The Rav, Rav Eliezer Berland, has been singing, dancing and clapping for months and months now.

I try to get down to his ma’ariv prayers 3-4 times a week (it’s on Ido HaNavi Street, and starts around 8.30pm)

For as long as I can remember now, he’s had the kehilla singing niggunim about Uman, clapping to ‘sweeten the judgements’ and jumping up and down, to also ‘sweeten the judgements’.

I know all this sounds so strange, but Rabbenu writes a great deal about these things, and others, and I think if I keep the blog going, that has to be focus moving forward.

To explain how real ‘science’ and Rabbenu are actually on exactly the same page, when it comes to healing human beings.

More on that soon, BH.


In the meantime, the Rav said this, last Wednesday, December 7, 2022:

“Now we are in the war of Gog and Magog – all we have to do is to sing and dance and all our enemies will be destroyed!”


I know this sounds weird.

But, as someone who has been ‘singing and dancing’ for a while now, especially when the fear hits, especially when I notice all the apparently ‘bad’ stuff going on – I can tell you, things turn around.

Remember, we’re meant to be in the middle of WW3, between Russia and Ukraine?

What happened to that, does anyone know?

Remember Iran’s nuke, that was meant to be ‘imminent’ a couple of months back?

Where did it go?

Remember, all the food shortages that were meant to have arrived?

Even my fancy crisps from the USA have come back to the shelves, after a six month absence.

Remember how hard they were pushing everyone to stay locked down and masked up forever?

Even the old Americans in Jerusalem are barely paying attention to their propaganda anymore.

Even in the middle of all this darkness, when I remember how many things have already been ‘sweetened’, miraculously, it gives me tremendous hope.


BH, I just asked for permission to quote from a new Torah class that was given about the real war being waged by Amalek, specifically against the ‘True Tzaddik’, or Tzaddik HaEmet of the generation.

If I get the greenlight, I’ll share it with you.

But the bottom line is:

Rabbenu’s advice works.

And Rav Berland is the Tzaddik HaDor who is putting Rabbenu’s advice into practise, on the communal level, and drawing together all our prayers, singing and dancing to really turn things around and ‘fight Amalek’ on the spiritual level.

The more people who understand this, and throw their lot in with the Rav – the easier and faster this next bit of the geula process is going to be, and the quicker we’ll pass through this ‘War of Gog and MaGog’.


Even if we can’t save ‘everyone’, we can certainly save ourselves, and our family and friends.

And we can continue to live lives of ‘sweetness’ even in the midst of all this bitterness, evil and fear.

But only if we’re following the correct advice, of the real ‘True Tzaddik’, and coming together with other Jews who also following the correct advice of the real ‘True Tzaddik’.

There are lot of impostors out there.

There always have been.

But the truth of the pudding is in its tasting.

Try the advice, the prayers, the practise of singing and dancing, and doing regular hitbodedut, of doing pidyonot, and do the experiment yourself.

Because until you actually do that experiment yourself, there is nothing to even discuss.


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The more I research how Extremely Low Frequencies can affect the human mind and body, the more ‘the big picture’ is swimming into focus.

**I’m reposting this from last year, it’s definitely worth re-reading. There are reports every day of crazy violence in schools, in malls, and on the roads in Israel, and other stories suggesting that many people are being ‘neuro-modulated’ to act and behave in extreme, abnormal ways.**

I’m also feeling an agitating ‘buzzing’ inside myself, which could well be linked to all these weird ‘unidentified’ planes now flying all over the place, circling overhead for hours at a time.

Read this, and draw your own conclusions about what might be happening here.


To quickly recap the main points from THIS post:

  1. ‘Directed Energy Weapons’ that operate at millimeter (ELF) range have been around for over a decade, and have been used covertly by our governments and militaries in a number of different settings.
  2. There is definitely graphene oxide in the Covid shots created by Pfizer, Moderna, Johnson & Johnson and Astra Zeneca (and probably also the rest, too, but those haven’t been specifically tested by Spanish chemist, Dr Pablo Campra.)
  3. Graphene Oxide ‘amplifies’ microwaves, and soundwaves, by at least 1,000 times.
  4. Graphene oxide can be ‘modulated’ by different sound and microwaves, to perform different tasks in the human mind and body.
  5. Directed Energy Weapons work on the same ELF frequencies as 5—G.


Before we move on, here’s a good interview with Dr Pablo Campra (in Spanish, with English subtitles, 26 mins), where he explains more about the graphene oxide in the Covid shots, in simpler language:


Important points to note, is that this scientific investigation was focussed only on identifying whether there is graphene oxide in these shots, not how much graphene oxide is in these shots.

Now they have proven these shots do contain GO, the next stage is to research how much of this nanotech material – that hasn’t been disclosed by any of the manufacturers – these shots actually contain.


So now, we move to the next question:

Why put graphene oxide in these shots? What’s it for? What’s it meant to do?

Graphene oxide is bio-toxic.

It can and does build up in the body, to cause blood clotting, clog lungs and cause bilateral pneumonia (aka ‘Covid Lung’), and the loss of taste and smell (anosmia) – amongst many other symptoms being attributed to ‘Covid 19’.

So, why put it in the shots?

We can argue that the ‘Powers That Be’ are just straight up trying to kill people by poisoning them to death, with slow-action graphene oxide. It’s certainly possible.

But at this stage, I’m coming across information that is painting the outline of other possibilities, possibly even more disturbing – but which also contain a ray of hope, for how we turn all this around.

Read on.


A few days ago, I got to THIS article written in 2003, about what really happened in the Rwandan massacres of the 1990s:


The basic premise is that US Intelligence mounted a satellite dish on the back of a C-130 Hercules plane in Rwanda during April – July 1994 – and then used it to ‘beam’ directed energy at angry crowds of people, to tip them over the edge into committing mass murder.

I know, believe me I know, that this sounds so ‘out there’. But with everything we’re piercing together about how the human body really works, and how these covert Directed Energy Weapons operate, it really is starting to look like this is what is going on.

Here’s a snippet:

[It’s been] an open secret since the late fifties, when researchers accidentally discovered that there is a precise “control” brain wave for literally everything we do, and for everything we feel. The problem back then was that each of these control brain waves [rage, fear, panic, lethargy, vomiting and so on] had to be transmitted with an accuracy taken out to three decimal places, or they simply did not work at all.

But as the years rolled by, and with the advent of transistors and microprocessors, the operational application of precise control brain waves became practical reality…

What the C-130 crew were actually engaged in was “electromagnetically augmenting” a pre-existing state.

Remember that the agents and security service personnel first had to point the Hutu tribesmen in the direction of the Tutsi, induce reasonable anger, and make sure they were appropriately armed. Only then could the C-130 go to work with the precise control brain wave of “rage”, augmenting and thus upgrading crowd behavior from that of angry demonstrators to uncontrollable genocidal maniacs.

Although not “classic”, this was and is unquestionably mind control, for the simple reason that external means were being used to force an irresistible change in behavior.


All of a sudden, it started to make perfect sense, why ‘Black Lives Matter’ and ‘Palestinian Lives Matter’ appeared out of the mists, last year.

Because if you could get crowds of people angry, and then augment that anger to homicidal rage with the press of a button – hey presto! Instant excuse for instituting martial law in the middle of the ‘pandemic’, and that inconvenient pretense of ‘democracy’ and ‘human rights’ can be totally done away with.

Just in time to start jabbing everyone with the GO shots…


So, in the US, we had ‘George Floyd’.

And here in Israel, we had many, obviously staged, attempts to stir up trouble between Arabs and Jews like THIS:


Remember that weird, staged ‘stoning’ attack on a vehicle by Maaleh Zeit, in Jerusalem, where the driver was filmed ‘running over’ an Arab?

Remember, the autistic Palestinian man who got shot dead – for nothing – by the Border Police in the Old City?

