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Mum, I’m worried about you. You’re always forgetting what I told you. I think you have alzheimers….

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Over the last few months, my youngest daughter has been making this statement a few times a month. It annoys the heck out of me, not because I’m in ‘alzheimers denial’, but because I keep explaining to her that when people are totally stressed out of their skulls and preoccupied, it’s hard to remember anything.

Stress damages the brain, at least temporarily, and we all know just how stressed we’ve all been, in a billion different ways, the last year.

So yesterday, she started up with that again and I glared at her, and started to feel a bit upset and angry that she was apparently deliberately winding me up again…when I was in the middle of trying to get another one of the Rav’s books done and sent out…and in the middle of trying to figure out how Beirut’s port being exploded is somehow connected to the new Haifa port being built by the Chinese (completed 2021…) and the shadowy new ‘deal’ the US has apparently just struck for Syria’s oil (CO-IN-CID-ENT-AL-LY on the same day the explosion happened in Beirut….)

…and trying to wash up and do a few other things to keep the house ticking over….

When it struck me what the real problem was.

I haven’t been giving this kid enough time and headspace.

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She’s a good kid, really lovely in so many ways.

But she’s like her dad, inasmuch as that part of the gene pool has a tendency to give over BIG things in very small ways. I have the opposite tendency. I exaggerate for effect, I make a point with pyrotechnic prose – and so, I have been totally missing all these ‘big’ things she’s been telling me in her gentle way, as they haven’t come wrapped in melodrama.

That means she tells me something, and I don’t really pay much attention to it, because it’s not exciting enough to compete with the corrupt Mossad, and what I need to get from Mahane Yehuda for Shabbat, and a million other things.

So then, I’ll ask her again: where are you going tonight? Are you here for Shabbat? You said you do want pasta for supper, or not?

And then she’ll hit me with the ‘alzheimers’ speech, because in a way she’s right that I am forgetting about things. But really, just one thing: her.

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As usual, I didn’t feel so fabulous, emotionally, after I realized what was going on.

I had a few minutes of that raw despair that only a parent can feel. You know what I’m talking about. We want so much to be everything our children need us to be, to give them what they require to grow up feeling loved and emotionally-healthy and connected to God and their souls – and yet sometimes, we just can’t do it.

God, I have no energy for this…

Rivka, are you saying you have no energy for her?

(God always goes right for the jugular.)

That brought me up sharp.

Of course I have energy for her! My kids and my husband are my #1 priority!!!

(In theory.)

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In practice, the last few months my kids and my husband have fallen far down the totem pole again, overlooked in the midst of a million books being written, and a million trips ‘out’, and a million hours researching what’s really going on in the world.

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I turned off my computer.

I went upstairs to where my kid had retreated to her room, and I tried to start a conversation.

I’m sorry I haven’t been giving you enough attention recently. What can I do for you, that would be nice for you? Can I take you somewhere? Do you want to go shopping?

Ima, why do you feel like you always have to just buy something or do something?!

She asked me with that particularly infuriating arched teenaged-eyebrow of disdain.

(Upset teenagers always go right for the jugular.)

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I fought down the knee-jerk response to try to hurt back, swallowed a couple of times, then ‘fessed up.

Sometimes, kid, I feel like I don’t know what I’m doing. Sometimes, it’s very hard for me to just ‘be’. So I retreat into doing stuff and going places, because that’s often easier than just sitting here trying to be ‘real’ with you.

What I really wanted to tell her is that every time I wash her clothes, make her food, wash out the cereal bowl that was left for a day in the heat so the grains could all harden onto it like some sort of ceramic decoration – without having a go at her for doing that –  that’s a small declaration of love.

Sometimes, those small declarations of love are all I can manage, because despite the fact that I’m 46, and officially ‘old’, I also feel lost and overwhelmed a lot of the time.

Even when there is no ‘COVID-19’ in the picture.

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Ima, do you want a hug? She suddenly asked me, out of nowhere.

Of course I want a hug…

And just like that, the connection was re-established.

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The rest of yesterday afternoon, we just hung out talking about the small stuff that looms very big in a teenager’s life, and I made a mental note to boost spending time with my teens well up my ‘to do’ list from here on in.

I have one more book to do for the Rav left on my list, before I take a proper sabbatical: One in a Generation #3.

It’s a huge amount of work in every sense of the word.

When that teen likes to really go for the killer blow, she’ll tell me in full-blown teenage troofer mode:

You care more about Rav Berland than you do about me.

In her worldview, she sees me spending hours, weeks, months and years on his books etc, for free, and she sees how engrossed I am in my writing, often to the exclusion of her. What can I tell her?

Those books are changing the whole picture….they are sweetening everything…they are helping Moshiach to come the sweet way…

She is a hardcore teenage troofer.

The more I try to explain about the Rav, the more she tells me to my face that I’m just a card-carrying cult-member-lunatic. I get zero kudos for doing all this stuff. That kid just thinks its conclusive proof I’m a retarded frier-ite.

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Doing all the stuff for the Rav is so important.

But even so, my kids and husband still have to come first.

It’s a tough balance to strike, it’s a very narrow bridge to walk on.

And I got reminded again yesterday, that being a loving parent is sometimes the most challenging job in the world.

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It’s hard to back down, when we find ourselves on the wrong side of an argument.

It’s embarrassing, often excrutiatingly so, and if we were raised in homes where mistakes were not tolerated, and personal attacks occurred whenever we were ‘wrong’, then admitting we maybe made a mistake when we are adults can get really, really hard.

