It’s hard to back down, when we find ourselves on the wrong side of an argument.
It’s embarrassing, often excrutiatingly so, and if we were raised in homes where mistakes were not tolerated, and personal attacks occurred whenever we were ‘wrong’, then admitting we maybe made a mistake when we are adults can get really, really hard.
But if we just relate to all this ‘COVID-19’ stuff as the ‘end’, spiritually, and not just the means to a different type of end, we are missing the whole point.
Who is arranging all this COVID-19 pantomime, from behind the scenes?
Why is He doing that?
There are lots of potential answers to that question, but one very big one is that God is currently putting all of us through a massive character test.
This whole thing boils down to a test of middot.
Middot in Hebrew literally means ‘measures’. The ‘measure’ of a human being is how they treat other people, how morally they behave, how good their character traits really are.
And right now, we are in the advanced PhD masterclass of middot testing, where it’s impossible to fake, or cheat, or bluster your way through the process.
Last week, someone sent me a shiur by a popular Rabbi that was buying the COVID-19 scare-story, replete with ‘wear your mask, or you’re evil!!!!’ messaging.
The person who sent me that shiur was probably quite surprised to hear that message coming from that person. I wasn’t. I’ve had dealings with that guy for years and years and years, and while he talks a good game, when push came to shove his middot and his emuna were nowhere near where he likes to pretend they are.
So, COVID-19 is just bringing all his hidden lack of emuna, and his hidden addiction to secular news, and his hidden fallen fears up to the surface.
And it’s doing it across the board.
Same thing applies to why we are all being ‘locked down’ with our immediate family members.
I guarantee that for every person who has realised just how much they really do love and miss ‘Bubby and Safdie’, there are at three who are starting to own the uncomfortable truth that they are actually way happier having more space away from certain, controlling, family members.
COVID-19 is cutting through all the pretend good manners, all the socialized conditioning, and is laying bare what is really underneath.
Same goes for our kids.
You can’t spend approaching 6 months (!) under this type of mega-stress, day in, day out, and keep up any sort of pretence within your immediate family unit.
Either you really do have patience, or you don’t.
Either you really do have emuna and a strong belief that God is running the world, or you don’t.
Either your interactions are more about giving to others, or they are more about taking for yourself.
And at this point in the process, all these measures of our true character, all these middot are starting to be very clearly recognisable.
And for a lot of people, it’s pretty shocking.
Baruch Hashem, I’ve known for years that I have a lot of fear, and a very short temper, and that I can also get very controlling when feeling ‘stressed’.
So Baruch Hashem, I’ve been working on these issues – and more! – for years and years and years, to try to tackle them and make life livable for the people around me.
Naturally speaking, I have no patience. And I have no tolerance. And I can get wound up very tight, very fast.
But unnaturally, because I’ve been doing an hour of hitbodedut every day for over a decade now, God has been helping me to get a grip on all these bad middot, and to start to defuse them.
Because if He hadn’t, there would probably be blood on the floor of the Levy household by now.
(BTW, if you want a shortcut to defusing your anger, the Rav wrote an excellent short booklet with some information and prayers on the subject, that I’ve now gone through twice, and each time it’s really helped me to get a grip on my anger again. You can pick that up, very cheaply, HERE.)
That’s also what all the trips to the kivrei tzaddikim is about, and all the visits to Rebbe Nachman’s grave in Uman.
The whole thing, really, is just about getting a grip on my bad middot, so that the real me, my holy soul, can start to shine out in the midst of all that murk.
And that’s really the whole point of this COVID-19 manufactured crisis.
Whether we believe in masks or not, believe in vaccines or not, believe that Trump is the ‘Edomite messiah’ or not (‘scuse me while I snort into my cup of tea) – this whole thing really just boils down to how strong our relationship to God really is (aka ‘the test of emuna’), and how we treat other people (aka ‘the test of good middot’).
Today, whilst waiting in the line outside the bakery, I bumped into one of my old good friends from University.
We fell out of contact for 20 years, and while I’ve seen here once of twice around the streets of Jerusalem, it’s only ever a two minute chat these days, and that’s not enough to break the ice again.
But, it’s better than nothing.
So when I spotted her, I went over to where she was standing, with her mask under her chin, to say hello. As I approached, she pulled her mask up over her nose (mine was still under my chin).
Don’t do that just for me! I told her.
I don’t believe in all that stuff!
“I do.” She replied.
And then, we started having a big argument about all the ‘studies’ that show it helps other people radically, and she told me there are no doctors out there who are saying that it’s not necessary!!!
It’s a test of middot.
Once I understood that my poor friend has totally bought into all the lies being pumped out by the powers-that-be and the media, and that I would only embarrass and upset her, if I continued to throw ‘uncomfortable facts’ in her direction, I decided to keep my mouth shut and change the subject.
That’s what I mean, about trying to figure out the real, underlying ‘tests’ going on here. I will debunk things on my blog until I’m blue in the face, and my readers can take it or leave it.
But in my interactions with others, I have to tone myself down, because that is what God really wants.
He doesn’t me being ‘right’, He wants me being humble. And He doesn’t want me winning the argument at any price, He wants me to be reaching out to others, and trying to stay connected to them – achdut – even though sometimes I have to twist myself into 50 pretzels, in order to do that.
