Last week, I went for an outing with a small group of ladies to a forest.
Before Covid we used to do it once a month, but we haven’t done it for a while, as our main organizer was out of action for a year. So Wednesday, with glorious weather, we headed out to the forest.
The way the group broke down, there was one ‘pro shots’ person (who works in a hospital). One ‘on the fence but forced to get two shots to visit family abroad’ person (who is now steadily coming off the fence, more in the ‘anti’ direction. Me. And another woman who used to be very ‘anti shots’ and an alternative medicine practitioner.
I was looking forward to catching up with the alternative med healer, to swap some notes and see if we could discuss more ideas for helping people’s health, now we all know that these shots are not good news.
She gave me a kind of pained smile when she saw me, and told me that she can’t discuss that stuff any more, as it’s just making her worried and depressed.
“I’m just ignoring it now, and letting God deal with it,” she told me, before walking off to look at a rakefet plant.
I was kind of stunned, to be honest.
And it made me start pondering to myself, if maybe that’s what I should do too? Just ‘leave it to God’, and walk away from all this stuff?
I still haven’t got a definitive answer back, BTW.
What I can tell you, is that I’ve been feeling pretty scared – actually a feeling of deep dread – for the last couple of days, up until this morning, for no obvious reason.
I’ve been doing a lot of cheshbon nefesh again, a lot of trying to take stock of what I’m doing with myself, what areas I need to work on, what changes I need to try to make.
(I also did another small pidyon, on the Rav’s site, which also, always, really helps me a lot mentally and emotionally.)
I am getting that feeling again that something needs to change, but I don’t know if the something is just within me, and what I’m writing, and what I’m doing with myself – or whether it’s global, and will touch all of us.
In the meantime.
I sit here watching Bennett suing the pants off even some teenage Tiktoker in Bnei Brak, and suing the pants off one Youtube rabbi after another – with plans for more and more and more lawsuits – and I understand that we are reaching the next stage in this war against ‘disinformation’.
Whatever that is supposed to mean.
I have definitely started censoring myself more and more, because of all this legal bullying going on to shut down anyone who questions the narrative, in so many ways.
Which brings me back around to the question of whether I really want to keep sticking my neck out here, on the blog, or whether it’s time to either totally change direction with what I write – or to stop blogging altogether.
Again, I don’t have the answer yet, I’m just sharing the process with you, so you understand we are in a very complicated time, right now.
I’m increasingly feeling, personally, that I have to start focussing way more on the spiritual side of things, and to just leave the politics and the ‘nitty gritty’ alone.
I also just want to take my head out ‘the news’ for at least a month, and see if that helps me get more clarity about what I’m doing next.
I’ve lost count of the times I start ‘reacting’ to stupid stories, or depressing stories, or fear-mongering stories that the lying MSM post up 24/7, to keep pumping us full with faux outrage, apathy, despair or anxiety.
Enough, enough, enough!
I know people – young people – are continuing to ‘die suddenly’.
I heard of two more cases just today, that occurred in the last 10 days.
I know that ‘the problem’ is going to start looming larger and larger, regardless of whether I keep writing about it or not.
That ‘problem’ has been 100% designed by Hashem, to get us all to make teshuva and to stop wasting our lives just running after money, holidays and netflix.
Sooner or later, it’s going to do the job it’s been designed to do, and totally break the world of lies most of us are still living in.
But for me, I keep coming back to the question of how do I balance all this ‘abnormal’ with the ‘normal’?
All the weird stuff going on in the skies….
All the ‘died suddenlys’ across social media….
All the fascist, scary things our governments are doing with surveillance cameras, ‘assisted suicide laws’, global depopulation agendas and ongoing medical tyranny – How do I balance all that with every day life?
I don’t think that ‘going into denial’ is the way to go.
My alt-med acquaintance still looked mega-stressed, because lying to ourselves and ignoring difficult facts and situations doesn’t make them ‘go away’. It just makes us live a lie, while we stick a big, plastic smile on our faces and stuff more cake in our gob to try to quell our growing anxiety.
At the same time, exclusively focussing in ‘on the bad’, on ‘the scary’, on the ‘obviously disturbing and worrying’ is also not a recipe for good mental health.
I don’t have ‘the answer’, I’m just setting out where I’m holding, personally.
Life is still so good, in so many ways!
And life is also increasingly so abnormal and disturbing, in so many ways!
This seems to be the ‘new normal’, where I sit here knowing there is stuff moving in the shadows, and under the surface, but I still can’t catch it properly, or describe it.
