all to believe that anyone who got ‘vaccinated’ is now automatically stuffed, game over.

I don’t believe that – not for a moment.

BUT – there is an awful lot of sincere teshuva required here, and an awful lot of fundamental life-changes required here, to start turning things around.

Remember, the Tanna who stood on the serpent’s lair and got bitten – but didn’t die?

He explained something profound:

It’s the sin that kills, it’s not the snake bite.

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God is in charge here.

Only God.

And sincere teshuva, charity and tefilla can cancel out all the harsh details.

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I will have more to say about this in the Zoom class happening this Sunday at 8pm Israel time, for women, including some practical ideas of what we can do to try to stay as healthy – and sane! – as possible, in these interesting times that we live in.

If you want to join, either drop a comment below or email me via the comments form.

There is a bunch of stuff we can do, to try and turn things around for the best.

But in the meantime….

As more of the clarity starts to come in, about what’s really going on with these shots, it’s going to get difficult, mentally and emotionally, for a lot of people who were duped into taking the shots, and the people who love them.

And that’s why I want to remind us all, now:

God can do anything.

And Jews are above nature.

And prayer, teshuva and charity cancel out all the harsh decrees.

So don’t despair.

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Fourteen years ago, I took an art class at the Israel Museum for a year.

I learnt a lot in that class, including how to paint and draw.

But even more than that, I learnt a lot about myself, as how you express yourself in creative forms can tell you a huge amount about what’s really going on, under the surface.

So, August rolled around, and I started to have that familiar worry that I needed ‘something to do’, after the chagim.

I checked the Museum website – and decided to take the plunge, on the ‘advanced art class’.

Why not?

No masks this year….no young kids at home…. time to develop my drawing and painting a little more.

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I’m up to my third class, and just like 14 years ago, I am learning a bunch of new stuff.

Mostly, about myself and how I’m currently ‘reacting’ to life.

Today, the teacher set up some weird, complicated still life in the room, and told us we had to draw it in charcoal.

I’ve never really used charcoal before, although I can draw pretty well.

So, I didn’t know what to expect. I put my easel fairly close, sat down to draw… and after 15 minutes I started to feel totally overwhelmed and like I just wanted to run away.

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I stepped out for a breath of fresh air, stepped back in and took a new sheet of paper.

I realised that I was having a subconscious niggle that my proportions weren’t ‘exact’, and that the teacher was going to start critiquing me.

(What?! I’m 49…. since when do I care what the teacher thinks?!)

But…. I did.

So, I took the new sheet, started trying to measure the proportions with the charcoal, the way real artists do, and to put connecting points and geometric lines all over the place….

And after 10 minutes, I felt like running away even more.

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I stepped out again for some fresh air, and I started to catch this voice inside telling me this, over and over:

You can’t do this… it’s too hard. You can’t do this… give up now….You can’t do this….you are just wasting your time…

What on earth?!

I felt like I’d regressed 35 years and was back in my horrible art class with my horrible art teacher.

I took a deep breath, stepped back inside, and grabbed a third sheet of paper.

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I’m just going to draw the cardboard box all the weird still life is sitting on…. I thought to myself.

How hard can that be?!

Five minutes later, I was so deep in the pit of despair, I had to go and sit outside for a bit, and cry.

Probably, it was an emotional ‘flashback’, where some unresolved trauma from the past gets triggered off by a similar sort of circumstance in the present.

But again, I was just having very strong urges to run away, and just give up.

Stupid, stupid, why did you leave your bag with your car keys by the easel? I started berating myself. Now, you can’t get out of there without making a scene…

Just then, a classmate passed me by on the way to the toilet, and I realised I had to stop ‘reacting’ to this situation like I was 14, and actually deal with it like a grown up.

Can you please ask the teacher to step out for a moment to talk to me? I asked her.

She nodded, and a couple of minutes later, I was trying to figure out what was so upsetting me about the art class – together with the teacher.

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You are trying to draw it the way I’m teaching, instead of the way that comes naturally to you, she told me, after a minute.

Stop doing that, and everything will fall back into place.

I felt instantly better.

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As I worked on the weird looking still life, doing my best but no longer getting so hung up on the outcome, I pondered on how many of our kids are getting totally and utterly crushed by a school system that expects conformity.

I did OK in school only because I read really fast, and I’m good at regurgitating material in exams.

But the whole way along, I was getting into serious trouble with my teachers, because I literally couldn’t stand most of what passed for ‘teaching’ in the classroom, and I was fighting the system every step.

(One of my kids had the same problem…. thank God for Covid and home learning. It meant she actually came out of school with a bagrut.)

School just doesn’t seem to be set up for anyone who has a tendency to think for themselves, or to do things their own way.

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A few days ago, I was talking to someone ‘chareidi’ about a possible shidduch with one of my kids.

This kid prays from the heart three times a day; she’s been to Uman a lot; she visit kivrei tzaddikim for fun, with  her friends. And she dresses very tzniusly, albeit with her own unique style.

But apparently, none of that matters so much.

What REALLY matters is, does she want to send her children to Beis Yaakov?

I sighed a deep sigh.

Because really, what thinking, sensible person who really wants their children to  have an authentic relationship with Hashem, would WANT to send their daughter to a ‘Beis Yaakov’?

Or to a ‘frum-robot-producing’ yeshiva?

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For once, I don’t have a neat moral to tack on to the end of this post.

There’s a general theme going on, that while rules and guidelines are useful and helpful in some way, as soon as ‘the thing’ gets totally wrapped up in all that red-tape, and totally smothered in all those ideas about ‘the right way to do it’ – it totally kills the creative, alive, joyful spiritual impulse.

Also in drawing, and also in shidduchim.

And that brings me back around to this theme I keep writing about, that I feel so strongly that Hashem is inviting each of us to JUST BE OUR AUTHENTIC SELVES, in order to get to the next stage of geula in one piece.

And that is way, way harder than it sounds.

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ZOOM CLASS DETAILS:

Thanks to everyone who expressed an interest!

We will be doing the class at 8pm Israel time, this Sunday, Nov 20th.

It’s a one off, and it will last no longer than an hour, and I hope it will give us all a lot of chizzuk and some useful information.

I will email the login details to everyone who got in touch – and if you want to join, send me your email via the contact form on the site.

Bottom line – we have to start doing the things that Hashem has created us to do in the world.

Whatever that really is.