But if we just relate to all this ‘COVID-19’ stuff as the ‘end’, spiritually, and not just the means to a different type of end, we are missing the whole point.

Who is arranging all this COVID-19 pantomime, from behind the scenes?

God.

Why is He doing that?

There are lots of potential answers to that question, but one very big one is that God is currently putting all of us through a massive character test.

This whole thing boils down to a test of middot.

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Middot in Hebrew literally means ‘measures’. The ‘measure’ of a human being is how they treat other people, how morally they behave, how good their character traits really are.

And right now, we are in the advanced PhD masterclass of middot testing, where it’s impossible to fake, or cheat, or bluster your way through the process.

Last week, someone sent me a shiur by a popular Rabbi that was buying the COVID-19 scare-story, replete with ‘wear your mask, or you’re evil!!!!’ messaging.

The person who sent me that shiur was probably quite surprised to hear that message coming from that person. I wasn’t. I’ve had dealings with that guy for years and years and years, and while he talks a good game, when push came to shove his middot and his emuna were nowhere near where he likes to pretend they are.

So, COVID-19 is just bringing all his hidden lack of emuna, and his hidden addiction to secular news, and his hidden fallen fears up to the surface.

And it’s doing it across the board.

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Same thing applies to why we are all being ‘locked down’ with our immediate family members.

I guarantee that for every person who has realised just how much they really do love and miss ‘Bubby and Safdie’, there are at three who are starting to own the uncomfortable truth that they are actually way happier having more space away from certain, controlling, family members.

COVID-19 is cutting through all the pretend good manners, all the socialized conditioning, and is laying bare what is really underneath.

Same goes for our kids.

You can’t spend approaching 6 months (!) under this type of mega-stress, day in, day out, and keep up any sort of pretence within your immediate family unit.

Either you really do have patience, or you don’t.

Either you really do have emuna and a strong belief that God is running the world, or you don’t.

Either your interactions are more about giving to others, or they are more about taking for yourself.

And at this point in the process, all these measures of our true character, all these middot are starting to be very clearly recognisable.

And for a lot of people, it’s pretty shocking.

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Baruch Hashem, I’ve known for years that I have a lot of fear, and a very short temper, and that I can also get very controlling when feeling ‘stressed’.

So Baruch Hashem, I’ve been working on these issues – and more! – for years and years and years, to try to tackle them and make life livable for the people around me.

Naturally speaking, I have no patience. And I have no tolerance. And I can get wound up very tight, very fast.

But unnaturally, because I’ve been doing an hour of hitbodedut every day for over a decade now, God has been helping me to get a grip on all these bad middot, and to start to defuse them.

Baruch Hashem!

Because if He hadn’t, there would probably be blood on the floor of the Levy household by now.

(BTW, if you want a shortcut to defusing your anger, the Rav wrote an excellent short booklet with some information and prayers on the subject, that I’ve now gone through twice, and each time it’s really helped me to get a grip on my anger again. You can pick that up, very cheaply, HERE.)

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That’s also what all the trips to the kivrei tzaddikim is about, and all the visits to Rebbe Nachman’s grave in Uman.

The whole thing, really, is just about getting a grip on my bad middot, so that the real me, my holy soul, can start to shine out in the midst of all that murk.

And that’s really the whole point of this COVID-19 manufactured crisis.

Whether we believe in masks or not, believe in vaccines or not, believe that Trump is the ‘Edomite messiah’ or not (‘scuse me while I snort into my cup of tea) – this whole thing really just boils down to how strong our relationship to God really is (aka ‘the test of emuna’), and how we treat other people (aka ‘the test of good middot’).

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Today, whilst waiting in the line outside the bakery, I bumped into one of my old good friends from University.

We fell out of contact for 20 years, and while I’ve seen here once of twice around the streets of Jerusalem, it’s only ever a two minute chat these days, and that’s not enough to break the ice again.

But, it’s better than nothing.

So when I spotted her, I went over to where she was standing, with her mask under her chin, to say hello. As I approached, she pulled her mask up over her nose (mine was still under my chin).

Don’t do that just for me! I told her.

I don’t believe in all that stuff!

“I do.” She replied.

And then, we started having a big argument about all the ‘studies’ that show it helps other people radically, and she told me there are no doctors out there who are saying that it’s not necessary!!!

It’s a test of middot.

Once I understood that my poor friend has totally bought into all the lies being pumped out by the powers-that-be and the media, and that I would only embarrass and upset her, if I continued to throw ‘uncomfortable facts’ in her direction, I decided to keep my mouth shut and change the subject.

That’s what I mean, about trying to figure out the real, underlying ‘tests’ going on here. I will debunk things on my blog until I’m blue in the face, and my readers can take it or leave it.

But in my interactions with others, I have to tone myself down, because that is what God really wants.

He doesn’t me being ‘right’, He wants me being humble. And He doesn’t want me winning the argument at any price, He wants me to be reaching out to others, and trying to stay connected to them – achdut – even though sometimes I have to twist myself into 50 pretzels, in order to do that.

It’s hard work.

And I can’t always do it.

But I know, that’s what God wants.

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Back in THIS POST, I set out the timeline for the 9 months when Moshiach is here, but hidden, and where the Nation of Israel is under foreign rule, that’s referred to in both the Zohar (see HERE) and also in the Child’s Prophecy (see HERE).

The process started February 9, 2020, when the Rav was imprisoned.