Remember, the ‘civil war’ that suddenly erupted out of nowhere in Lod, and elsewhere, while the police and army conveniently disappeared for a week and pretended they couldn’t do anything to stop it?


Let’s get back to ‘Operation Crimson Mist’.

One of the leading researchers in the field of how ‘physics affects consciousness’ is one Elizabeth Rauscher-Bise, who died in 2019.

HERE‘s her Wikipedia page, and this is a snippet of her bio:

[She was] a former researcher with the Lawrence Berkeley National LaboratoryLawrence Livermore National Laboratory, the Stanford Research Institute, and NASA.

In 1975 Rauscher co-founded the Berkeley Fundamental Fysiks Group, an informal group of physicists who met weekly to discuss quantum mysticism and the philosophy of quantum physics. 

And this is from the original article, quoted above:

“Elizabeth Rauscher-Bise identified specific frequency effects to induce nausea, happiness and many other behavioral states decades ago.

Clearly, Dr. Rauscher-Bise is an enthusiast: “Give me the money and three months”, she boasts, “and I’ll be able to affect the behavior of 80 per cent of the people in this town without their knowing it. Make them happy – or at least they’ll think they’re happy. Or aggressive.”

Unlike many researchers in this field, Elizabeth Rauscher-Bise tends to be open about her work, has demonstrated the effects many times in quasi-public forums, and claims to experiment only on fully informed people.

Many years ago during one memorable demonstration in California, she turned a specific brain wave on all students in the left-side of her auditorium, whereupon their teeth started chattering collectively and uncontrollably.

When the unaffected students on the right-side of the auditorium suggested this might be some sort of trick, Elizabeth Rauscher-Bise calmly turned the specific brain wave on them instead.

The right-side now suffered exactly the same fate, watched by the stunned, but no longer affected students on the left-side.


If I’d have read this stuff back in 2003, when researcher Joe Viallis was first reporting it, I would have dismissed it out of hand.

Now, after everything that’s happened over the last two years with ‘Covid 19’, and everything that we’ve learnt about what really happened at Meron, it’s sadly making perfect sense.


You can see Elizabeth Rauscher-Bise’s own website HERE.

In the ‘About’ section, it shows she was working on a number of projects with US Naval Intelligence, amongst others. Here’s a few that particularly caught my eye:

  1. Psychology Foundation, Inc. New York, NY 10010, E.A. Rauscher, P.I. – Principle Investigator, WVC – 2V2 (25056) R.R. Coley Administrator 1976, 1977, 1981, Study of fields and remote sensing systems.
  2. Olive Garvy Foundation for Health, Topeka, KS 1992, contract monitor Dr. Hugh Reordin, Dr. E.A. Rauscher, Ph.D., P.I. complementary, less invasive medicine, FDA studies and theoretical analysis.
  3. Naval Ocean Systems Command, San Diego, CA 92152 1992-1993, Dr. W. Bruner, N66001-91-M-2621 contract monitor, E.A. Rauscher, P.I. and W.L. Van Bise, P.I. Data acquisition and analysis of ionospheric resonance phenomena from natural and man made sources with multistation deployed ground space stations.
  4. Holms Foundation of the Los Angeles Health Institute (501-c3), 1979, 1980, QC – 4128 carried through San Francisco State University, San Francisco, CA Study of field effects on bacteria motility and growth, E.A. Rauscher, Ph.D. P.I. and B. Rubik, P.I.

There’s a whole bunch more, too.


Number 3 is connected to HAARP – the Highfrequency Active Auroral Research Program, which needs a whole blog post just for itself.

Ask yourself how the exact same researcher who is working on HAARP is also working on ‘remote sensing’, electromagnetic fields, and how they effect bacteria, PLUS some stuff about ‘less invasive medicine’ and the FDA – and you’ll start to see what most of us still aren’t grasping:

It’s all connected.


In case you still think this is all science fiction, here’s a screenshot of some of Elizabeth Rauscher’s patents:


Here’s a screenshot of that last one, from HERE, dated 2012:



Among other things, it is contemplated that the signals can be used to create a subjective reduction in pain, mood improvement, to treat osteoporosis, to enhance cardiac function, and/ or affect the hypothalamic pituitary axis.


Viallis goes on to state that smaller versions of the ‘Crimson Mist’ technology – which we may as well just call ‘Active Denial’, because that’s what it really is – were used in Baghdad to create the scenes of insane crowds looting the Baghdad Museum, and also looting hospitals.

Because that’s what poor, sick people who are being bombed, killed and maimed by US army do.

They destroy the hospitals that are trying to save their lives. Of course they do.


I’m trying to find the live clip of the Baghdad Museum being looted, described below, but it seems to have been scrubbed off the net. Always a good sign you are on the right track:

“The video shows two soldiers gesticulating to the crowd, urging them to go in and help themselves, thereby clearly identifying the target “Rwanda-style”.

Then it starts to get really interesting! The two soldiers rapidly withdraw, leaving the Iraqis standing leaderless outside the open doors, and then CLICK, just like flicking a light switch, the entire crowd goes nuts absolutely simultaneously, which never happens in real life.

In the real world there is always a leader visibly stirring up the crowd and preparing them for action, but not outside the Baghdad Museum. One second these folk are dull hungry Iraqis, next second they are instant uncontrollable maniacs streaming in though the museum doors.”


The point is this: human health is electro-magnetic.

Our brains and bodies are controlled by electro-magnetic impulses.

And our governments and military have been perfecting the tech to enable them to ‘hijack’ these electro-magnetic impulses from the outside, for decades.

That’s the bad news.

But there is also some good news.


A couple of days ago, I got an email from a lady in the US who has been working with soundwave frequencies to ‘tune’ illnesses out of the body.

Ever since my strange experience with tuning forks at Rabbenu’s Tziyun in Uman, last Rosh Hashana, I’ve had the strong feeling that tuning forks – soundwaves – somehow have a big part to play in resolving the difficult times we are living through.

Long story short, I had a chat with her yesterday, and she asked me to help her try to track down the ‘frequency’ that graphene oxide responds to.

Because if we can find the frequency that is used to ‘excite’ it, then there is at least a chance that we can also find the frequency that will neutralise it, and hopefully destroy it, too.


So, let me put that out there, as a research project for readers:

Can we figure out the  ‘frequency’ graphene oxide resonates too?

We know it’s in the ‘extremely low’, ‘Active Denial / 5—G’ range.

But if we can pin this down, we can possibly really start to do something concrete, to derail what’s going on here.


As part of our discussion, she sent me a video about torus energy fields, and I will BH come back to this topic in more detail, soon.

But for now, let me share this snippet from our conversation, and then try to ‘bring it back’ to other ideas we’ve been floating for the last few  months.

She told me that there are three notes involved, any time you want to be able to ‘tune’ a particular frequency for the human body. These involve a whole tone, a fractal, and a binaural.

I’m not musical, so I don’t really understand what this means, but I’m starting to research it more.


She also told me that the human body is effectively a musical instrument, that can be tuned with soundwaves.

She is hoping to find the frequency that will ‘tune’ this GO to God, to goodness, to health and healing.


After I hung up, my husband told me that what she was saying reminded him of the Great Shofar, that will be blown to announce Moshiach and geula.

That also has three ‘notes’.

I got goosebumps when he said that, because suddenly I realised just how very easily all this could turn around, in an instant, for the good.

When that Great Shofar blows, 5 billion people full of graphene oxide will suddenly make complete, total teshuva, and come back to God – just like that.


And the last thing to say, for now, is that recognising and working on our bad middot has never been more urgent.

I will try to stand this up more as I go along, but it seems to me that the ‘Crimson Mist / Active Denial’ tech can’t create something from nothing, when it comes to manipulating emotions – at least, in a ‘crowd’ setting.

It can only amplify something that is already there.