And even if it’s totally not the way that everyone else is doing it.

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The last couple of weeks, I’ve been getting a practical lesson in just how good, and just how holy, so many of the simple Jews out there really are.

You won’t hear stories about these simple Jews in the propaganda press, including Jewish propaganda sites like A7 and the Yeshiva World News.

You probably won’t hear stories about them in a lot of other places, too, because in this era of ‘self-promotion’ that we live in, these people aren’t doing their acts of kindnesses, and their mitzvahs, to brag about it on Instagram or Facebook.

They are doing stuff for God.

And because they care.

Here’s what happened to me today.

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As you know, the last few weeks I’ve been having yet another ‘mid-life crisis’, as my husband’s foot situation really brought back to me just how fragile – and short – life really is.

BH, with Hashem’s help (and absolutely no help from Western medicine….) the foot is doing so much better, and life as we know it has slowly gone back to something pretty much normal.

He can walk around again, drive again, leave the house again, go to shul again…. Baruch Hashem a million times, because for a month it really wasn’t like that at all.

But in the meantime, caring for the foot 24/7, and worrying about the foot even when I wasn’t slicing garlic to put on the sores, or dripping on industrial amounts of Tea Tree essential oil, kind of burst my complacent little bubble, a little.

At the same time, I’ve been translating some stuff from the Rav, Rav Berland, about the importance of reaching out to others, with the light of the Torah, and helping other people develop a real relationship with Hashem.

And the combo of the ‘foot teshuva’ and the stuff from the Rav has really hit me like a bolt of lightning, and got me really looking at what am I doing, to help other people?!

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(More on that in a moment.)

So today, I headed off early out of Jerusalem, to go and visit my ‘One Brain’ woman near Ashkelon, to see if she can help me clear up some of the confusion and inner turmoil I’ve been experiencing recently, around the idea of what am I doing with my life and is it what God really wants.

Except.

I got a massive flat tyre, in the middle of the main road in the San Simon neighborhood of Jerusalem, in the middle of rush hour.

There is so much construction going on all over the place, as the municipality digs up all the roads everywhere, to lay the cable required for 5…G, that flat tyres have become a regular part of life, the last few months.

Except.

Usually, I have my husband in the car with me to help take care of it. Or, the flat is not usually a total blow-out, so I can drive it to the puncture repair place in Talpiot and have them deal with it.

But not today.

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My husband was in the middle of davening, on the other side of the city.

(And anyway, I didn’t want to put additional stress on his foot, until it’s 100% healed.)

I stood there looking pathetic for 10 minutes, hoping some resident would take pity on me and help me change the tyre. It wasn’t happening.

So then, I kind of fell into despair and started to feel sorry for myself, and totally helpless and hopeless.

I called my husband in the middle of davening (sorry God!) – and he suggested I call my kid, who knew about some organisation that helps people change their tyres for free.

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Long story short, about 20 minutes later, a very tall man called Uriel showed up, and changed my tyre for me.

While he worked, he told me he used to be in the army for 8 years, ‘serving the country’, until he was injured.

Now, he has a younger brother who also wants to go into the special forces, but Uriel is urging him not to do it, because ‘the army is not the same army it was’.

As he talked, he was laid flat next to my car, cranking it up so he could put the spare tyre on, and I had such a feeling of gratitude for his time and help, it’s hard to describe it.

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When he was done, I tried to give him the box of Ferrero Roche that I’d got at the corner store, to say a small thank you.

He refused to take it.

If I take something for doing a mitzva, then it’s not a mitzva any more! he told me, with a very serious expression on his face.

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So, I gave him a minute long bracha instead, before driving off to the puncture place to get the tyre fixed.

While I drove to Talpiot, I realised I was tearing up.

Wow, this country is mamash full of amazing people, amazing Jews, really just trying to do kindnesses for other people, and trying to help them….I also want to be one of those people….

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Long story short, I totally missed my appointment with my One Brain woman.

But in the meantime, I had about three hours of talking to God, and trying to figure out what I can try to do, as me, to help others.

And this is what I have come up with, with Hashem’s help:

I want to help other women, and specifically other mum’s, to recharge their batteries, and to appreciate what amazing people they really are.

Not because they’re perfect, because who’s perfect?

And not because they’ve fixed all their bad middot already, because ad 120 to get that sorted out….

But just because they are trying so hard to love their families. And putting so much time, love and energy out in the world.

And because when push comes to shove, it’s the women, the mothers, the wives, who are keeping the whole show on the road.

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As more specific ideas start to gel, I’ll let you know.

(And I’m also happy to hear from readers about what sorts of things they’d like,  or are interested in, that would help to recharge their batteries, body, mind and especially soul.)

This is where I’ve got to, today.

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The people who get so much of the limelight, the headlines, the ‘buzz’, the kudos in the Jewish community are nearly all basically scummers.

They’ve done a brilliant job of hijacking us, and pretending that their brand of fake ‘Judaism’, their brand of divisive and self-serving politics, their brand of anti-Torah, self-aggrandising ‘zionism’, is the real deal.

Today, a simple guy named Uriel, who took an hour out of his day to change my tire on a busy street in Jerusalem reminded me, again, about what real Jews, and real Judaism looks like.

And it’s totally beautiful.

And that’s the world where I want to be hanging out more, even as I probably have to continue the ‘clean up’ job here on the blog, for a little while longer.

All with Hashem’s help.

Because there is no other way.

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Again, this isn’t one of mine, it’s on a blog called Heshek, and it’s a very interesting post about how the Erev Rav have always used witchcraft and sorcery, with lots of Torah references. It’s the first in a series, and I’m looking forward to the next one.

In the meantime, I’m kind of liking the idea of putting other people’s interesting posts here at the bottom of mine, so it’s less about ‘self-promotion’ and more about sharing good things around.

Enjoy!

All of Them Witches, Part 1

 

In Rebbe Nachman’s tale of Ancient Times (Sipurey Ma’asiot) he brings the story of the Seven Beggars.

(See HERE, for a good English translation.)

Except, the story ends after the tale of the sixth beggar, who heals the wounded Princess (i.e. the soul) who escapes into the Water Castle, after her evil husband the King (i.e. the yetzer hara) shoots ten poisonous arrows into her.

The Sixth Beggar is the ‘beggar who has no hands’, and he heals the wounded Princess with the ’10 Types of Melody’, i.e. the 10 Psalms of the Tikkun Haklali.