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February 9 – May 9th,2020 = The first trimester.

That’s when Coronavirus panic was at its height, and here in Israel we were severely locked down for around 10 weeks.

That corresponds to the first few months of pregnancy where everything has changed, internally, and your hormones are totally whacked, and you’re puking up, or sleeping, or feeling just generally strange and out of it – but externally, no-one can even tell there is a baby in the making.

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May 10 – August 9th, 2020 = The second trimester.

That’s when things have usually ‘settled down’ into some form of weird almost normal.

Yes, it’s become clearer that there is a baby on the way, but for most people the puking has stopped, their energy has returned, and they are pretty much just getting on with regular life.

This corresponded to the last 3 months when ‘pseudo normal’ life returned here in Israel, and things mostly opened up again, albeit with masks, coronafascist police, and worrying tyrannical tendencies about using technology to track everyone, and to force everyone to have a ‘vaccine’.

So strange, and not ‘relaxed’, but still a version of ‘life as normal’.

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August 10th – November 9th, 2020 = The third, and final trimester.

In case you aren’t aware, the freemason dictator-in-waiting, Binyamin Netanyahu, managed to pass a piece of legislation two days ago which means that he can abrogate the entire Knesset, and the entire political process of ministerial oversight, to push the ‘lockdown’ button anytime he wants:

This from the Times of Israel:

The legislation allows the cabinet to set restrictions on the public, with the Knesset given just 24 hours to approve or reject the regulations before they take effect automatically. In addition, it includes a clause that allows the cabinet to bypass the Knesset and immediately implement measures deemed “urgent,” without specifying the criteria for making that determination.

I don’t know about you, but given Netanyahu’s hysterical insistence on locking everyone down right from the beginning – based on zero real evidence – that has me really worried.

And do you know when this piece of legislation takes effect?

Yup.

August 10th, 2020.

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In other words, we are two weeks away from the start of the third, and final trimester of the process where Moshiach is hidden, while ‘foreign powers’ continue to rule Israel for 9 months.

(BTW, two big kabbalists are saying the same thing, including Rav Yehuda Sheinfeld, and Rabbi Aaron HaKohen.)

Rav Sheinfeld:

It’s accepted amongst the tzaddikim that we are now in the period of time known as the chevlei Moshiach (birthpangs of Moshiach) – in the final stages. We are in the nine last months of the chevlei Moshiach.

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And the message from the Tzaddik Nistar:

AT THE END OF THIS GALUT, THIS EVIL MALCHUT (LITERALLY: ROYALTY, FIGURATIVELY: GOVERNMENT) WILL SPREAD IN ISRAEL, AND IN THE WHOLE WORLD FOR THE DURATION OF NINE MONTHS.

May we be saved from it, and and may we be redeemed speedily in our days, amen.

Pay attention, that this is beginning with one lockdown, and then another lockdown… Until all of us will be in an absolute lockdown. Don’t say that we didn’t tell you.

Today, it’s still possible to stop this.

Pharoah also started [to enslave] Am Yisrael with soft words.

If we do teshuva, but not completely, meaning with full, heart-felt intention, we will need to complete the relative portion with suffering, the very difficult ‘birthpangs of the Moshiach’, rachmana litzan (Hashem should have mercy).

Therefore, everyone should come, like one man, with one heart, let’s pray together, let’s do teshuva from love, and let’s merit to have geula b’rachamim (redemption with mercy), TODAY! If we will only listen to his voice.

But it’s 100%, that we will not return to the ‘routine’ again.

We are in the final process of geula, Am Yisrael, and how it’s going to come – either with din (harsh judgment) or rachamim (mercy) depends on us.”

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I don’t need to tell you what the last three months of a pregnancy are like.

Extrapolate for yourselves, and know that this is what we are heading into, starting August 10th, 2020.

But take heart!

This is all just a means to a spiritual end, and something very good is going to flower from the ashes of this corrupt world that is currently winding down.

Let’s give the last words to Rabbi Eliezer Berland:

THOSE SIX YEARS FROM 5776 UNTIL 5781, THESE ARE YEARS OF REDEMPTION.

THESE ARE YEARS IN WHICH THE PEOPLE OF ISRAEL WILL DO TESHUVA, THE BIGGEST CRIMINALS WILL DO TESHUVA, BECAUSE THERE ARE NO SECULAR IN THE JEWISH PEOPLE, AND THERE ARE NO CRIMINALS AMONG THE PEOPLE OF ISRAEL, AND NO WICKED PEOPLE OF ISRAEL.

“These are all just stages in the salvation, it’s all stages in the development of the soul, in accepting the parts of the soul, the biggest gangster in the end will become the most righteous man.”

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I’ve been quoting this passage for four years, and it’s written in the first Volume of One in a Generation I.

We are seeing it play out before our eyes.

So hold on!

But also carry on working on your middot and emuna.

Because that is the whole point of the madness that’s going on with COVID-19.

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Last week was really tough, mentally.

Here in Israel, the corrupt government that is simply the ‘operations arm’ of the vested interests in chutz l’aretz was pushing really, really hard to shut down the whole economy again, and go back into full lockdown.

Their ‘excuse’ was the big rise in the numbers of people testing positive for Covid-19.

Again, the more people you test, the more people you’ll find to have Covid. And that’s assuming that the tests are being done in an honest way, which as the President of Tanzania discovered many weeks ago, is not even the case.

That is why a papaya fruit can apparently have Covid.

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If you look at the numbers of deaths attributed to Covid-19 in Israel, they are totally tiny.