So, get to work on trying to uproot anger, arrogance, jealousy, egocentric selfishness, hatred, rage, resentment, grudge-bearing, self-righteousness – all that stuff that falls under the rubriquet of hakpada.

This tech can amplify the vibe of ‘hakpada’, and literally turn people into homicidal, destructive maniacs.


Remember what our Sages teach:

‘Demons’ control an angry person


Here’s one of Rav Berland’s prayers to help subdue anger.

And HERE is where you can get Rav Berland’s Kuntres to Defuse Anger, in English and Hebrew, that just helps make the feelings of anger disappear like magic, when you read it.

You can also buy a hardcopy for $1, HERE.


We all have our work cut out for us, ‘injected’ or not.


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As things continue to get more and more murky, I just wanted to stress something.

It’s never been more important to keep talking to God about everything, and to keep running things past God in hitbodedut.

Don’t take anything on anyone else’s say-so – not even mine!

While I’m doing my best to sift the lies from the truth, I’m also just a fallible human at the end of the day, and the confusion sometimes feels so deep, and and so thick, it can be overwhelming.

I am having the feeling at the moment that I kind of need to take a step back from discussing what’s in the shots, specifically, and what they may or may not be doing to people, specifically, until I get more clarity on the subject.

For the record, there are many things about some of the key players on all sides of this equation that are sending my BS radar off – not least, their very strong, frequently professed faith in a false idol.

If someone can continue to believe in Yoshki, what else are they getting ‘wrong’ in this whole discussion?

Clearly, their inner sense is not 100% on beam…. which doesn’t mean everything they suggest and put out is wrong.

But, it does mean, at least for me, that I’m going to take a bit of time to really ask God about what is going on here, and wait for more clues to show up, without just ‘reacting’ to stuff all the time.


Right from the start, Rav Berland has been saying that anyone who has been coerced into getting the shots has nothing to fear.

I am still struggling, honestly, to understand what this really means.

But, once I found out that the 36 year old doctor who died two weeks ago from an ‘unexpected stroke’ was totally unvaccinated, that has given me a pause for thought that something more is going on here, than just ‘the shots the shots the shots’.

I’m not saying there is nothing in the shots – the shots are clearly bad.

But, after reading a bit more on the Joachim Bartoll site, where he brought up the view that it would be very hard to manufacture this much nanotech, to put into literally billions and billions of doses, so quickly – that is also giving me a pause for thought.

Read more HERE, this is a snippet:

Let’s humor them and say that they can manufacture one vial per second (instead of just one dose) amongst them, around the clock, 24 hours a day, 7 days a week, all year round.

Well, there are 86,400 seconds in a day, so that would be 86,400 vials a day. They claim they have administrated 7.94 billion doses, not to mention the continuous reports of wasted vaccines, counties throwing away millions of vials. There are 5 to 6 doses in each vial, and considering millions of vials have been thrown away in most countries, we can easily round it off to 10 billion doses manufactured. That is 1,666,666,666 to 2 billion vials.

To manufacture 1,666,666,666 vials at a rate of one vial a second would take…
1,666,666,666 / 86,400 = 19,290 days, or (19,290 / 365) 58.8 years.


We’re back to the idea of batch numbers, and that a high percentage of the covid shots were actually saline.

Clearly, the more shots you take, the greater your risk of being injected with a killer batch…

And also, we know the graphene oxide is going into so many things right now, regardless of whether it’s actually GO nanotech, or just carbon tubes and other raw material that the ‘nanorobots’ or whatever they are, actually turn into circuitry and other nanodevices.


BUT – it seems to me there is something way, way bigger going on that just ‘the shots the shots the shots’.

If our health is electromagnetic, then CERN and the 5….G could well be a much bigger determinator of health than whether we took ‘Covid shots’ – especially if the majority of the shots are saline.

I am just thinking out loud here.

And another thing I’m thinking is that THE SOUL IS BIGGER THAN ALL OF THIS.

And that ‘the other side’ excels in psy-ops that get us barking up the wrong trees, and dissipating our energies on pointless discussions with narcissist trolls, instead of knuckling down, and doing the real inner work of birur.


So, I am planning to take a few days off again, to just mull things over, and to wait for Hashem to send me some insights, or not, in to what is really going on, and what He really wants from me.

It feels like we are approaching ‘critical mass’, somehow, in this process of birur.

And I don’t want to be directing any one in unhelpful directions, even accidentally.

So, let’s end this post as it began:

Do your own hitbodedut regularly, every single day, and keep asking God to show you the truth.

And if you are given a choice between ‘doom and gloom’ or ‘hope’ – pick hope every time!

Because God can really do anything!

And there are still so many things that we don’t know, about what is really going on at the moment.



PS: I just read this on the site, and it gave me a lot of chizzuk:

The Rav seems to be saying that the rule of the evildoers is very nearly over.


May that become obvious, very very soon.



I had some push back on email having a go at the Rav, and me, for promoting ‘false hope’ for the jabbed.

Just to clarify this, the Rav’s comments were never publicised, and were made privately to two people I personally know, on seperate occasions, who asked him for a bracha, because they were in a situation where they couldn’t avoid having the shot, not least because they were in the process of making aliya.

Clearly, for people like this, who are following the Rav, paying regular pidyonot, doing tikkun haklalis, trying to work on their bad middot, and to see God’s hand behind everything….

His promise holds good.

Which by itself, is still quite puzzling for me.

But there are no ‘guarantees’ generally – of course not!

Because there are ‘no guarantees’ about anything, not even that you could be totally unvaccinated, healthy and athletic – and still drop dead from a stroke at 36.


As for ‘false hope’ – there is no such thing.

‘False hope’ posits the idea that all outcomes are totally fixed, and can never be changed by teshuva, prayer and tzedeka.

I know a lot of apparently ‘religious’ people hold that it’s ok to go around depressing and demoralising everyone, because what can we do anyway?!?!? – but that’s not an authentic approach to our difficulties and trials and problems.

King David taught that even if a sharp sword was held to his throat, he would still call out to Hashem.

Hashem’s yeshuout occur in the blink of an eye, don’t forget that.

And as we mentioned in a previous post, the POINT is spiritual – what happens to the soul, not so much what happens to the body.

If an ‘unvaccinated’ atheist lives to 100 in good health, and a ‘vaccinated’ person with emuna dies young, but still close to Hashem, and still making the best use of every second of the life they have to serve Hashem, develop real emuna and do as many mitzvot as possible – clearly, that last guy has the best deal.

Don’t forget that, either.


Animals and creatures are ‘walking in circles’ all over the world at the moment.

On the previous post, I put up some videos showing that, including an old video from 2015 showing ants suddenly ‘marching in a circle’ around an iPhone, as soon as it started ringing.

Then a few readers sent me links to this video, an interview with one R Yosef Biton, apparently a well-known kabbalist in Israel:


For the record, I personally don’t know anything about R’ Yosef Biton.

So, as always, we proceed with caution and we take everything back to hitbodedut and Hashem, asking for clarity.

Another reader sent me a rough translation of the ‘meat’ of what’s going on in this interview, which I’m bringing below, verbatim:


M. from Australia, asked me to post this summary of the YouTube called: תעלומה: חיות מסתובבות במעגלים כבר 14 ימים ברציפות 😵 המקובל הרב יוסף ביטון בחשיפה מרעישה מהקבלה

Title Translation: *Mystery Animals have been walking in circles for 14 days in a row.*

I can’t read Hebrew so I put the title in Google Translate. The summary below is from Michael… This Shiur is about the Kabbalah on the animals circling around for many days.

There is a phenomenon that many animals, all different species have been going round in circles; Sheep in CHINA, have made the headlines, but many other species are involved.


The Ari Hakadosh says in his book Gilgul HaRuchot that after the destruction of the 2nd Beit Hamikdash the holiness went into the klipot and prophecy ceased.