So far, so good.

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But then:

The conclusion of the story — that is, what happened on the Seventh Day with the footless beggar, and the conclusion of the King’s son with whom the story began — he did not tell; and he said he would not tell any more, and it will not be heard until Mashiach comes — speedily in our days, Amen!

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(Baruch Hashem, the husband’s foot is doing so much better, and he’s walking around on it, albeit a bit gingerly. Thanks for all the prayers, advice, and well-wishing, it’s very much appreciated.)

One of my readers, H. sent me some of the psycho-somatic connections, between ‘feet’ and our emotional state.

I’m reproducing it below, because all of us right now are in this stage of the ‘Beggar who has no feet’ – the 7th Beggar that equates to the Moshiach, in Rebbe Nachman’s tales:

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The Feet: Symbol for knowing how to behave joyfully through harmony and love. Symbol of trust being open towards yourself, towards others.

A grateful acceptance of Life, of everything we encounter on our way. A smooth exchange between the intuitive feeling aspect and the more intellectually active part of yourself. The reconciliation within yourself between the receptive “feminine” and the assertive “masculine” aspect.

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Being firmly anchored in yourself: self-consciously mastering your emotions and confidently allowing these feelings, not blocking them. A light-footed joyful, warm existence, when we build on our deepest Divine self: standing on our own feet, in balance. Symbol of naked honesty towards ourselves. An honest confrontation with others, without crossing your boundaries: respect.

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She says about ailments in general: You carry too heavy loads: get rid of them.

You try to force something, you don’t trust natural evolution enough, you would “twist” certain things, do violence: let go, let everything and everyone take their course, focus on yourself! Because you are not grounded enough in yourself, you focus too strongly on others; you may become meddlesome. You feel yourself stuck: dissolve this in yourself!

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Don’t take it out on others!

Do emotions weigh heavily? Do not look for the cause in the other. Foot problems often require a radical break with past habits. Have fears prevented you from moving forward on your life path? the cause of problems, sorrow and misery is usually faced by the other person; however, start now by observing yourself in all honesty, in the mirror as it were.

Confront your deepest core: Beneath your problems is a blissful core, discover this one. Let go of others and turn inward.

Give in now to your beautiful feelings, to your heart desires, independently of others. Make yourself true and dare to enjoy every moment: life for its own sake, gratitude! Continue on this path of joy; when you find happiness within yourself, your environment will also change. Don’t try to change the others.

Only in this way, by standing on your feet, by letting the primary feeling of happiness enter you and going your way firmly, by letting others go their way… will you experience yourself relaxed and joyful.

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This comes from a book called:

The Key to Self-Liberation, the Psychological Origin and Solution of 1300 Diseases, by Christiane Beerlandt (originally in Flemish, but with an English translation that’s pretty expensive….)

But it really spoke to me and my husband.

Now, this is what I read at the back of the Pirchei Nevarchim booklet of 10 different Psalms, revealed a little while back by Rabbi Eliezer Berland:

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Point 4:

The 10 psalms of the Tikkun HaKlali are associated with the 10 fingers of the hands of the ‘Sixth Beggar’, the beggar called ‘without hands’, who healed the Princess who fell down wounded, with the niggun (melody) of his holy hands.

And the verses of the Pirchei Nevarchim are associated with the 10 toes of the feet, of the ‘Seventh Beggar’, the beggar called ‘without feet’.

Who rectifies with his holy legs, via dancing and dancing in circles, the Prince who totally fell away from his emuna.

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Point 5:

The Pirchei Nevarchim help a person to make teshuva for serious sins, and prepare the way for a person to get his emuna back, and to renew his sense of simcha, and vitality, in his avodat Hashem (service of Hashem, i.e. doing mitzvot.)

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Compare and contrast these statements.

One is coming from the ‘body up’.

And one is coming from Shemayim, down.

But they are both saying essentially the same thing.

And they are both filling in more of the gaps, for how we can move into the next stage of geula with our emuna, and physical health, and happiness, intact.

Bezrat Hashem.

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I am continuing to learn some profound lessons from my husband’s foot.

I know this maybe sounds like ‘weird’ stuff to share on a blog, but one thing that I’ve learned throughout my life is that real emuna isn’t about crafting flowery speeches, or sharing ‘nice, theoretical, emuna ideas’ – although there is also a place for those things, for sure.

Real emuna is when we have real challenges – like a badly infected foot, or a rebellious teen, or a serious case of anger, or depression – and we try to connect those challenges back to Hashem, in real time.

The foot has already taught me a whole, massive lesson about the need to acknowledge and work on suppressed anger, which you can read more about HERE.

But today’s post is about the general idea of ‘taking responsibility’ for ourselves.

Let us begin.

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Baruch Hashem, after my husband got a blessing from the Rav last Thursday night, and after the penny dropped about ‘suppressed anger’ leading to all these disgusting, pus-y foot sores, and after I had the epiphany of putting slices of raw garlic direct on these sores – which worked AMAZINGLY, to clear up the pus – I kind of thought maybe ‘the lesson of the foot’ had drawn to a close.

But I was wrong.

The last couple of days, my husband has started to return more to his routine….

That routine where he basically works like a dog for 10 hours straight, whilst sitting in a small, window-less glass box that’s euphemistically called a ‘private office’.

When he was laid up, we talked a lot about the need for some massive sort of ‘lifestyle rebalance’.

He’s looking for a new office now, closer to home.

He’s gone back to learning more Torah again – something that got blown out of the water, by all the Covid 19 restrictions, lockdowns and stress.

And with Hashem’s help, we have plans to shift the focus off of ‘working like a dog’ a lot more.

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In the meantime….

My husband came back home yesterday, and after he took the big sock off and unwound his foot for its nightly dunking in teatree oil and close inspection – we both saw that the foot had kind of swollen up again.

Hmm.

All the infection is pretty much gone, the skin is healing amazingly.

But the foot itself was still swollen.

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For some reason, I got really cross at my husband when I saw that, and I started yelling at him that he needs to start taking more responsibility for his own foot, and stomped off to bed.

As I lay there doing some ’emergency hitbodedut’, I started wondering why I’d got so upset with the guy. I mean, he’s been through a lot, he’s doing his best, he’s been very receptive to a lot of the strange ideas I’ve been hitting him with.