Here’s the latest figures from the Worldometer website, and you’ll see that in the middle of this fake ‘second wave’ in Israel – hardly anyone is dying.

(All this info is coming from the Worldometer site, check it out yourself here).

Here’s the ‘peak’ of the cases from the so-called first wave, back in April 02, when Israel had 765 new COVID-19 cases a day:

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And here’s the death rate from that same period of time, in April, when the maximum daily deaths was 13 old people:

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And here’s the figures from today, first the number of daily cases:

And here’s the number of deaths (apparently from COVID-19, but who knows how all these figures are really being arrived at)- 9 dead people:

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This is not a pandemic, and it’s barely even an epidemic:

https://justthenews.com/politics-policy/coronavirus/covid-19-close-losing-its-epidemic-status-us-according-cdc

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But in the meantime, there’s an agenda to get the whole country shut down again, and to push millions of people into poverty, so they are dependent on government handouts just to buy food, which gives the government a powerful amount of control over what they have to do to keep getting the handouts.

Like, being forced to have a vaccine ‘against Covid-19’.

Like, being told that if they protest against the government, or fail to jump through any of the hoops being set up, however ridiculous, to ‘fight against Covid-19’, they can kiss goodbye to their handout.

David Ben Gurion’s Labor Socialists perfected the art of co-opting people’s human rights many decades ago, by making ‘work’ reliant on voting for Labor and joining the histadrut, and what we’re witnessing now is just more of the same, updated for 2020.

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So, between that, and the ridiculous heavy-handed enforcement of mask wearing – even in the fresh air, even when you’re by yourself, even if you’ve already had Covid and recovered from it many months ago – I started to feel really down and anxious again.

It crescendoed last Thursday, when all the fake science seemed to be working again, and the corrupt Government started sending ‘messages’ via the media that a full, Passover-style lockdown was about to be put in place again.

When I heard that, I panicked.

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Not the same panic I had the first time around, when I stockpiled literally 30 bars of chocolate, and bought every tin of tuna in sight.

It was more the panic of having to shop, cook and clean for a whole houseful of people again, for weeks and maybe months, with no break or let-up.

Now, I love my family a lot. My husband is great, my teens are wonderful, and their friends are likewise (mostly….) amazing.

That said, I’m a solitary writer by profession, and temperamentally, I’m just one of those people who really needs my own space, to not crack up and freak out. Usually when things get to cracking point, I book a ticket to Uman and get my ‘space’ that way.

Or, I’ll book something quiet in Israel for a couple of days, and get my ‘space’ that way.

But when I heard we were going into full lockdown again – after months and months of ridiculous restrictions that are 100% about controlling people and zero percent about controlling Covid – I panicked.

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Because on Wednesday, I asked my husband to book us a Shabbat away, up North, on a frum moshav where there’s a lot of the tzaddikim from the Gemara buried around.

And then it looked like the government was going into ‘lock everyone down from Thursday to Sunday’ mode Thursday night.

And so, I started to feel profoundly anxious and scared again, for a lot of reasons, partially because my ‘space’ looked like it was disappearing again, and partly because it’s so depressing to see how many people are buying all this ridiculous, evidence-free propaganda about Covid-19 and facemasks.

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They want to wear us all down, you know.

That’s what they are really after. They want to create so much yeoush, so much helplessness, so much despair, that we all just wave the white flag and roll over.

Yeah, give me the vaccine that will probably sterilize me (at best…) or otherwise change my DNA permanently and / or kill me! I’m desperate to get out the house and go to the beach again…

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So, the yeoush was starting to build up again, and the anxiety was starting to mount, on Thursday.

Which led me to do a few things, as follows:

  • Chase the printers for the last 100 copies of the Rav’s books, reprinting One in a Generation #1 – because each copy of the Rav’s books that gets physically printed is literally killing millions and billions of shedim and removing harsh judgments from the world.

It’s no coincidence that we were somehow able to print 1,000 books last week, just as they were gearing up to impose another disastrous ‘lockdown’ on everyone.

  • Get more of the Rav’s prayers translated and up on the site.

A few weeks ago, the Rav asked for 10 more prayers a week again, and miraculously, that’s been happening. We have one more batch to go, and then we’ll be able to put out another book, BH, called Rabbi Berland’s Prayers to Have Holy Children.

  • Make an effort to continue my plans to go up North for Shabbat, and to hit every kever tzaddik I could find.

In the end, we visited 13 holy tombs – including Reish Lekish – and then ended up ‘visiting’ the Rav in Tzalmon Prison, too, before we ended up driving back.

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I felt so filled up after doing all that, and some sense of optimism returned.

I came home yesterday night, expecting to hear that we were heading into full lockdown mode and more tyrannical madness again.

Instead, the headlines are making it clear that more and more people are starting to see through this Covid-19 con.

Some MKs are actually starting to demand hard evidence for lockdowns, instead of just pushing the panic button and closing down the whole economy again.

More and more people are protesting, and calling out what’s going on for what it really is: a calculated grab for more power and more control over people’s lives, that has NOTHING to do with public health whatsoever.

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In other words, things are being sweetened again.

The Rav’s mesirut nefesh, and all the books and the prayers are working again, behind the scenes.

And the light at the end of the tunnel has returned.

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POSTSCRIPT:

In between writing this and posting this up, I had a conversation with an old friend who is immune-compromised, and hasn’t been out of her house since March.

She basically told me that anyone who isn’t wearing a mask 100% of the time outside is a murderer.

