So much of our history is a lie.
That’s been true for at least the last 250 years (at least….) but probably way, way longer than that.
The more I’m setting myself the task of untangling Jewish history, the more lies, deliberate misinformation and obfuscation I’m tripping over.
Because so much of what I’m learning is hugely controversial, and has huge implications for our communities today, I’m treading very, very carefully.
That means that even though I appear to be finding out a lot of stuff, I’m not rushing into print. I first have to check, and double-check everything very carefully, against multiple sources, to try to shake out what’s true, and what’s deliberately false.
And that’s going to take me a while.
In the meantime, I thought I’d share some of the broader questions I’m grappling with mentally, and some of the broader ideas, and I welcome your input, if you have any, because I’m understanding more and more, how little any of us really understand about anything.
So, here’s what I’m asking myself at the moment:
- Is there any real difference between ‘practical kabbalah’ – defined as manipulating the natural world in any way that isn’t via supplications to Hashem, aka ‘prayer’ – and black magic?
- Why doesn’t our Jewish education system teach the simple fact that many, if not most, of the Jewish communities throughout history have been woefully lax in mitzvah observance?
We get all these ‘tzaddik’ stories, and all these hagiographic accounts of how holy our grandparents were etc etc etc – but what I’m learning shows this simply isn’t true. The majority of Jewish communities throughout history, especially in the big cities, have had some enormous issues even keeping basic mitzvot.
Once I learned, for example, that many of the Spanish and Portuguese Jews of the 16th and 17th century continued to be uncircumcised for decades – even after rejoining the Jewish community – and continued to find it very difficult to do things like keep the laws of kashrut, that personally was so helpful.
It’s hard to reconcile a kind, loving God with this fake picture of ‘perfect’ Jewish communities, who had nothing more to do than wait for Moshiach to show up. When that’s the paradigm you are operating out of, it gives a lot of yeoush about geula.
I mean, if our oh-so-pious ancestors couldn’t bring moshiach, then what hope do we have?!
On so many levels, our generation is actually doing so much better than those of the past.
Yes, we all have massive, massive spiritual challenges going on, especially from technology and tumah.
But never before have there been so many sincere people, really trying their best to just do good, and to try to build the world, and to do the right thing, even if there’s so much confusion about what that actually means.
Most Jews today are at least circumcised.
And that by itself is huge!
Here’s some more of the questions I’m wrestling with:
- If you had solid evidence that ‘Frankism’ – the false messianic religion of Jacob Frank, that seeks to eradicate Torah Judaism by all sorts of deceit and cunning, and replace it with a mish-mash ‘one world religion’ – had infiltrated all spheres of Jewish life, including even some ‘ultra orthodox’ and ‘chassidic’ communities – what would you do with that information?
Sit on it, because it’s frankly totally mind-blowing and extremely disturbing on so many levels – or share it?
And if you say ‘share it’ – then what is the good outcome, that you’d hope to get from sharing it?
These are not simple questions, are they?
I’m doing a lot of praying right now, to see what God really wants.
But let me leave you with this one thing:
If there is any ‘thing’, any person, any ‘action’ throughout Jewish history that has left you with an uneasy feeling, like something isn’t quite right, I strongly recommend you take some time to try to pin that down.
What I’m learning at the moment is that all my ‘hunches’ or feelings that something wasn’t quite right with a whole bunch of things seem to have at least some solid justification.
That doesn’t mean everything I thought is right, or that all my ‘suspicions’ and niggles are correct.
But the sad truth is, so many of our leaders and rabbis and ‘famous people’ – for the last 500 years! – are actually not coming from a good place.
The upside-down world is finally righting itself.
What that means is that very soon, all the ‘billionaires’ are going to be totally reviled for selfishly hoarding all that cash and using it for nefarious ends, instead of generously sharing it out with the rest of us.
And it also means that so many of those people who have been preening themselves on their great ‘yichus’, and how they’re connected to so many ‘big’ people are soon going to find out that many of their ancestors are actually a source of terrible shame and embarrassment.
And sadly, it also means that we’re going to have to brace ourselves for some very sordid information to start coming out about people who pretend to be ‘Jews’, externally, but who really are following their own religion.
And that includes so many of the top brass associated with the State of Israel, and with the Jewish communities in the diaspora, and with the so-called ‘religious’ world.
It’s the olam hafuch, where the least of us are really at the top of this world’s pyramid, and the best of us are really at the bottom.
But not for much longer.
Even if I don’t write about it explicitly on this blog – and it’s very possible that I won’t – that information is coming down, and it’s coming out, one way or another.
It’s what has to happen before we can get to the next stage of geula.
But HOW that’s going to happen… and what part this blog should be playing in that process…
I don’t know.
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