Animals and SHOTIM i.e. simple people, e.g. autistics, and young children can obtain prophecy.

The animals are controlled by ministering angels who can pass messages to them. All the animals are capable. The fact that animals can sense earthquakes before they happen is not only a natural phenomenon.


Kabbalah describes that there is the world of circles (Igulim) and the world of straightness (Yosher).

This is described in Etz Hachayyim from the Ari via rabbi Chaim Vital. We are in the ikvota D’Mashiach, the foot steps of the Mashiach, approaching the year 6000 , this is Yosher (straight); this continues up to the day when Mashiach will come and we will go into Shabbat.

Rabbi Nachman says in Torah 7 this is Egla (circular), Shabbat is circular; this will occur when the Jewish people will return from exile and sing at Har Amana in Israel, which is the mountain of faith – L.M. Torah 7.

Circles are completion, unity, everyone is equal, men and women, there is no yatzer hara as we will go into Shabbat.

There is no free will in this circular state.

This circular concept is similar to “all of AM Yisrael with all Humanity” serving Hashem shoulder to Shoulder the prophecy in Zephania which Rabainu mentions in Likutei Moharan (L.M.).


Rabbi Biton reads Rabbi Nachman’s message the meaning of : “Ad shetichleh Prutha ma Hakis,” until there are no coins in the pocket – in the Talmud. [See Sanhedrin 97a, talking about the ‘signs’ that geula is imminent.]

This means the klipa that makes everyone define miracles as part of nature will no longer define them as part of nature – THE KLIPA will be broken/destroyed.

We will see there is no nature – only Hashem — Ayn Od Milvado.


This Shiur of Rabbi Yosef Biton has the approval of Rabbi Shalom Arush who says he is full of joy by this omen we are nearing the Geulah.

Please bear in mind my translation is a very rough, brief summary, and cannot do this magnificent Shiur which encompasses information from the Shaar Haruchot and Etz Chaim from the Ari Hakadosh, Rabbi Tzaddok of Lublin and Rabbanu, true Justice!!



Thanks to M. for taking the time to translate it, and thanks to H. for sending me the translation.

Let’s bring a bit of this awesome lesson by Rabbenu, from Likutey Moharan I:7.

t has EXACTLY to do with so much of the stuff I’ve been writing here on the blog recently, in connection to the Covid shots, and God being in control of everything, and able to turn everything around ‘in the blink of an eye’.


Know, that the main cause of exile is only because of a lack of faith (emuna).

As the verse says, “Come, look from the top of AMaNaH” (Song of Songs 4:8), and EMuNaH is an aspect of prayer, as in, “His hands were emunah” (Exodus 17:12, which the targum translates as ‘stretched out in prayer’.

This is an aspect of supernatural miracles, for prayer is supernatural.

This is because nature may dictate one way, but prayer changes nature.

This is a miracle, and for this, emuna is needed, that a person believes that there is a Creator Who can change anything at His Will…


Now, Egypt is contraposed [or ‘the opposite’] of NiSiM (miracles)….and all the exiles are called  ‘MitZRayim’ – Egypt – because they MeytZeyR (oppress) the Jewish people.

Thus, when a person causes an imperfection in emuna / prayer / the Land of Israel, one descends into exile.


This is what is meant by, “Moshiach ben David won’t come, until the perutah (coin) is gone from the kis (pocket)” (Sanhedrin 97a.

That is, there will no longer be heretics who lack faith in miracles, and who kisah (cover up) all miracles beneath the laws of nature….


Miracles are mainly in the Land of Israel, since ‘The Land of Israel is quenched first.”…


This then, is the meaning of, “Until the perutah is gone from the kis” – for there are people who kisah (cover up) all types of miracles…by covering them with the laws of nature.

When this phenomenon will be gone and emuna will increase in the world, then the Moshiach will come.

For the redemption is mainly dependent on this, as the verse says:

“Come, look from the top of amanah / emunah.”



Simply, wow.

Everything that is happening now, even all the nanotech, CERN, active denial lamp-posts, ‘smart city’ surveillance, on and on and on and on….

Everything can be turned around by God in an instant.

And Rabbenu  is teaching us here that the very ikker, the very essence of getting out of ‘exile’ is simply to look at everything that’s going on around us ‘from the top of amanah / emunah’ – to look down on all this with some emuna that God is actually running the world.


Even if people call you delusional.


There’s lots more to say here, about how you actually acquire this type of ’emuna’.

Rabbenu continues in that lesson, I:7:

It’s impossible to reach emunah, without truth….

And it’s impossible to reach truth, except by coming close to the tzaddikim and following their counsel…

Which kind of explains a lot, doesn’t it?


Let me just end with an update on CERN.

Apparently, they turned it off for a few days last week, but now it’s been turned back on again, and is operating at full tilt again.

It’s meant to be turned off again today, but who knows?

It’s interesting, because I got one of my weird, strong headaches again on Shabbat afternoon, that is still lingering today, although much less.

I thought CERN had been ‘dialled down’… but now it seems the headache came on when they dialled CERN back up to the max.

How do we cope with all this stuff?

By working on our emuna, continuing the pursuit of truth – and getting close to true tzaddikim, like Rebbe Nachman of Breslov and Rav Eliezer Berland.


The next post, I want to show you how we’ve all been brainwashed into thinking that ‘modern science’ and ‘modern medicine’ is totally free of pagan influence and beliefs, and totally objective and ‘clean’ spiritually.

That’s hogwash!

Science and medicine have always been inextricably linked with idolatry, all throughout history.

And don’t think that things are different today, because they aren’t.

Just it all got covered up with the labels of ‘laws of nature’ and ‘atheism’.

What is ‘atheism’, except a belief system that is radically ‘anti’ God?

What is ‘satanism’?

Also a belief system that is radically ‘anti’ God.

More on all this in the next post, I think you’ll really enjoy it…

(Unless you’re my pet bot / troll.)


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So, this will probably be one of my stranger posts.

(There’s a lot of contenders for that title tho….)

Let’s just jump in, shall we?


First, go back and read this post from last year, which I’ve put back up:


And now, let me tell you a weird story that happened in Uman two years ago, and which I didn’t mention before because I didn’t want my readers to think I’m ‘delusional‘.

But hey, too  late for that now, so let’s plough right on!

So, it was the Rosh Hashanah of 5781, when the State of Israel decided no Jews should go to Uman ‘because of Covid’.

Zelensky’s Ukraine closed the gates three weeks before Uman, and my husband the lawyer read the small print on the announcement and saw the exact date the ‘no entry’ would begin. My whole family booked tickets to get there before the close off date.

And then the Ukrainian government lied and said the date had been moved forward 24 hours, while we were in transit to Ukraine from Portugal.

My husband had a seperate flight to Borispol airport, but me and my girls came in, all by ourselves, to Juliani airport – and basically got abused and mentally and emotionally tortured for hours by the Ukrainians, until some miracle happened and we were released 10 minutes before shabbat.

They put us on a bus in the middle of the airfield, with 10 Ukrainian soldiers, and then had a doberman circling the bus so we wouldn’t ‘try to escape’.

Amongst other things.


I got out of that by clapping solidly for an hour.

As per Rabbenu’s advice, on how to sweeten massive harsh judgements.

(I’m ‘delusional’, remember?)


So, we’re in Uman for three weeks, and it was VERY intense.

One day in my hitbodedut, I started thinking about tuning forks. And then, I started thinking about the vibration of music. And then, I got the urge to research it more, and I came across something like this article, which was written back in 2007.


In 1939 Joseph Geobels [sic]( propaganda Minister for nazi Germany)was the first to push for all music world wide to be played and listened to at A-440hz.
He failed.
But in 1953 the Elite had a meeting in london to finally IMPOSE the a-440hz Standard Concert Pitch. And Succeeded.
Prof Dussaut of the Paris conservatory had a poll of over 20,000 of the head classical musicians of france and they all voted unanimously for A-432hz but the Elite does not care what others think now do they?