I pulled out my ‘Touch for Health’ book on energy meridians, to see if I could get more clues on what might be causing the swelling, and then read about the ‘water-related’ energy meridians, kidney and bladder.

They are connected to negative emotions like existential angst, fear, apathy and despair.

These are all things that have also been ‘pushed down’ and ignored for years and years, whilst still impacting me and my husband in a whole bunch of ways, from behind the scenes.

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This morning, I had another frank chat with him, and I laid out what I’d discovered:

God is using your foot, to communicate some very deep stuff to you, about what you need to be really looking at, and taking responsibility for, in yourself.

First, we had the whole ‘ignoring the problem for five days until the foot went septic’ issue.

Classic British Ashkenazi response.

Then, we had the ‘suppressed anger about what’s going while pretending everything is ‘fine’ issue, which led directly to the disgusting, festering foot wounds that just weren’t clearing up – until we figured out the spiritual cause, got a bracha from the Rav, and started doing the raw garlic slices fanatically.

And now, we have arrived at the: “feeling totally apathetic and despairing about it all, so just kind of giving up on moving things forward” stage.

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To put this another way, my husband’s foot is a microcosm of his soul.

 And God is using it precisely, to show him the ‘underlying stuff’ he finally needs to acknowledge, and get on with really dealing with.

Tachlis, I told him he needs to take responsibility for his foot from here on in.

I’m happy to help from the sides, but his foot is HIS PROBLEM, his ‘soul response’ to the world.

And he’s the only one who can really knuckle down, and do what needs to be done to return his foot to full health, speedily, BH.

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While all this was going on, I had a few conversations with a few other people, that brought home again and again, in different ways, that we seem to be in the stage of things now where everyone has to start to take responsibility for themselves, and their lives, and their souls, and their health.

One conversation was with a friend, who was being severely pressured to ‘get induced’ because she was two weeks late and an older mum.

The hospital was putting so much pressure on her, and trying to scare the pants off her that if she didn’t do things ‘their way’, she’d be responsible for anything that went wrong with the birth, God forbid.

My friend stood her ground, really connected back to God, and decided that she was going to let God decide when this soul should be brought into the world, not the c*appy doctors.

(At the same time, she arranged for daily private scans, and was in constant touch with her chinese medicine doctor / doula. Taking responsibility doesn’t just mean you sit there and pray, you also have to actually go out and do things, too.)

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BH, the baby was born last week, naturally, when the time was right, and mum and baby are doing well.

Last year, my friend got ‘scared’ by the doctors into taking two Covid jabs.

She told me that she felt she was having a similar test again this time, with the birth. And this time, she decided to take responsibility, take it back to God, and approach with more emuna and trust that the baby would be born at the time God decided.

I’m really proud of her.

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Another conversation was with a young lady who is struggling with the nice, but OTT controlling mother of her serious boyfriend.

The mother insists on making breakfast for her (almost 30 year old….) son every morning – even though he’s been telling her not to, for the last 10 years.

She insists on ‘helping him’ to buy his furniture, ‘helping him’ to buy his clothing, ‘helping him’ with ideas of where he should be going on holiday, how he should be spending his time….

In the meantime.

His girlfriend is waiting for him to grow up, and become a man already, so they can actually get married.

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This problem of OTT controlling ‘helpful mothers’ seems to be massive in the Jewish world today.

The basic problem boils down to this:

Many mothers – even the kindest, goodest people – want to keep their children, especially their sons, kind of ‘small and dependent’ on them, because it makes the mother feel good and useful to ‘help’.

In other words, they want to keep their sons as ‘boys’ they can mother.

Meantime, the wives want their husbands to grow up, and to be men.

Real men, who take responsibility for themselves, and who knuckle down and work on developing the emuna, and good character traits required to truly be the people God designed them to be in the world.

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Sure, we could blame the mothers, the parents, for continuing to coddle and control their children.

But really?

The responsibility for this lies with the man himself.

It’s so much easier, in so many ways, to have someone else decide things for you, and take care of things for you.

And in the meantime, you can sit there and lie to yourself that you ‘don’t have a choice’ about what’s going on, or that it’s impossible to change things, or even, that you really ARE working on yourself, all the time (just, nothing ever actually changes or shifts….)

As the Sages say, if someone tells you that they didn’t search and they found – don’t believe them!

But if they tell you they searched and then found – then you can believe them.

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There’s reams and reams that have been written about the ‘feminisation’ of men, and I don’t want to add much more to the discussion.

Other than to say, that we are in a period of time now where God is expecting every single one of us to knuckle down, and to take responsibility for ourselves, our lives, our souls, our health, our middot.

The time when you could carry on ignoring problems has gone.

The time when you could carry on blaming your parents, your rabbis, your teachers, your spouse, your kids, your boss, the neighbor, for everything that is going wrong – has gone.

God is inviting every single one of us now, to move into the world of truth, and that journey begins with ourselves.

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So many of us are so ‘numb’ to ourselves, to our souls, to the real ‘us’, that really God doesn’t have so much choice, except to try to get our attention in some radical ways.

Like, strange and disturbing health issues, that just aren’t going away, no matter how much we ‘listen to the experts’.

That process is likely about to accelerate, as more and more people understand that they have been duped, deceived and injured by Western Medicine, and its minions.

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Having to deal with health issues like this is exhausting and scary.

Since my husband got back from Uman, I’ve been running around like a chicken without a head, trying to figure out what on earth was going on, and what ‘response’ God wanted from me, and from him.

That process has been all-consuming.

But at this point, I can honestly say I am incredibly grateful for the infected foot, even though we are still not quite out of the woods with it.

It has been a catalyst for some tremendous teshuva, some tremendous spiritual soul-searching, hopefully, some tremendous changes that will have long-lasting benefits, in a number of ways.

There have been so many important lessons to  learn, from ‘the foot’.

But the main one boils down to this:

Take responsibility for yourself, your health, and your life.

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Stop blaming other people all the time.

Stop pretending like ‘you don’t have a choice’.

We always have a choice to make, whatever the circumstances we find ourselves in.

We can always choose to work on our emuna, to own our own problems, to use our health issues to get closer to Hashem – or the opposite, God forbid.

Sure, it’s easier to act like the victim.

It’s easier to hide behind ‘kibud av’ve em’ then really owning up to the fact that we’re spiritually lazy, and that we don’t want to look at ourselves properly in the face.