She literally said that.

We had a big argument about just how much control we really have over ‘COVID-19’ – or any other illness, for that matter – and every time she accused me of ‘not caring about other people enough to wear a mask’ I accused her of ‘not caring about other people enough to want a million people to be unemployed, and unable to put food on the table.’

It was epic.

Even though I kept throwing one bit of science after another at her – about the true death rates, about the fake science about facemasks and social distancing – and even gloves! Yes, she’s one of the few people in Israel who still believes wearing gloves 24/7 is mandatory for ‘fighting COVID-19’, but couldn’t explain to me how that is meant to be helping anyone….

She finally just told me:

“It doesn’t matter what you tell me, I’m not going to change my mind’.

Just like this guy:

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So at that point, I gave up, told her she’s a great person (she really is) and let her ‘win’ the argument by just staying quiet.

Sigh.

This is going to be an uphill battle, still.

Hashem y’azor.

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UPDATE:

Check out this video, which kinds of sums up the facemask problem, and the facts and the science behind this subject, in less than 5 minutes.

https://www.bitchute.com/video/Xv35PMDHqDu5/

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UPDATE #2:

Jeremy M, in the comments section, sent me a link to this video apparently showing a guy wearing a N95 facemask for 15 minutes, with no drop in oxygen levels.

Sceptic that I am, I instantly got suspicious when the video started jumping all over the place, and was clearly cut, then speeded up to be 15 minutes.

You want to ‘prove’ something scientifically? Keep the video running the whole 15 minutes, speeded up, but so that every single frame is accounted for, so we know you aren’t taking your mask off for 20 seconds off-camera before taking an oxygen measurement again.

So, I slowed it down and went frame by frame, and whaddya know? There’s funny business going on here.

Here’s some screen shots, but please, don’t take my word for this. Go do the experiment yourself, and see with your own eyes how we’re being manipulated 24/7 by fake news and ‘fake’ science.

First, let’s remind ourselves of the medical definition of hypoxia, or dangerously reduced oxygen levels in the blood, which occurs from 92% down:

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Now, here’s some screen shots to show how the video jumped around, and how the measurements being shown to the camera were NOT the same measurements actually being recorded. This strongly suggests to me that he was taking the mask off, off-camera, breathing some air to get the oxygen levels back up, then re-masking and remeasuring ‘on camera’.

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This next example is even more blatantly manipulated.

After 11 minutes of wearing the mask (apparently…) the blood oxygen level is clearly showing 94% – just 2% above the level considered ‘hypoxic’.

This measurement is only identifiable if you slow the video way down, and take it frame-by-frame.

But in the next frame where he’s showing the blood oximeter close up to the camera, something strange has happened.

Approximately 25 seconds have gone by which are ‘unaccounted for’ in the video, and the blood oxygen level is miraculously back up to 99%.

He took the frigging mask off, off-camera, for 20 seconds then spliced the video together to show ‘99% blood oxygen’ a couple of seconds after replacing it.

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No-one can breathe properly in the N95 masks.

I have one, I’ve tried it myself. I’ve watched other people wearing them, their breathing is labored and obviously lacking a full intake of breath, i.e. oxygen.

This guy is lying through his teeth.

Why, I don’t know.

But watch the video, slow it down, and come to your own conclusions.

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The subliminal stress is through the roof at the moment.

As soon as I leave the house, and I see the masks, or I see the cops, I start to remember that we’re in this crazy Purimshpiel called ‘Coronavirus’ again.

And it’s pretty stressful, even though I know it’s leading to geula the hopefully sweet way, and a much, much better world than we currently live in. The problem is, we are in that ‘in-between’ stage at the moment, when the revealed good still hasn’t been so revealed, while the revealed bad is going all out, because it’s the last chance it has to make it’s bid for global domination.

It’s pretty stressful.

Then, I remind myself that the Israelites in Egypt still had to work, and carry on with ‘pretend normal’ for the first 3 of the 10 plagues, and it seems to me, that was probably the most head-wrecking time of all, because even after the Nile turned to blood, and the frogs were croaking all over the place, and the lice were on every Egyptian head and every Egyptian body – the media were still just blaming all that on global warming.

And the Israelites were still expected to turn out every morning to go to work in the Egyptian civil service, and Nile-Mart was still selling BBQs for half price, and Mr and Mrs Levy were still trying to get a mortgage sorted out on the new pyramid project being built in Harish before the next plague hit and closed the economy down permanently.

Pretty stressful.

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So anyway, the subliminal stress has been really high recently, probably for all of us.

Since the full lockdown in Israel ended a couple of months ago, me and my husband have been taking every opportunity we can to do all the things we wanted to do, but didn’t have the time or motivation for, before.

And top of the list is going to visit kivrei tzaddikim, or holy graves of dead holy Jews.

Last week, I booked us to go to the graves of Calev and Yehoshua in Kifel Haris, and also to the grave of Yosef HaTzaddik, in Shechem. Because both places were given away to the Palestinians under Oslo, those visits need to be arranged with an IDF escort, you can’t just drive in yourself (although some people still do….)

But I’m not on that level, so I booked our armored buses, and I was really looking forward to going.

Of course, it got cancelled.

Because of ‘COVID-19’.

(I am doing ‘whatever’ fingers, writing this.)

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So instead, I decided to seek out some of the other tombs we haven’t been to visit yet.

Last week, we went to the grave of Yehuda, buried in the middle of a small park surrounded by new apartment buildings in Yehud.