Chortle chortle!

Crazy conspiracy theorists!


If you go to that link and scroll down, you’ll find a lot of interesting discussions about the difference between 432 hz and 440 hz, and how they may or may not affect human beings, physiologically, emotionally and spiritually.

We won’t get into that right now, but BH, I’d like to cover it in more detail, in a future post.

So, I’m reading how the Nazis tried to ‘change the pitch’ of music…. And how that actually happened in 1953.

And then, I had the crazy idea to go and find a tuning fork somewhere in Uman, so I could change the pitch back.

How was I going to do that?

By banging the tuning fork 18 times off the corner of Rabbenu’s grave, and letting the tzaddik do his his thing.

(Remember, I’m delusional…)


Even for me, this was a stretch.

But I figured I may as well give it a shot, as things were plenty strange enough already, that year in Uman.

I told my husband I had to find a tuning fork, I told our taxi driver, Sergei, and he drove us around looking for one.

There were two music shops in town. One of them told us that ‘some one like you’ (i.e. a Jew) had just come in and bought their last tuning fork. Which was weird all by itself.

(What?! There are two Jews in Uman trying to buy a tuning fork on the exact same day?!)

But the second one still had a tuning fork – and I bought it for the experiment.


Thank God, it was such a quiet year, that I could find a few minutes when no-one was in there.

I banged the tuning fork off the kever 18 times – then I scarpered.

And since then, I have been thinking that somehow, sound, vibration, frequency, it’s got to be the answer to all this.

Because nothing happens at Rabbenu stam.

And especially not that year, at that time.


So, I came home from Uman, and I got my first delivery of tuning forks from the Biofieldtuning store, HERE.

If you’re interested, you can go and read more about the hard science behind ‘sound affecting humans’ on that site HERE.

Here is a screenshot:


I am still working on trying to figure out more ‘specifics’, as it all relates to disabling the nanotech in the shots, but over the last 2 1/2 years, I’ve been using the forks on myself and my family – and in lots of ways, they get things to move.

Across all three levels of body, mind and soul.

BH, I will write more another time, but the Biofieldtuning site – and McCusick’s two books – are a great place to start learning more for yourself.

But the best way to learn is to do the experiment yourself.

So, to that end, here are some of the free offerings on the Biofieldtuning site, which you can experiment with yourself, and see what you think:

Against viruses (including so-called ‘long covid’:

To release pain:

Hearing issues and tinnitus:

Improving resiliency:

Overcoming overwhelm:


These are all free offerings.

Create an account, download them, and see what you think.
(I’m happy to have your feedback, pro and con, in the comments section…)
I will come back to this again, at some point soon, God willing.
In the meantime, as part of the ongoing process of trying to come up with ‘solutions’ for how to heal from all this GO nanotech and DNA origami clot-and-heartattack-inducing stuff in the shots, a reader also sent me something about:

The Wim Hof Method.

This isn’t shmirat eynayim friendly, but it sums up a lot about Wim Hof, and his cold exposure and breathing method of controlling the body’s autonomic nervous system:


First, the good news:
My correspondent, who suffers from a severe, debilitating illness (that she thinks was the first round of what got tried again, with ‘Covid 19’) initially saw some almost miraculous health results, very fast, when she started following the Wim Hof Method.
Like, oedema disappearing over night…. feeling returning to feet that had been 70% numb for a very long time…
Now, the bad news:

Five weeks on, they started experiencing heart arrthymias and chest pain…. and so did two other people who started doing the Wim Hof Method with them, around the same time.


At this point, I’d only been doing ‘Wim Hof’ for two weeks with my husband.

Again, you can go read up about it yourself, do your own research, be aware that he says don’t do it if you are epileptic, pregnant of have cardiac issues.

My experience of the breathing was that it helped me to identify the ‘inner voice’ that keeps telling me to give and stop, and that I ‘just can’t do it’.

Whatever ‘it’ is.

But otherwise, I didn’t like the breathing part very much at all.

But I TOTALLY LOVED the slow introduction to cold showers, and the whole idea that:


So, I ditched the breathing, but I’m carrying on ‘training’ with the cold showers, and I can now do a minute.

Cold showers are very good for improving the body’s circulation, and after the whole thing with my husband’s foot, I’d come to the conclusion that was something to try, anyway.

And it’s probably also helpful, for trying to get ‘clogged’ blood to start to circulate better again, through a ‘clogged’ body.


You can literally die from cold exposure if you try and jump into ice baths without any real practise or slow lead up to gradually getting accustomed to cold.


I was pondering why the whole ‘breathing’ thing bothers me, and what I got to is this:

The Eastern religions, and especially idolatrous ‘yoga’, have hijacked breathing, and teach their adepts that ‘breathing is in our control’.

In Hebrew, breathing – neshima – is very close to soul – neshama.

We are essentially a lump of clay, that had the life, the breath, the neshama blow into us, by Hashem.

Breath is God’s domain, not ours.

I have come to the conclusion that while it’s totally fine to ‘breathe deeply’ a few times, or in a focussed way, as soon as I start to tell myself ‘I’m in control of the breath’ – that’s where I’m going to hit problems.

God is in charge of the breath.

And the best way to benefit from breathing, is to ask God to ‘breathe me’ properly and appropriately, especially when I’m doing things like hitbodedut.

This is a work in progress, and my view might develop, but so far, this is where I’ve got to.


As always, these are just my personal musings, and some suggestions for things you may or may not find interesting to explore more yourself.

Human health works across all three levels of body, mind and soul.

There is no ‘one thing’ you can do that will heal everything, but the closest you get to a ‘magic bullet’ is doing hitbodedut for an hour a day, because then in your hitbodedut, God will tell you what else you need to do, or try or change.

Do your own research, think for yourself.

And also be aware that there are literally thousands, maybe tens of thousands, of people out there, like me, looking for solutions to how we can heal from all the damage being done by EMF, Covid 19 nanotech and CERN.

We will get to those answers together, with God’s help, at the right time in this process of teshuva and geula.

And whatever they are, they are probably going to be very surprising, so keep an open mind.



I decided to stick some of the more useful old posts back up, periodically, including this one:

I spoke to my friend, who a couple of days ago lost a 40 year old friend who ‘died suddenly’.

On Shabbat, the 40 year old said she felt unwell, and went to lie down.

She never got up again.

She was perfectly healthy.

I know it’s hard, but we have to come out of denial.

Watch this:


(Not shmirat eynayim friendly, but also not too bad…)

But also don’t fall into despair, because that’s how evil wins!

God has a plan here.

And our teshuva and prayers is a huge part of it, going forward.



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I got the following response to the last post, via email.

I told my correspondent I’d answer his points on the blog, as all this is useful to move the discussion forward, about what God really expects from us, at this stage.


At this stage.


First, here’s the email:

You are also being delusional…

1) “If you still believe that the shots are helpful… etc… then you are on your own and will probably have to face the consequences of your decisions…” etc
but if not… if you’ve finally woken up after 4 shots you will be saved… are you playing G-d here…?
2) On the other hand if “you don’t believe in the power of prayer to reverse ingesting poison and in the Ein Od Milvado…” then you are also going to end up lost…? even if you never took a shot… really?
3) You’re grasping at straws because you’re desperate for a way out for millions of people who chose wrongly... so now you are on to a new theory that since nanoparticles and rdna molecules are too tiny to have regular laws of nature operating them physiologically so that means they can be reversed on command by our praying them away but if they were large enough to have laws of nature associated with them then we’d be in trouble… do I have that right…?
and finally…
4) “Hashem has been taking people in and out for a long time now so that is not anything to worry about…”
oh yeah? when was the last time He took 20mil men women and children out in the space of just a couple of years…? hint: it wasn’t anytime in recent memory… I think that would have been ww2 and called the holocaust…
20mil plus and counting… why didn’t any of them get a chance to be saved by prayer but the next 20mil will be because you say it has to be so according to your spiritual calculations…?