It’s easier to let other people decide stuff the real stuff for us, while we passively sit there reading the latest tweets about our stocks and shares.

But that’s not what God wants.

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If you’re a man, and this post pushed your buttons, I apologise in advance.

If you’re a controlling mother, and this post pushed your buttons, I apologise in advance.

(And if you’re my husband and this post pushed your buttons, I also apologise in advance!!!)

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We live in a politically-correct world where we’re supposed to just go around hugging trees and pretending that ‘global warming’ is responsible for everything that’s going so badly wrong in our world, but that’s a crock.

We’re responsible.

You and me.

But the good news is, once we stop ducking the responsibility for what’s going wrong in our lives, then we are really empowered to start to turn things around.

And that process of change starts with us, our emuna, and our bad middot.

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Yesterday, I had an interesting chat with one of my friends here in Israel.

Three weeks ago, a 17 year old boy in their neighborhood was rushed to hospital for serious brain surgery.

The story was then, that he’d somehow managed to ‘slip’ in the shower, and had banged his head so hard on the floor, he’d ruptured something serious.

Even at the time, I said to me friend that the story didn’t sound right. When people fall over – and they are still conscious – the body automatically prioritises protecting the most crucial part of the anatomy – the head, the brain.

So, you’ll break an arm, or twist awkwardly, to avoid slamming your head straight into the floor, even if you do slip, somehow.

But the exception to this, is if you faint, or lose consciousness.

Like this:

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This is a compilation of ‘vaccinated’ people in China, all keeling over unconscious, most of whom subsequently died.

Notice how their heads mamash smash into floors, cars, tables, work surfaces.

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So, I told my friend that it seemed to me the boy must have lost consciousness, somehow, BEFORE he smashed his head in the shower.

And if he was ‘vaccinated’, then that would explain a lot….

Yesterday, she told me that she’d learned that this 17 year old boy HAD A STROKE IN THE SHOWER.

Before these ‘safe and effective’ Covid shots, we never heard of this happening to healthy teens.

Now, it seems to be an almost daily occurrence.

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Over on the Twitter feed that’s trending under #DiedSuddenly, you find some more interesting information that our totally corrupt, propaganda MSM just isn’t covering.

Like this:

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Here’s a snippet from the original story, on the AmericanLibertyReportNews.com website, HERE:

More than 18 million people were injured so badly by their first COVID shot from Pfizer or Moderna that they had to go to the hospital. That’s according to the CDC’s own internal data, which a court just ordered the federal agency to release to a watchdog group….

Of the 10 million people who participated in V-safe – again, a massive sample size – 3.3 million reported Adverse Health Impacts (AHIs) immediately after their first vaccination.

That’s 33% or one-in-three. Of those 3.3 million people, 1.2 million reported that they were unable to perform daily activities for a time after vaccination. 1.3 million reported getting so sick from the shots that they had to miss school or work.

And about 800,000 reported being hospitalized by their COVID vaccination….That’s an 8% hospitalization rate.

It means that as many as 18 million of the 230 million people who received at least one shot may have been hospitalized with an adverse reaction.

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Strangely, our corrupt, propaganda media is totally silent about all this.

Instead, they continue to put out weird stories that don’t make sense, like THIS:

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I asked my husband if it’s even possible for a grown man, who can’t swim, to drown in a mikva.

He told me that the water only comes up to the chest of an average man, and that you can stand up with your head out of the water at all times (unless you’re incredibly short).

So…. the part of this ‘story’ that is missing, is that this man ‘drowned in the mikva’ AFTER he lost consciousness.

I am willing to bet that just like all those Chinese vax victims in the first Tweet above, he had a vaxx-induced heart attack, or stroke, in the water, immediately lost consciousness, and then drowned.

Doesn’t that sound way more likely, than a grown man somehow ‘drowning’ in a mikva without first losing consciousness?

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Back on the DiedSuddenly Twitter feed, we find more interesting stories that the MSM is avoiding.

Like this one:

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Yes, you read that correctly.

Canada has had some of the most draconian ‘Covid’ tyranny of anywhere in the world, and recently, they made it obligatory for doctors to get their 4th Covid shot, or ‘booster’, as they euphemistically like to call this stuff.

Whaddya know?

All of a sudden, there are 80 Canadian doctors – and the list is growing all the time, who ‘diedsuddenly’ from unknown causes.

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My mum just sent me this:

CDC Vaccine Advisory Group To Vote on Adding mRNA Vaccines to the Childhood Schedule

My mum has had three Covid shots, and no-one could accuse her of being an ‘anti-vaxxer’.

But she still thinks this is totally awful.

Why?

Because even my mum has come to understand that these shots are the very OPPOSITE of ‘safe and effective’.

They are dangerous nanotechnology that are causing millions of young, healthy people all over the world to keel over suddenly, after experiencing a GO-nanotech-induced heart-attack or stroke.

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Is the CDC going to approve these killer Covid shots for your children?

Of course they are.

The CDC is bought and paid for by Big Pharma, and is also operating as the regulatory arm of the same American government whose Dept of Defense and DARPA are the masterminds behind all this GO-nanotech-masquerating-as-vaccines in the first place.

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So, what are you going to do?

Are you going to carry on parroting the line that these shots are ‘safe and effective’, as the dead and disabled continue to pile up all around?

Are you going to meekly go along with a ‘vaccine schedule’ for your children, designed by DARPA and Big Pharma to kill, disable, or at the very least, ‘remote control’ your children?

Or, are you finally going to grow some cojones, and start to stand up for yourself.

And your family.

And especially, for your precious children?

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There is such powerful, peaceful strength in numbers.

The only way they get this stuff to ‘work’ is if they can fool or coerce enough people into going along with it.

If you are a parent, seek out other like-minded parents now, and decide to just say no, to the CDC’s vaccine mandates for your child.

Even if you have to pull them out of school, and homeschool.’

Even if you hate confrontation.

Even if the thought of standing out from the crowd like this makes you cringe.

Grow some cojones, and start to stand up for what’s right, and just, and true.

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In the meantime, we are heading into interesting times with all this.

With infertility and cancers sky-rocketing all over the planet; #DiedSuddenly being the most searched term in social media, and more and more stories coming out about teens having strokes in the shower, and grown men ‘drowning’ in mikvas – clearly, they can’t keep this ‘safe and effective’ farce going for too much longer.