And yesterday, we went to the graves of Binyamin and Shimon – also both sons of the Patriarch Yaakov – who are buried off Route 55, near to Kfar Saba, about a 10 minute drive apart.

We got to Binyamin first, and the car park next to it was full of cars. The site itself was also full of people – mostly Na-Nachs – and there was a very sociable vibe going on. Tables were set up for a haluka, the ceremony where you give a 3 year old boy his first haircut, teenagers were smoking a nargila in one of the structures of to the side, and elsewhere, there were scores of men gathered to hear a shiur.

After all the police enforcement in Jerusalem, it was a really nice change, but still a little bizarre, to say the least.

I turned into the blue-domed structure housing the tomb of Binyamin the son of Yaakov, and there was one other young woman there – wearing a facemask – who left after a couple of minutes.

It was 4.30 in the afternoon, and I still hadn’t said my morning brachot, so I found a siddur, sat on the bench, struggled to say the brachot…then fell asleep with my head on the tomb. That doesn’t happen a lot, but whenever it happens, I always feel something ‘big’ has shifted, spiritually – so big, that I can only actually deal with it by being asleep.

Half an hour later, I woke up, went to find my patient husband (who was catching the shiur, after he’d peeked in and saw I’d fallen asleep) – and then we headed off to Kever Shimon.

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Kever Shimon is located in a lonely field, right next to Route 6.

From the dirt track that leads on to it, it looks as though it’s surrounded by brambles and thorns. We walked through them, until we realised that you could drive down the road a little further on, and turn in.

The grave itself was open, covered in memorial candles and tikkun haklalis – and otherwise totally deserted.

The contrast between Binyamin and Shimon was profound.

I sat on the one chair to recite a couple of tikkun haklalis, while my husband wandered around to say his.

It was such a calm vibe there.

I loved it.

I really felt as though the half an hour I spent there filled me up with enough koach to keep going this week, because sometimes it’s hard to keep going.

Sigh.

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I know we’re all feeling it at the moment.

I’m trying to concentrate on keeping things as ‘normal’ as I can for my teens, and to keep things going as smoothly as I can on the home front, while the 10 plagues continue to play out past the front door step.

Go and re-book your driving test!!! I tell my teens.

Even though the world is going to change radically very soon, I still want you to be able to drive the car to the supermarket!!!

(For as long as it exists….)

Sigh.

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All I can do, is carry on going to the Kivrei Tzaddikim, for as long as I’m able to, and to continue talking to God about everything that’s happening, to try and stay as close to Him as I can, while the madness continues to play out.

I think there’s another 5 months of this, until November 9th.

And I think it’s going to up another level August 9th, in the ‘last trimester’, and get even more intense than it is now.

I have to pace myself.

And staying close to the true tzaddikim, alive and dead, are a big part of that.

For as long as I can continue to do it.

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Photo by Adam Nieścioruk on Unsplash

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If you want to know what I’m basing the ‘nine months’ on, taking us up to November 9th, 2020, take a look at this:

 

 

 

 

 

This is going to be a mish-mash post.

Like so many of you, dear readers, I’m also struggling a bit to manage the ongoing madness that is life in ‘Corona-world’.

For example, this week we were trying to finalise the mortgage approval, that we last had finalised two days before Israel went into full lock down for almost 3 months, back in February.

I spent Sunday standing outside a bank for an hour (with my poor husband), trying fruitlessly to gain entrance for 5 minutes, to get something signed off. We didn’t have an appointment, so we were barred from popping in, now, by the Orwellian Health Ministry.

So then, I came home and spent more than 30 minutes listening to ‘muzak’ while I tried to speak to a real person who would help me get an appointment for the next day.

The next day, we spent 10 minutes in the queue, waiting to be let in for our pre-booked appointment – and even then, it wasn’t a certain thing that we’d be allowed in.

We get in, see the bank manager, see the deputy bank manager (neither of whom were wearing masks, as that’s just for the poor plebs who don’t work for the government), get the signatures required – and then at the last minute, the deputy bank manager told us he just needed to check something out.

I’ll call you tomorrow, to come pick up your documents, he told me.

My heart sank.

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Yesterday, he didn’t call me. Nor my husband.

So today, I girded my loins, stuck the stupid mask over most of my face (but still under the nose, so I could actually breathe) and returned to the bank.

I get there – and all the lights are off and it’s totally deserted. At 11am in the morning of a working day.

There’s a big notice on the door, informing customers that they can do everything they need to by phone, or via app, or on the website – lies, lies and more lies – and even if they can’t, TOUGH!!!!

Because the Orwellian Ministry of Health has decided to shut the bank down because of Corona.

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That was the last bit of paperwork we (apparently….) needed to get the mortgage finally approved, just 4 months late.

I don’t know what’s happened to it, or what we’re meant to do next.

One thing is clear to me, tho, is that no economy can carry on like this for long, even if they don’t totally lock everyone down again – which of course, they really want to do.

That’s what this fake ‘spike’ is all about, make no mistake.

Before we continue, here’s a few bits of information that I found very interesting.

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INTERESTING INFO NUMBER 1: SIEGAL SADETSKY’S CONNECTION TO THE WORLD HEALTH ORGANISATION (WHO)

You already know that the Israeli Health Ministry’s main fearmongering guy was Itamar Grotto, who we discovered CO-INC-ID-EN-TAL-LY sits on the WHO’s board – only the second Israeli to ever be given that honor.