And I still don’t know if I even really want to.
It could be slow posting here, while I continue to try to figure all this stuff out.
if everyone stops fighting the slime win without contestment… it’s like we all just gave up because it’s too darn hard and scary to stand up and make them pay for the evil they’ve been perpetrating on all of humanity… I don’t care if everyone quits… I’m never stopping my war against these utter rubbish refuse and absolute scum of the earth…
Aleph Aleph Aleph Aleph!
Hey Rivka, we love you! I almost feel as though I have to speak to you the way I speak to my grandkids when they are miserable because something happened that upset them: don’t worry so much: Hashem is with us! Hashem loves you, I have no doubt: so turn to Him, speak to Him, ask Him to remove whatever bothers you! Here is an example: early this past Shabbat morning, much earlier than usual, I got woken up by a strange low very disturbing continuous one tone sound coming from far away, almost as though from the not so far highway I never ever ever hear: it sounded like some electric grating wheezing sound… I had no idea what it was, but it was shaking my nervous system on a deep level. I couldn’t take it anymore: so I decided to meditate, tap and massage my skull, rub my ears, do certain motions, whatever would relieve the effect that sound had on my wellbeing. It was clearly coming from outside, because when I opened the window it become louder. I thought that maybe it was some CERN effect, or some other deliberate assault, just didn’t know and was very disturbed by it. So I decided to speak to Hashem, ask Him to please make it go away: within a minute it simply stopped bothering me and didn’t even exist. All the meditation etc. had helped create a protective wall against that sound, I could still hear it but it wasn’t bothering me so much; and Hashem got completely rid of it. What it was I still don’t know, but remember that we always, always, always can turn to Him and He will take care of us, as long as we are oin His side. Right?
So everything can be taken care of, as long as we do what we need to do to protect our nervous system etc, and we pray to Hashem. Ad 120! It’s going to be OK Be’Ezrat Hashem!
I’ve heard the same noise here in the morning, the last few days again…
May Hashem just rescue us from the madness already.
thanks for your chizzuk, Daisy.
Of course, Rivka. Wow, so you are hearing that sound there too? Did anybody else in Yerushalayim or outside of Yerushalayim in E.Y. also hear it? What do you think it is: CERN? Or simply an audio frequency attack to damage our nerves?
So please let me teach you about tapping, if you never heard of it: it is quite effective ( a whole system, you can read up on it); but even if you don’t do it exactly right, by tapping your skull, your face, your shoulders, your hands, your arms, your torso, your whole body in general, symmetrically, you activate your parasympathetic nervous system, which calms you deeply; and the same goes for “activating” the ears (which I don’t know why are a primary point of acupuncture, from what I can remember -although I never did acupuncture): I noticed that rubbing my ears with great energy calms me down a lot.
And I instictively do a lot of inner-directed movements – called kriyas in yoga ( if somebody saw me they would think I am crazy; I don’t care, it works!). And of course deep meditation is very good for restoring our aura; and the aura is like a protective shield against these foreign energy invaders, sort of like a wide moat. At least that is what I just discovered this past Shabbat. But that is just preparation for the real Avodah: Tefillah, speaking to Hashem, thanking, asking, everything, from the bottom of our hearts!
What do you think of that??
I bumped into your interesting site as I was looking for an explanation to the mysterious animals walking in circles for days on end.
I was highly excited – after years of being alone on a ship, no one to talk to, no one to understand me, no one to listen to me nor to share anything with except for my husband – to finally find another G-d fearing chareidi woman aware of what’s really going on in the world other than the official narrative; whether it’s in regards to Israeli politicians, corrupt governments, WEF, scientists, chemtrails, covid baloney, fake quacksine with its Sudden Death Syndrome and medicine in general.
Rivka, I’ve read your entire site “Covid-19/top”. You’re a breath of fresh air. Because I’ve been awakened over 6 years, I’m familiar with a big percentage of your writings and basically agree with you in almost everything.
Amazing theory you concluded with CERN signals. Makes sense.
BTW why would any sane person go to YWN (probably referring to Yeshiva University liberals) for news and comments? These brainwashed sheeple are in total denial and impossible to wake up.
May I suggest you add a date at the beginning of each of your posts?
I would appreciate if you can please put me on your mailing list for new updates.
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Welcome to the ‘crazy’ club, Miriam…
Rather a tinfoil-hatter crazy (which I’m used to for years) than a blindfolded sheeple.