Even with the corrupt, propaganda MSM ignoring the story.

The cracks in the narrative are growing so wide, they are becoming obvious to anyone, who WANTS to see the truth.

The question is, how many people are really in that camp?

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The last three weeks, I’ve been having a massive test of trying to not get angry.

It started shortly before Rosh Hashana, when my two kids wound me up about the Rav, and then has just kind of continued unabated since then.

Having all the stress of dealing with my husband’s infected foot took things up a level, and long story short, I’ve been on the edge of losing it multiple times, the last three weeks.

First, let’s explain what happened with the foot.

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Long story short, the husband came back from Uman with a really, really bad foot infection, that has been incredibly stressful for my whole family.

Because it just wasn’t getting better, no matter what we did with it.

I shoved bentonite clay poultices on it; bathed it in strong tea tree solution, put my ‘miracle balm’ on it – and all that seemed to help to take down the swelling after 2-3 days.

BUT – then the sole of the foot erupted in a bunch of deep, painful and infected sores, that just seemed to be multiplying all over the place.

At that point, I admitted defeat and asked my husband to call a doctor.

(And I also started paying pidyonot, because the penny was starting to drop that whatever was going on, it was turning into a massive spiritual test for all of us.)

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My husband was on crutches, and literally hadn’t left the house for a week, when the Arab ‘doctor to your door’ showed up.

He stayed here exactly 26 seconds, he took one look at my husband’s foot, and told him he had ‘pitriot’, i.e. a fungal infection.

He prescribed him two antibiotic creams for five days, which I went to get, and my husband started enthusiastically slathering them all over his foot.

It was Friday lunchtime.

At the shabbos table, my husband’s foot started swelling up again, like it had right at the beginning, and it went a really yucky colour.

He had an allergic reaction to the creams, and we had to wash them off ASAP.

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At this point, the secret worry that something serious was going on with the foot started to really take hold for both of us.

My husband had a late uncle who spent the last year of his life having various toes, then a foot, then his lower leg cut off, thanks to diabetic foot infections. Visions of Uncle Fishel started haunting my sleep.

I started paying some serious amounts of pidyonot, and at the same time, I spent hours researching online for some natural alternatives to treating really bad foot infections that just wouldn’t heal up.

I also started doing a lot of cheshbon hanefesh about the spiritual / emotional causes of what was going on, and that led – and is continuing to lead – to a lot of teshuva, and a lot of things that need some work.

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Long story short….

After trying apple cider vinegar foot baths…smearing raw honey on the foot…dripping coconut oil around it…using more bentonite clay on it, which also worked to staunch the bleeding, even though it made it look even more gross….forcing my husband to drink ionic silver solution…and to take MMS drops…and probiotics…and to drink turmeric teas…

I got to the idea of using raw garlic on the foot to clear up the infection.

And Baruch Hashem, it’s been working.

Another thing that has really helped with the healing part of the equation is using a mixture of 1 tsp coconut oil, mixed with 2 drops of oregano essential oil and 5 drops of myrrh essential oil.

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In the meantime.

My kids kept panicking me that I was doing the wrong thing, by not just checking my husband into a hospital somewhere….

And my husband’s sister – a very senior pathologist – kept sending us messages telling us to do exactly the opposite of what we were doing…

And my husband kept glaring at me, every time I approached his foot with another slice of raw garlic…

And visions of Uncle Fishel continued to haunt my dreams….

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By the end of last week, I could see the garlic and myrrh mixture was finally working, BH.

But in the meantime, the toll of spending three hours a day bathing my husband’s foot and sticking garlic on it – while also trying to keep the household going, build a sukkah and cook meals for chag and shabbat all by myself – was really starting to take its toll.

By Erev Simchat Torah, I was at breaking point.

I’d spent the morning rushing around to get a wheelchair from Yad Sarah, so my husband could spend a little bit of the holiday with the Shuvu Banim kehilla, and then the idea was that I’d push him back home.

My kids had forgotten that I wanted a quiet holiday, and I ended up with 5-6 guests.

And I was just feeling totally sick of everything, and everyone, but especially my family.

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I had to get out of the house, or else I was going to explode at someone in a way I was probably going to seriously regret.

So, I popped off to the local health store to get a couple of kombuchas, my drug of choice, for the chag.

I get in there, and there is a hulk of a man with a ponytail, cowboy hat – and a massive mask pulled up to his eyebrows.

He’s inline, standing on the old ‘keep 2 meters apart’ sticker that was stuck there two years ago, but basically ignored ever since, and he was clearly expecting everyone to be doing the same.

Another cashier opened up just as I joined the queue, and the two people in front of me went there, so that left me directly behind the hulk – and I was in no mood to tip-toe around Covid-induced OCD mental illness, so I stood where I would have stood normally, i.e. not 2 metres away.

He didn’t notice, he was busy paying.

But then his masked-up wife suddenly rushed over to him – she’d been standing way over on the other side of the store, to avoid being next to anybody who could breathe germs on her – and started frantically gesturing at me, as she whispered to him to do something!!!

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The guy turned around, and in bad Hebrew told me that I was too close to him, and could I please move back.

I told him:

No, I can’t. If you have a problem, you need to stay at home and get your stuff ordered in.

He had no idea what to do with that, so he turned back around and continued paying, while his wife continued glaring at me. From the other side of the store, where Covid germs apparently didn’t get to.

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I left the store in such a bad mood.

Partially, I was worrying that the mentally-ill crazies were going to force the rest of us into another lockdown again. Partially, I was conflicted about whether I was just meant to have ‘bitull-ed’, instead of standing up for myself. And partially, I was feeling like no matter where I go, no matter what I do, I just couldn’t seem to run away from the test of anger.

Which I kept failing.

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Yesterday evening, I wheeled my husband to the men’s section of the big Shuvu Banim temporary Sukkah on HaAyin Het Road, then found a chair in the women’s section.

We got there early, so I had a really good view of the Rav, because I was standing on my chair and peering over the mechitzah.

Even though it was Simchat Torah, I was feeling so sad and broken, about everything that had been going on the last few weeks, and my own inability to deal with all this stuff without constantly feeling frazzled and angry.

Long story short…. I spent a couple of intense, but awesome hours there. I started off so sad, but by the end, I started to feel so much better, so much happier again.

I got home, and I just knew what the spiritual cause of my husband’s infected foot was: suppressed anger.