On May 2018, Prof. Itamar Grotto was elected as a member of the Executive Board of the World Health Organization as a representative of Israel and the European Region.

Grotto kind of fell out of favor, and stopped being taken so seriously when:

a) None of his awful predictions materialised

b) He was busted letting in billionaires and celebs to Israel, in blatant contravention of the quarantine rules he was pushing on everyone else.

So then, the fearmongering flag was fearlessly hoisted in the Health Ministry by Professor Siegal Sadetsky. Here’s what I just learned about her, from here, another big WHO CO-IN-CID-EN-CE:

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(I’m screenshotting everything these days, as it’s amazing how fast the information tends to disappear, once it’s put in its proper context).

The two things that caught my eye in this bio are:

  1. Professor Sadetsky was seconded to the WHO’s ‘Emergency Operations’ department in the Regional Office for Europe, in 2018 – the same time that Grotto got elevated to the WHO’s board.
  2. Professor Sadetsky’s field of expertise is the health effects of non-ionising radiation.

CO-IN-CID-EN-TAL-LY, non-ionising radiation figures very big in things like the five gee (spelled out, to avoid automatic Google censoring), where ‘experts’ tell us that we have nothing to worry about, health-wise, from the roll out of that network, because the radiation involved is non-ionising.

Here’s one article (of about, say a billion….) written by a medical doctor, who vehemently disagrees with that assessment:

https://www.thelibertybeacon.com/is-non-ionising-radiation-really-safe-lets-talk-5g-cell-microwave-technologies/

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And if you like that one, here’s a few more by the same author:

Related 5G Radiation articles from TLB:

MOST DANGEROUS THING WE FACE IS BEING ROLLED OUT NOW, & YOU’RE SUICIDAL IF YOU DO NOTHING

5G Telecomm Radiation Is the Perfect Tool to Mass Modify Human Brain Waves

University Researches Potential Health Impacts Of 5G

Individual Cell Towers In Neighborhoods And On Community Streets Requested By Industry

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So many of the ‘weird’ symptoms attributed to COVID-19 were actually exactly the same sorts of symptoms that occur when you’re dealing with (ir)radiation sickness.

There are some people on the web suggesting that COVID-19 was rolled out as a fake ‘pandemic’ to try to mask the enormous impact the radiation from the five gee network is (inevitably….) having on the human body. They say it’s no CO-IN-CID-EN-CE that the 3 biggest ‘hotspots’ for COVID-19 were also five gee test cities, namely: Wuhan, Milan, NYC.

The idea is, that the gullible public believe the businessmen and WHO officials telling us that non-ionising radiation is totally fine and has no bad health effects, while simultaneously believing them that ‘COVID-19’ is the thing responsible for all the weird, unexplainable symptoms that mimic non-ionising radiation sickness.

See this for more:

One of the most extensively documented observations in epidemiological studies is the increased prevalence of anxiety and depression in women when compared to men 6. The association between exposure to non-ionizing electromagnetic radiation/mobile telephony and these psychiatric effects has been investigated. Santini et al. 7 indicated more significant symptoms within a radius of 300m from the mobile phone base stations: irritability, depression, memory loss, dizziness, decreased libido, headache, sleep disorders, malaise (200m); and tiredness (300m).

Seven symptoms were more significant in women: nausea, loss of appetite, visual disorders, depressive tendency, headache, insomnia, and malaise. Decreased libido was the most common complaint in men. According to Navarro et al. 8 and Bortkiewicz et al. 9, individuals living close to the mobile phone base stations reported circulatory problems, sleep disorders, irritability, depression, blurred vision, and difficulties in concentrating.

Meanwhile, Abdel-Rassoul et al. 10 suggested a relationship between living near a mobile phone bases station and neurobehavioral problems like depressive tendency, tremors, dizziness, headache, sleep disorders, and visual disorders, among others. Likewise, Oberfeld et al. 11 found that persons living close to base stations reported more symptoms of irritability, fatigue, headache, nausea, memory loss, visual disturbances, dizziness, and cardiovascular problems, directly proportional to their exposure to microwaves.

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Then, these crazy conspiracy theorists say, the idea is to come along with a ‘vaccine’ to ‘cure’ COVID-19 – that is really just people reacting to all the non-ionising radiation washing around from all the cell phone masts being installed from five gee – which will actually kill off around 5 billion people, leaving the planet to the rich billionaires and other ‘enlightened’ eugenecists that are running modern science.

Ha.

That would be quite an unbelievable CO-INC-ID-EN-CE, wouldn’t it?

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In the meantime, here’s the second piece of interesting information I saw today, and then I’ll tell you some good news, for a change:

Some doctors in Israel are starting to publicise that not everyone who died from ‘Corona’ actually died from Corona.

Rather, they died because ‘mistakes’ were made by medical personnel, that killed them.

See more HERE:

‘Some of the coronavirus patients died because of mistakes by hospital staff

Hospital official says some coronavirus patients died ‘not because of the disease, but serious mistakes. I’ve never seen such big mistakes.’

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Personally, I’d love to know exactly what these ‘big mistakes’ actually were, and whether they involved stabbing people in the heart, or placing a pillow over their faces, and other understandable medical ‘mistakes’ like that.

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So now, the good news:

Baruch Hashem, we are in the middle of printing 1,000 copies of Rav Berland’s books, in English, in Israel.

The only way we can really fight the evil that is engulfing the world in any real way is by spreading the Rav’s light, and getting more people behind him, and in his camp.