There’s a fundamental ‘issue’ here, which is that most of us don’t relate to this physical world as a place where the soul gets fixed, and as a ‘corridor’ we have to pass through, to get to wherever we’re heading in the eternal Upstairs.

We are down here to fix our souls, and serve Hashem to the best of our ability.

Full stop.


Once we have completed that job, in whichever way the job needs to be completed, we have no more ‘need’ to be down here.

That’s why small, totally innocent children can suffer terribly, and even die – and God is still only and ever good.

If the whole discussion solely revolved around ‘this world’ – you can’t make that statement. At all.

This world resembles ‘hell’ way more than it resembles ‘heaven’ for most people.

And that’s also understandable, because ‘gehinnom’ only fixes the sins that occur between man and God.

The sins that occur between man and his fellow man – that we didn’t make sincere teshuva for – are fixed by us returning to this lowly world, where this time, WE’ll be the one being abused, or hurt, or taken for a ride, or ripped off….


Because there are spiritual debts that we need to ‘pay down’ from a previous life, and that we all 100% signed up for, when we agreed to come down here again to try and go through that whole, difficult process of fixing our souls, for eternity.


So, when people start screaming ‘how could a holocaust happen?!?!?!’

Or, ‘where was God, when six million people died!?!?!?’

Or, ‘where is God today, how can He let all this bad happen in the world?!?!?!?’

I totally get where they are coming from.


And this is a huge ‘BUT’ – this lowly world is where the soul gets fixed. And where the soul gets tested. And sometimes, where the soul gets tortured, hurt and even killed.

The point – for each ‘soul’ – is not so much what’s happening to them, but what happens next. What happens as a result of that test. Do they go closer to Hashem, or go further away? Do they fix whatever it was they needed to fix, spiritually, or not?

That’s the whole point here, the whole ikker.


Remember Elazar ben Dordaya?

If not, take a look at the Gemara, Tractate Avoda Zara, 17a. Here’s a brief snippet, translated from HERE:

They said about R. Elazar ben Dordaya that he did not leave any harlot in the world that he wasn’t with. One time, he heard that there was one harlot in a town by the shore, and she would take a pouch of dinarim as her payment. He traveled to her, crossing seven rivers. When they were together, she passed gas, and said “Just like this gas will not return to its place, so too is Elazar ben Dordaya, who they will never accept him in teshuva.


Elazar ben Dordaya was so upset by the harlot’s words, he went on a serious journey of teshuva.

His teshuva was so sincere, so intense, he actually died immediately afterwards.
And then a heavenly voice came out, which said that not only had Elazar ben Dordaya been accepted in Shemayim, he’d also been accorded the title of ‘Rabbi’.

If you look at this story from the eyes of ‘this world’ – what a bust!

I mean, the guy is dead…

If you look at the story from the point of view of him doing what he actually came down here to do, i.e. to rectify his soul – what a success!

Rebbe (Yehuda HaNasi) said about him that he attained his share in the world-to-come in a moment.
While others toil a whole lifetime to achieve it.

This whole thing with the Covid shots, with people getting ill, dropping dead, the whole transhumanism agenda – it’s all just a test designed by God, to fix our souls.

The people who understand that, and who make the sincere teshuva required, and who come closer to God, in the midst of all this tremendous suffering and uncertainty, at least by the end of the process – those people pass the test with flying colours. It’s a great outcome, spiritually.

Even if they end up dead.

And those people who go the other way?

Even if they are ‘unvaccinated’, and living on some farmstead milking their own goats in an earth-bermed fortress, if they are going further away from God, instead of coming closer – then it’s a really bad outcome for them, spiritually, even if they live to 120.


Of course, God wants us to have both.

Olam hazeh and olam habah.

But sometimes, it seems that’s not possible.

And where a choice is required, it seems obvious that the eternal spiritual outcome has to take precedence, even if it looks so horrible and bad, from where we sit down here.

Personally, I believe that teshuva, prayer and charity CAN sweeten everything.

There’s precedents for that from our history – look what happened at Purim time, when Hashem turned the mountain over our heads, and the whole nation responded with three days of fasting and massive teshuva.

I.e., they followed the instructions of the true Tzaddikim, Esther and Mordechai, for how to try to ‘sweeten’ the awful decrees of Haman.

There is nothing new under the sun.


So, it boils down to our free choice.

Each person can choose to come back to Hashem at any point in this process, however many shots they took, however many difficulties they are experiencing.

And if they choose that, then spiritually, eternally, it’s a positive outcome.

And the opposite is also true.

We have to take responsibility for ourselves, and stop trying to guess God’s cheshbonot with other people.

Of course pray for others!

Of course, do whatever we can to spread light in the world, to counter the darkness, and to serve Hashem with everything we’ve got, which includes fulfilling whatever responsibilities we have to others, and to build God’s world to the best of our ability, instead of destroying it.

But we can’t live other people’s lives for them.

And we can’t pretend to know better than God, why apparently ‘bad’ things have to happen to apparently ‘good’ people.


Each  person has to do their own work.

Each  person has to take responsibility for themselves – because ultimately, the only soul we can ‘fix’ down here is our own.

And as long as this process is bringing us closer to doing that, in whatever way that’s required, it’s going to be a positive outcome, whatever happens ‘down here’.


I know people don’t like to hear this.

And I apologise if I’m stating things a bit too bluntly for ‘comfort’.

But God is in charge here, and God is only and ever good.

And our job is to recognise that, and understand that our best bet of getting out of difficulties in this world, is to put God firmly in the picture, work on our own lack of emuna and bad middot – and follow the instructions of the True Tzaddikim.

And we may still end up dead, at the end of all that.

But at least, we’ll have ‘olam haba’.

And that’s the whole point of being down here.


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If you’ve never heard of the ‘double slit’ experiment, first read this:

Few science experiments are as strange and compelling as the double-slit experiment. 

Few experiments, if any, in modern physics are capable of conveying such a simple idea—that light and matter can act as both waves and discrete particles depending on whether they are being observed—but which is nonetheless one of the great mysteries of quantum mechanics.


You can read the full article HERE, or if you prefer, watch Jim Al-Khalil explaining it very clearly, below:


Here’s the bottom line:

The outcome of the experiment depends on the viewer.

Or, to put this another way:

What people think and believe, mamash affects physical reality.


This isn’t ‘wishful thinking’, or ‘losing touch with reality’ – it’s quantum physics.


Yesterday, a bunch of readers showed up to join me for a Zoom call, where I probably spoke too fast, and tried to cover way too many things.


But despite all that, it was still a very positive experience, because one of the things we discussed in detail was this idea that:

What we believe, our mindset, our fundamental attitude – it’s the key to changing the reality we currently find ourselves in.

At the very least, for ourselves.


If we believe that God is running the world, Ein Od Milvado, everything can and will turn around for the best (at least for ourselves….)

Then that’s the reality we ultimately create, although for sure this process is going to contain a huge amount of peaks and troughs, and it’s not a ‘linear’ thing

And the opposite is also true.


All the graphene oxide and programmable DNA Origami in the Covid shots is so small, sub-atomic, that it’s operating according to ‘rules’ that are nothing like the standard rules of the physical world.

Again, this isn’t conjecture and wishful thinking, it’s science.

This snippet comes from HERE:

The laws of classical physics become completely undone at the atomic and subatomic level. What is so exciting about this, is that the standard physical limitations which apply to everyday life cease to exist. The realm of what is possible, therefore, becomes entirely different.