It’s hard work.
And I can’t always do it.
But I know, that’s what God wants.
Back in THIS POST, I set out the timeline for the 9 months when Moshiach is here, but hidden, and where the Nation of Israel is under foreign rule, that’s referred to in both the Zohar (see HERE) and also in the Child’s Prophecy (see HERE).
The process started February 9, 2020, when the Rav was imprisoned.
February 9 – May 9th,2020 = The first trimester.
That’s when Coronavirus panic was at its height, and here in Israel we were severely locked down for around 10 weeks.
That corresponds to the first few months of pregnancy where everything has changed, internally, and your hormones are totally whacked, and you’re puking up, or sleeping, or feeling just generally strange and out of it – but externally, no-one can even tell there is a baby in the making.
May 10 – August 9th, 2020 = The second trimester.
That’s when things have usually ‘settled down’ into some form of weird almost normal.
Yes, it’s become clearer that there is a baby on the way, but for most people the puking has stopped, their energy has returned, and they are pretty much just getting on with regular life.
This corresponded to the last 3 months when ‘pseudo normal’ life returned here in Israel, and things mostly opened up again, albeit with masks, coronafascist police, and worrying tyrannical tendencies about using technology to track everyone, and to force everyone to have a ‘vaccine’.
So strange, and not ‘relaxed’, but still a version of ‘life as normal’.
August 10th – November 9th, 2020 = The third, and final trimester.
In case you aren’t aware, the freemason dictator-in-waiting, Binyamin Netanyahu, managed to pass a piece of legislation two days ago which means that he can abrogate the entire Knesset, and the entire political process of ministerial oversight, to push the ‘lockdown’ button anytime he wants:
This from the Times of Israel:
The legislation allows the cabinet to set restrictions on the public, with the Knesset given just 24 hours to approve or reject the regulations before they take effect automatically. In addition, it includes a clause that allows the cabinet to bypass the Knesset and immediately implement measures deemed “urgent,” without specifying the criteria for making that determination.
I don’t know about you, but given Netanyahu’s hysterical insistence on locking everyone down right from the beginning – based on zero real evidence – that has me really worried.
And do you know when this piece of legislation takes effect?
August 10th, 2020.
In other words, we are two weeks away from the start of the third, and final trimester of the process where Moshiach is hidden, while ‘foreign powers’ continue to rule Israel for 9 months.
(BTW, two big kabbalists are saying the same thing, including Rav Yehuda Sheinfeld, and Rabbi Aaron HaKohen.)
It’s accepted amongst the tzaddikim that we are now in the period of time known as the chevlei Moshiach (birthpangs of Moshiach) – in the final stages. We are in the nine last months of the chevlei Moshiach.
And the message from the Tzaddik Nistar:
AT THE END OF THIS GALUT, THIS EVIL MALCHUT (LITERALLY: ROYALTY, FIGURATIVELY: GOVERNMENT) WILL SPREAD IN ISRAEL, AND IN THE WHOLE WORLD FOR THE DURATION OF NINE MONTHS.
May we be saved from it, and and may we be redeemed speedily in our days, amen.
Pay attention, that this is beginning with one lockdown, and then another lockdown… Until all of us will be in an absolute lockdown. Don’t say that we didn’t tell you.
Today, it’s still possible to stop this.
Pharoah also started [to enslave] Am Yisrael with soft words.
If we do teshuva, but not completely, meaning with full, heart-felt intention, we will need to complete the relative portion with suffering, the very difficult ‘birthpangs of the Moshiach’, rachmana litzan (Hashem should have mercy).
Therefore, everyone should come, like one man, with one heart, let’s pray together, let’s do teshuva from love, and let’s merit to have geula b’rachamim (redemption with mercy), TODAY! If we will only listen to his voice.
But it’s 100%, that we will not return to the ‘routine’ again.
We are in the final process of geula, Am Yisrael, and how it’s going to come – either with din (harsh judgment) or rachamim (mercy) depends on us.”
I don’t need to tell you what the last three months of a pregnancy are like.
Extrapolate for yourselves, and know that this is what we are heading into, starting August 10th, 2020.
But take heart!
This is all just a means to a spiritual end, and something very good is going to flower from the ashes of this corrupt world that is currently winding down.
Let’s give the last words to Rabbi Eliezer Berland:
“THOSE SIX YEARS FROM 5776 UNTIL 5781, THESE ARE YEARS OF REDEMPTION.
THESE ARE YEARS IN WHICH THE PEOPLE OF ISRAEL WILL DO TESHUVA, THE BIGGEST CRIMINALS WILL DO TESHUVA, BECAUSE THERE ARE NO SECULAR IN THE JEWISH PEOPLE, AND THERE ARE NO CRIMINALS AMONG THE PEOPLE OF ISRAEL, AND NO WICKED PEOPLE OF ISRAEL.
“These are all just stages in the salvation, it’s all stages in the development of the soul, in accepting the parts of the soul, the biggest gangster in the end will become the most righteous man.”
I’ve been quoting this passage for four years, and it’s written in the first Volume of One in a Generation I.
We are seeing it play out before our eyes.
So hold on!
But also carry on working on your middot and emuna.
Because that is the whole point of the madness that’s going on with COVID-19.
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