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This morning, I dug out the small booklet, the Tefilla L’ani, of prayers and advice written by the Rav, to help overcome anger.

I’ve read it a few times before, and it has always worked immediately, to defuse the angry feelings that seem to just be overwhelming me.

As I read, I found a whole bunch of stuff that seemed to be tailored exactly to the situation with the infected foot, and it’s connection to angry thoughts, and suppressed anger, self-righteousness and holding grudges against people and God, that life isn’t exactly the way we think it should be.

But I also found some information that explains why so many of us are currently facing the test of anger at the moment, in its many different incantations.

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Here’s what I read:

[W]hen a person gets angry, he is in a state of lacking self-control, and evil forces control him. But when a person prays and pleads to overcome anger, the he will merit to see the face of Moshiach Tzidkaynu, about whom it’s written: “He will be imbued with a spirit of fear of Hashem,” “the breath of our nostrils, Hashem’s anointed.”

And he gives strength to the kingdom of Moshiach to reveal itself in the world, and all of this comes by way of his nullifying his anger with mercy.

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Take-away message:

Each of has a job to do, to:

  1. Acknowledge our anger.
  2. Understand it’s a problem, instead of always justifying it by blaming other people, or situations for ‘making us angry’.
  3. Pray profusely, to ask Hashem to make our anger go away.

And every time we make an effort to engage in this process of overcoming our anger, we are literally bringing the open revelation of Moshiach a step closer.

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The last three weeks, I’ve been telling myself and my husband over and over again, that nothing ‘bad’ comes from a person going to Uman for Rosh Hashana.

I knew my husband’s infected foot was some sort of blessing in disguise, but figuring the whole thing out (without losing my marbles) has been really hard.

Once I came across this piece of information, I finally could see what’s been going on.

My husband is a British ashkenazi – his anger is of the firmly suppressed and internalised variety, that leads to no end of health issues, God forbid.

So, Rabbenu fixed things that all that ‘suppressed anger’ should show up in horrible foot sores that just wouldn’t heal, no matter what. This whole process has brought so much of the ‘suppressed anger’ up, in so many ways, so that now it can properly acknowledged, dealt with and prayed about.

BH, it’s actually been a huge kindness, because:

[W]hen a person prays and pleads to overcome anger, the he will merit to see the face of Moshiach Tzidkaynu.

But first, they have to be able to acknowledge their anger!

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There are a lot of angry people around at the moment.

There are a lot of us dealing with the ‘test of anger’, because all this is directly connected to Moshiach being revealed.

People are always annoying. Situations are always frustrating.

But our test is to stop blaming others for everything that’s ‘wrong’ in the world, no matter how justified, and to just knuckle down to working on overcoming our own anger.

It’s a process that lasts a full 120 years.

But the point is to engage in that process, get God involved, and to pray and plead to overcome our own anger, so that we merit to see the ‘face of Moshiach Tzidkaynu’.

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May Hashem help us all to pass this test.

While still sticking up for what’s right.

And not letting the psychos win.

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You might also like this article:

A reader just sent me the following.

***Updates Below***

It’s meant to be footage from 1933 taken in Chicago, showing an event organised by the Zionist Organisation of America (ZOA), where thousands of people wave flags with stars of David on them, while dancing around a huge bull-headed statue with an oven in it’s stomach…

While some “high priestess” stuffs what looks like a dead kid into it.

Here’s the first video:

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And here is the second one:

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The real evildoers are trying to set the authentic Jews up to take the fall for all of their many crimes against humanity.

I have no doubt that many of our ‘dear leaders’ in the Jewish community for many centuries, already, have been devil-worshipping ‘pretend Jews’.

These people were for sure worshipping demons in the time of the First Temple.

And they also denied the Oral Torah, in their incarnation as the ‘Sadduccees’.

And then, they created xtianity, with Yoshki – a Sadduccee Kohen who smuggled black magic out of Egypt to do his ‘miracles’ – as its figure-head.

And then, they morphed again, to become Sabeans, and then gnostic, demon-worshipping ‘xtians’, and then ‘Karaites’ with links to the Babylon Exilarchs, who married Frankist, non-Jewish royalty.

And this is still only half the story.

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Those people then went on to corrupt the Jewish community further with more ‘false messiahs’ like Shabtai Tzvi (another ‘kohen’ descended from that same extended family of xtian-karaite-heretics), and then Jacob Frank…. on and on it goes.

And it’s still going.

But the question for this post is this:

Is this footage authentic?

Here’s how it’s being described on THIS site:

The event shown above was organized by the Zionist Organization of America, sponsored by the Jewish Agency for Palestine, and produced by Meyer Weisgal, with help from Rabbi Solomon Goldman as well as Maurice Samuel, the author of “You Gentiles.”

One of the big speakers at the event was none other than Chaim Weismann, first president of Israel and the guy who alongside Lionel Walter Rothschild authored the Balfour Declaration.

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Readers, help me out here.

Not with unsupported ‘opinions’, but by helping me do some spade work.

Did an event of this nature really occur in 1933 in Chicago, organised by the ZOA?

That’s the first place to begin.

If the answer is ‘no’ – then where did this footage of thousands of people waving flags with ‘Stars of David’ on them, while worshipping the Ba’al, come from?

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And if the answer is ‘yes’ – then that speaks for itself.

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PS: the Benjamin Fulford site covered this story, which is where my reader found it.

‘Benjamin Fulford’ is another Q-style psy-ops site, designed to keep the people who care complacently believing that ‘the white hats’ have this all under control.

That’s baloney.

This evil IS going to break, but it’s going to break when each and every one of us take responsibility for challenging the evil in our own lives – and particularly, within our own hearts and souls.

And THEN, miraculously, all this evil will start to fall and topple.

But not because MI6 or Trump or Putin are doing anything.

They are all just following their script, and keeping people confused and away from making the personal teshuva required, because ‘the white hats are going to save the world’.

Forewarned is forearmed.

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UPDATE:

Ok, so I started checking out some of the ‘facts’ here. First of all, let’s start with Meyer Weisgal.

This comes from his Wikipedia page HERE:

Meyer Wolf Weisgal (1894 – 1977) was an American journalist, publisher, playwright, fundraiser, and Zionist activist who served as the President of the Weizmann Institute of Science and as the founding President of Beit Hatfutsot (the Jewish Diaspora Museum)….