Dr David Nixon has been putting more drops of the Covid shots under glass, and then videoing them in slow-mo for hours, which he then speeds up.

His latest interview can be seen HERE, and if you’re at all interested in what is really in these Covid shots, and how it’s operating, I highly recommend you take a look.


He’s identifying luminous ‘points’ that turn off and on, that correlate with the idea of one of my smart readers that the programmable DNA Origami in these shots (that we know are a fact, they were invented by Ido Bachelet and George Church, amongst others) – are based on bioluminescent archaea.

(Skip that discussion, if you’re not scientifically minded – but if you ARE scientifically minded, feel free to  join in.)


The point is, Dr Nixon’s research is showing the ‘supernatural’ abilities of the nanotech in the shots to create and destroy structures in the human body, and to operate in some very weird, and amazing ways.

To the point where researchers are starting to explore the idea that the stuff in the shots is operating in the ‘quantum engineering’ realm.

Now, go back and read this:

The laws of classical physics become completely undone at the atomic and subatomic level. What is so exciting about this, is that the standard physical limitations which apply to everyday life cease to exist. The realm of what is possible, therefore, becomes entirely different.

Or to put this a different way:


And what we believe about what’s in these shots, and how it operates, and whether we’re still dealing with Ein Od Milvado, or not, is the decisive factor about the real damage all this evil nanotech can actually do.

At least, to ourselves.


Which brings me on to the next point:

Each person has to take responsibility for themselves.

And there are no short-cuts.

If someone is still blindly believing this is a helpful ‘vaccine’, still blindly believing the government is our friend, the media never lies, doctors are only good etc….

They will have to abide by the consequences of their own beliefs.

And it probably won’t be pretty.


On the ‘alt’ side of this equation, if a person scares themselves to death think there is no way back from this ‘poison’, that the 5…G and CERN can take us all out and kill us any time they want at the press of a button, that humanity is totally and utterly doomed….

Then that is also a ‘belief system’ that they will have to deal with the consequences of.



I believe very strongly that God runs the world.

Ein Od Milvado.

And that what I say, do and believe is the biggest determinator of ‘what happens next’ in my own personal world – albeit if God decides that my time is up, then my time is up!

God was bringing people back to the world of the soul long before the vaxx showed up. He doesn’t need Pfizer or Bill Gates to help Him do that job.


Tachlis, here are some more links to some of the things we discussed, very briefly, in the class yesterday, for readers to start their own process of discovery, and to figure out more of what might ‘work for them’, to stay healthy and sane in the meantime.


Su Jok Seed Therapy – the lentils thing.

HERE‘s an interesting paper on how they used seed therapy to significantly reduce patients’ anxiety around Covid 19.

HERE’s a basic website that explains how you can use different seeds for different ailments.


Miracle Mineral Solution

Helped me tremendously to stop feeling totally exhausted, and to get rid of the ‘head fog’ issues I had before Pesach.

Read more about that HERE.


Calcium Bentonite Clay

I’m still experimenting with this, but it’s done wonders for my teeth, (and also for healing my husband’s foot).

Read more about that HERE.


And then, we spoke about the tuning forks stuff.

But that really needs it’s own post, so BH, I will write more on that in detail next.

In the meantime, try a ‘free’ tuning fork recording on Eileen Day McCusick’s site, HERE.


I’m not at all a doctor, so whatever you do or don’t do, it’s all 100% your own responsibility.

The point is, God has put a million different ways for healing humanity ‘out there’, and each  person will find their own path, if they are connected to their soul, and if they have a belief system that they CAN HEAL, they CAN TURN THINGS AROUND, if that is what God wants.

And if God doesn’t want that?

Then we submit to His will!


Because He is the Master of the World, not us.


I also covered off the more ‘spiritual’ angles of good health, which basically boils down to following Rebbe Nachman’s advice to do hitbodedut for an hour a day – and to feel and acknowledge all our pain then – but then to spend the next 23 hours as happily as we can.

And to do pidyonot, preferably via the Shuvu Banim website, but you pick your own tzaddik and take your own responsibility for what happens next.

(I think I heard someone tutting when I mentioned the pidyonot, like ‘o not all this again’ – but you know why I keep bringing it up?

Because it really works.

There are spiritual rules operating here, as Rabbenu explains very clearly, and when we pay a pidyon to a real tzaddik, we are substituting ‘money’ for ‘blood’ – i.e. illness and suffering.

But Rabbenu also explains there are people who care more about their money than they do about themselves….

So, what we can we do, with people like that?


Always more to say….

But thank you so much to everyone who showed up yesterday, it was lovely to see you all.

And let me know, what’s helpful, going forward.


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This is not an easy post to write.

Last Thursday, news started circulating on social media in Israel that a 16 year old boy ‘died suddenly’, for no reason, when he was sitting with his friends outside on a street.

If you read Hebrew, you can see more of that discussion on the Daniel Amram Telegram channel HERE, below is a screenshot:


I like a fair bit of what he posts, but Amram is very ‘pro-vaccination’.

In the screenshot above, he’s having a go at one of the boy’s family members, who is basically saying her relative ‘died suddenly’ thanks to the Covid shots.


In shul this evening, the uncle of our landlord came over to my husband, to tell him our landlord’s niece just ‘died suddenly’.

Our landlord is in his forties, so I can’t imagine that his niece would be older than in her twenties, max.

One thing I can tell you, is that my landlord’s whole family were very into getting the shots and wearing their masks.


Every Saturday night, my husband learns chevruta with a friend of his.

Tonight, the chevruta got cancelled.

The chevruta’s mother is in town, and just when Shabbat got out she got a text message that the 40 year old daughter of her very good friend just ‘died suddenly’.



I have a lot more to say about this, but slowly does it.

I could hear the fear in my friend’s voice as she was telling me about the 40 year old, above.

My friend was emotionally coerced into getting two shots, so she could get on a plane to visit her elderly mother.

While she was telling me that ‘they don’t know what happened’, I could hear in her voice that she is starting to develop a real fear that all those ‘crazy conspiracy theories’ about the shots being, ahem, not so good for a person’s health and longevity, ahem, might just be true.

I really feel for her.


Here’s what I want to say, for now:

There is still everything to play for, and everything to hope for, and EVERYTHING to pray about.

Rav Natan of Breslov wrote that God is so great, that even if a person already went to a doctor, God can still heal them!

For years and years and years, I puzzled over this sentence.

Now, I’m starting to understand the tremendous ruach hakodesh in even the smallest throw-away comments in the authentic Breslov works.


As ‘the problem’ starts to swing into much clearer focus – and make no mistake, that is what we are starting to experience, here – many people are going to be faced with a very difficult internal test.

The yetzer wants us all to believe that anyone who got ‘vaccinated’ is now automatically stuffed, game over.

I don’t believe that – not for a moment.

BUT – there is an awful lot of sincere teshuva required here, and an awful lot of fundamental life-changes required here, to start turning things around.

Remember, the Tanna who stood on the serpent’s lair and got bitten – but didn’t die?

He explained something profound:

It’s the sin that kills, it’s not the snake bite.


God is in charge here.

Only God.

And sincere teshuva, charity and tefilla can cancel out all the harsh details.


I will have more to say about this in the Zoom class happening this Sunday at 8pm Israel time, for women, including some practical ideas of what we can do to try to stay as healthy – and sane! – as possible, in these interesting times that we live in.

If you want to join, either drop a comment below or email me via the comments form.

There is a bunch of stuff we can do, to try and turn things around for the best.

But in the meantime….

As more of the clarity starts to come in, about what’s really going on with these shots, it’s going to get difficult, mentally and emotionally, for a lot of people who were duped into taking the shots, and the people who love them.

And that’s why I want to remind us all, now:

God can do anything.

And Jews are above nature.

And prayer, teshuva and charity cancel out all the harsh decrees.

So don’t despair.