In 1926, he published the first English translation of the works of Chaim Nachman Bialik. In 1932, he saw stage success with the play “The romance of a people”, and he continued to produce stage plays from then on. He conceived the opera-oratorioThe Eternal Road to alert the then-ignorant public to Hitler’s persecution of the Jews in 1937 Germany….

From 1921 until 1930, he was the first head of the Zionist Organization of America.

Through the World Zionist Organization he came in close contact with its chair Chaim Weizmann and acted as his personal representative since 1940. In 1944, he started an initiative for expanding the Daniel Sieff Research Institute (led by Weizmann) into what would become a leading multidisciplinary research university: this opened its doors on November 2, 1949, as the Weizmann Institute of Science.

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I went to check out ‘the Eternal Road’ – you can find it in the MILKEN music archive HERE.

(Note that Michael Milken is mixed up in this again, in some very odd ways. Color me totally not-surprised.)

Here’s a screenshot (to the left).

It’s very possible that ‘Act II ‘Moses’ Scene 20, Moses receives the Commandments /Dance around the golden calf’ is what we’re looking at, in the footage above.

This opera-oratio was apparently first produced in 1937 – four years after the ZOA is meant to have held their gathering of 125,000 in Chicago.

That suggests that opera footage from 1937 got ‘spliced’ with other footage from 1933.

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Why would anyone go to all the trouble of doing this?

Here’s my take.

Back in 1933, the zionists were busy cosy-ing up to Hitler and his nazis, and were signing the Ha’avera agreement which effectively broke the global economic blockade of Nazi Germany, enabling Germany to re-arm, and then leading to World War II and the Holocaust.

Thanks to books like In Jewish Blood, by journalist Steve Rodan, the true scope of the awful betrayal of the Jewish people by the zionist leadership is starting to come into proper focus now.

The zionist leadership have sold the real Jews out again, and again and again, for money and personal gain.

They did it in 1933.

They did it all throughout WW2.

They did it after WW2, when they started whitewashing the Nazis and rehabilitating West Germany in return for money from Bonn.

And they did it again, just now, by volunteering the State of Israel to be Big Pharma’s guineapig, for the Covid nanotech shots.

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Our leaders colluded with Hitler; helped Nazi killers to escape after World War 2 – even to Eretz Yisrael itself!

Helped the war criminals stash and bank their stolen cash and ‘Jewish gold’ – for a cut.

And have continually worked to destroy the authentic real Jewish people all over the world – but especially in Israel.

And that work in continuing today.

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So, this video and ‘story’ seems to be another classic ploy of burying the real, shocking truth, with OTT, fake, anti-semitic crap.

And what does that tell you, about sites like ‘Benjamin Fulford’, who are passing this stuff off as authentic?

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UPDATE 2:

Reader C. sent me this (thanks!):

So I think the video of the ZOA Chicago 1933 event is real. I only checked things quickly because I don’t have time to research this properly right now but it seems to have been an event called “The Romance of a People” and it was part of Chicago’s World Fair. Here are some links talking about it:

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Here’s a couple of screenshots of the original newspaper article, above:

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Meyer Weisgal, above, was the one who wrote and stage ‘The Romance of a People’.

Amazing, how the Zionist Organisation of America had oodles and oodles and oodles of money to stage lavish pageants like this one, and ‘The Eternal Road’, above, during the 1930s….. but apparently very little cash available to fund any real rescue operations to save real Jews from the Nazis….

Even today, the whole thing is built on lavish, top end propaganda, while the real actions to help real Jews, tachlis, is almost totally absent.

There is nothing new under the sun.

Go back and read how the zionists were painting the State of Israel as the only ‘saviour’ for the thousands of persecuted European Jews in 1933, when they were trying to get established and raise funds.

And then, compare and contrast with what they actually did in World War 2, and who they really saved.

Totally sickening.

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So, it seems I am coming out of retirement again.

There is going to be more and more of this anti-semitic tripe being put out there, to try and blur the role the zionists actually played in the destruction of European Jewry in World War 2.

And the birur has to continue.

One way or another.

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PS: I just wrote a review for ‘In Jewish Blood’ – but you won’t be able to see it on Amazon.

Apparently, Amazon has hidden my 5 star review from anyone else:

Censorship in action.

Apparently, not even believing Jews living in Israel who research these topics for themselves are allowed to say anything ‘bad’ about zionists….

Tell me again, that these people aren’t totally and utterly corrupt, on every level.

Sigh.

Tatty, come and rescue us from them!

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UPDATE 3:

Another reader, H. just sent me this link, with a very full description of the ‘Jewish Day’ and the Chicago World Trade Fair in 1933:

https://interactive.wttw.com/a/chicago-stories-jewish-chicago-1833-1933

Here’s some snippets:

The Fair was a colossal effort. In the planning for over five years, it took place during the Great Depression. Yet by its emphasis on American technology, science and industry, the Fair was designed to show the strides made by the United States, and particularly the progress made by the city of Chicago since its founding in 1833….

According to Weisgal, the Jews of Chicago had been asked to participate in the World’s Fair. Negotiations went on for months as to whether the Jews were a race, a religion, or a nation; and if so, could they be represented by a building; and if a building, what kind of building? After the success of his 1932 Chanukah pageant, Weisgal felt inspired: “not a building, not an exhibit, but a pageant portraying five thousand years of Jewish history….

[How Weisgal got Chaim Weizmann to speak at the event:]

WEIZMANN: “What’s in it for the movement?”

WEISGAL: (with impressive emphasis and prayer in my heart) “If you will come to Chicago for one day, and make only one speech, even if for only five minutes, I will give you $100,000 for any Zionist fund you designate.”

WEIZMANN: “Put it in writing.”

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$100,000 for a speech!

Back in 1933, when the dollar was still worth something….

And where did that money go?

Weisgal promised to raise $100,000 for Weizmann’s Central Refugee Fund, which was designated to help German Jews settle in Palestine, and Weizmann agreed to come to Chicago.

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I did a bit of looking around, and I can’t find any information about any Jews Weizmann’s ‘Central Refugee Fund’ actually helped.

I would love to know where that massive amount of money, $100,000 in 1933 dollars, actually ended up, and what was done with it.

Who was actually rescued by Weizmann’s Central Refugee Fund?

Surely, it can’t be too hard to get an answer to that question….

TBC