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I’ve been having an interesting correspondence with a reader over email.

Long story short, he’s basically saying that all Ashkenazi Jews are suffek Jewish, and probably descend from the Khazarians.

(BTW, I’m not writing this to encourage personal attacks on my correspondent, he’s a thoughtful, learned person and he’s after the truth… He’s also an Ashkenazi Jew himself, connected in to the families I keep writing about, and he went to the mikveh recently to do a ‘toyvel suffek l’geyrus’….)

In short, he’s a good guy.


There is a but here, of course, otherwise I wouldn’t be typing this.

I can’t agree with his approach that all Ashkenazi Jews are probably suffek Jewish Khazarian descendants, and we just get to ‘blame’ all of the problems of the Jewish world on them.

Not least, because so many of the prominent Sabbateans I’ve been writing about actually clearly descend from Sephardim.


I’m bringing this up, because it’s connected to something else I’ve been thinking about for a while, and that’s how so much of the ‘alternative information’ you find online is being put there by xtians.

And while much of that information can be useful, and much of it is true – there is a huge, massive ‘xtian blind-spot’, deliberate or otherwise, when it comes to how evil xtianity itself actually is, and how good real Jews, and authentic Torah Judaism actually is.

And because we’re all lapping up so much of this ‘alternative information’, especially the slick video variety, many of us are also kind of getting ‘infected’ with a viewpoint that is skewed against real Jews and the Torah.


I know, I know.

It’s all so confusing, and it’s just so much easier, mentally, to split people off into ‘totally good’ and ‘totally bad’.

That’s the ridiculous, narcissist paradigm we were educated with (brainwashed with….) that ‘people’ are either 100% with us, or 100% against us. That they are either 100% ‘perfect’ and ‘tzaddikim’, or 100% the opposite, God forbid.

That paradigm is keeping us stuck in the world of lies, and the very first thing required here, if we are really interested in exploring what the truth is, about what’s gone on, is to chuck it out.

Nobody and no-one is ‘ONLY’ 100% good, or 100% bad.

Even the biggest tzaddikim we ever had,  like Moshe Rabbenu, like David HaMelech, like Rabbi Akiva, made occasional errors and mistakes.

And if we don’t grasp this simple idea, we just won’t be able to really figure out what’s going on here.


Because we’re still stuck in that ‘narcissist, fake-division’ brainwashing paradigm, many of us can’t understand how secret Sabbateans could ‘morph’ from writing Sabbatean tracts to having descendents who were part of the Baal Shem Tov’s ‘mighty men’.

But that’s because we’ve forgotten about the awesome power, the awesome gift of TESHUVA.

Thank God, if there is one thing that I can say about real Breslov, is that Rabbenu’s path and advice makes that gift of experiencing true teshuva possible for everyone.

I have seen time again from my own life, from my own self, how the process of making real teshuva can and does totally transform a person. And that path is open to all.


From the Rav, Rav Berland, I’ve also learnt so much, not least that the biggest souls ever created got thrown into the deepest spiritual muck – i.e. our world of 2022.

Because they have the biggest, most difficult job to do.

To ‘wake up and make teshuva’ in whichever dung-heap they are currently located, and then to find their way back to God, from there. And in the process of doing that, they will blaze a trail back to God that others in that dung-heap can also follow.

So for me, it makes total sense that these crazy Sabbatean families contain both the biggest spiritual ‘lights’ and the biggest spiritual ‘darkness’.

They contain both the ‘luminaries of fire’ and the ‘luminaries of light.’

And it’s our job, to use our free will, our discernment, the gift of hitbodedut, to think for ourselves, and to pray that God should enlighten us about who is really who.


There are no short-cuts, here.

There is a process going on, across all levels of body, mind and soul, where we have to really take the time to sift ‘good from bad’, and ‘lies from truth’.

But the main point of all this, the main ikker, is to develop a real soul connection with Hashem, by getting to know ourselves, and by doing that birur within.

That’s something that most of us just don’t do.

We tell ourselves stories about being ‘good people’, or about being ‘bad people’ – but both of those descriptions are essentially false.

We are a holy, good soul that only wants kedusha, and yearns for good and to be closer to God, every way it can.


We are a lowly, material body, that is selfish,  lazy, angry, greedy, scared, anxious, depressed and addicted to a bunch of stuff, including expensive coffee and really good dark chocolate (yum!).


Both of those sides are ‘the real us’.

Both of those sides express themselves at various times.

And the trick here, the ikker, is keep doing the birur within, because sometimes, the yetzer dresses up huge sins as ‘big mitzvahs’; and sometimes, what we think of as ‘huge sins’ (like taking the time to sit down quietly, and look after ourselves a bit) – actually are the biggest mitzvahs, the biggest kindnesses, a person can do.


So, don’t discount sincere teshuva.

Because it changes the whole picture fundamentally, in so many ways.


And now, let’s just end this post with what I’ll call some ‘birur musings’.

These are things that are occuring to me, that might not be occurring to you, but that maybe you want to consider.

First off, I just want to point out how ‘truth and lie’ can and does co-exist, very happily, all over the place, which is why WE OURSELVES NEED TO DO THE BIRUR.

About everything.

Even the stuff I write about here.


Over on the Jane Ruby Telegram channel, I was really gratified to see that more and more people – more and more ‘Republican-voting xtians’ – are starting to realise that Trump is controlled opposition, and bad news.

HERE‘s a screenshot:



Jane Ruby is also pushing the ‘fake news’ of Brian Ardis and Tau Braun, who I have the strong feeling is more ‘controlled opposition’, coming up with frankly retarded theories about snake venom, to sow confusion about the real DNA Origami / GO nanotech in the Covid shots.

Like this:



The point is, don’t throw the baby out with the bathwater!

Do your own birur, because there is some ‘truth’ hiding out even in places like the MSM, and there are also many lies mixed up with truth, even in the alternative media, and even by people who sincerely want the truth.


Think for yourself.

Don’t swallow down all the propaganda, all the ‘xtian slanted alt-theories’ about Jews being behind everything that’s going on, or all Ashkenazi Jews being Kharzarians.

There is so much that is still hidden from view, still, even the most educated of us are still just groping around in the dark.

Let me leave you with this.


My correspondent pointed to the fact that so many Ashkenazi Jews rushed to assimilate and leave the Torah as some sort of ‘evidence’ they must have been fake Khazarian Jews to begin with.

I know someone personally, a Russian guy from the former USSR, who had a brit milah aged 44, more than 30 years ago.

He now keeps a kosher home, lives in Jerusalem, sent his kid to ‘religious school’, and he also made the decision never to work on Shabbat, even though he isn’t ‘shomer shabbat’.

Think about it.

How many of the guys out there would volunteer to have a brit milah aged 44?

Who is like your people, Hashem?

Even if he is descended from ‘Khazarians’ – and that’s a big if – this guy’s mesirut nefesh for Hashem’s commandments is outstanding.

So, don’t give up  on anyone, don’t buy into all the ‘xtian propaganda’ sloshing around, and understand that while we’re all after ‘the truth’, much of ‘the truth’ is still hidden in the shadows.

And most of all, remember the great power of teshuva, to turn the whole picture around, literally from one end to the other.

The story isn’t  over yet.


PS: Take a closer look at the picture of Trump ‘drinking disinfectant’ at the top of this post.

It was a classic way of rubbishing things like Miracle Mineral Solution, which I’ve personally found very helpful in regaining my health.

Birur is required on all sides of every discussion…



A reader  just sent me this, which fits perfectly with the theme of this post:

I recently learned something that I thought might give you something to add / think about when relating to family connections, etc…
Eliezer (Avraham’s servant) was one of seven people in the history of the world to enter Gan Eden “alive” (whatever that means, but it’s a sign of his righteousness)… and he was also the son of Nimrod (which should not need further explanation for you).

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