The printer is doing 100 copies of each of Rav Berland’s English books, and it will be first come, first served.

I don’t know what the prices will be yet – we’ll keep it as close to cost price as we can, but all ‘profit’ will just be used to print more books, if there is a growing demand for them. And I also don’t know how we are going to get them to people, or whether they will just have to come pick them up from Jerusalem.

But if you want one – or some – or a lot – of the Rav’s books in Israel, and you haven’t been able to get them delivered because of Amazon’s ban on sending those books here, NOW IS YOUR CHANCE!

You can go to the Ravberland.com website, and pre-order the books you want.

If you can’t see your book yet, wait patiently – I’m going to go over there now, once I’m done here, and stick them all up so you can see what’s available.

IT’S FIRST COME, FIRST SERVED, so don’t leave it too long.

And BH, we will print more in the future, if there is a demand for them. That part is really up to you.

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I know, it’s frustrating and upsetting for everyone right now.

And also not a little bit scary.

But the books and the prayers are changing everything, mamash.

So, if you feel like you want to ‘do something’ to strike a blow for justice, freedom and Hashem, here’s your chance.

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OH, and one more thing:

The earthquakes are radically picking up again over the next 7-10 days.

Here’s the latest Dutchsinse video, below, and here’s the ‘blurb’ summing up what he’s saying:

This is go time, next 7-10 days should bring us major seismic unrest across the Pacific, multiple locations named in the video spanning from Indonesia North to Japan.

East Pacific, Asia, Europe, and even the USA should ALL be hit by a major increase at least 1 magnitude higher at each location than current activity. Plus expect very large earthquake activity near M7.6 in addition to several upper M5.0 to low M6.0 range events to spread from Nepal to Greece, from Japan to Alaska, and from Fiji to Chile.

As if a 7.6 isn’t enough to watch for additional M7.0 range compensation may strike the EAST pacific in Central America going south towards Colombia (south of the previous M7.4) and watching Baja still from this past week to top it all off (for M6.0 range). This next 7-10 day period should be excessive in terms of seismic and volcanic activity (if the deep earthquakes are being reported accurately that is to say).

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One way or another, things are going to start shaking around here.

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PS: Rav Pinto is apparently in urgent need of our prayers. I got this from a reader:

“Hi idk if you heard but Rav Pinto it seems has been hospitalized as is his health is very precarious it’s been teetering the last couple months on and off And one point recently on shabbat he thought it was over…He had to make a Kabbala he says to save himself….

My point of this reachout is to see if u would make a article or insert this information for ppl to daven and I have an audio from this past January where the Rav was asked about a bracha for Rav Pinto and the Rav said everyone should give 1K Shekel now it could be the Rav was meaning everyone from Shuva Yisroel who knows but for anyone who knows him follows him holds of him and can afford it maybe it should be put out there and then perhaps the article will get sent around and ppl from Shuva Yisroel will act on it from what I’ve seen in my experience.”

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In every marathon, there comes a point where we ‘hit the wall’.

In running parlance, it’s that moment when you literally feel like you’ve totally run out of energy, and you can’t continue a second longer.

There’s a bunch of technical explanations for why that happens, but basically your standard reserves of energy deplete, and then, unless the body can access it’s deeper resources, you collapse in a puddle, unable to move forward.

As with the body, so with the soul.

Yesterday night, I ‘hit the wall’ spiritually.

God, I can’t continue like this any more, trying to run away from ‘COVID-19’ and the evil police state 24/7…

Not that I haven’t been trying.

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Since all this started kicking off back in February, I’ve been engaged in one long, extended stress response to what’s going on, after another.

I’ve raged and ranted and actively tried to resist = ANGER.

I’ve also run away – about 32 different times – to different spots all across the country, where the rules are a little more relaxed, and I can get away with breathing fresh air and not wearing a face mask = FLIGHT.

I’ve had moments of black despair, where I couldn’t summon the will to even get out of bed (at least, for a couple of hours…) because the picture just looks so bleak, and depressing, and I’ve felt so powerless to change anything = FREEZE.

But the one thing I HAVEN’T done is try to ignore ‘the problem’ – as ginormous as it’s looming – to just try and pretend that it’s business as usual, and everything will be OK. That superficial, everything-is-A-OK sort of BS is a typical FLATTER response, and as you might have noticed, I have very little ‘FLATTER’ in my personality.

But yesterday, I hit the wall on the other 3 stress responses, which means that FLATTER is what I’ve got left to try, going forward.

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In the People Smarts personality system, I spelled out how these 4 stress responses are the often negative ‘flip side’ of some very positive character traits.

ANGER = MOTIVATION, on the positive side.

FLIGHT = CONNECTION

FREEZE = PHILOSOPHICAL THINKING, and

FLATTER = BUILDING.

Building doesn’t just mean that you go out and build a house, or a barn, or a shed. It means all those grounding, nurturing, stabilising activities that are often so very gashmius, but which are nevertheless a crucial part of being able to function in the world without going bonkers.

As you might have noticed, I’ve had very little of that BUILDING stuff going on recently, as I had a massive reaction to lockdown which saw me scuddering off into FLIGHT anyway I can, while I can still move 100 metres beyond my house, without getting ‘permission’ from the corrupt politicians and bureaucrats.

And so, I crashed.

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This morning, I realised I have to make a few big changes to my priorities.

I will still be commenting on current affairs as and when I feel the need, but in terms of unpicking COVID-19 – I’m going to leave that to others for now.

Because while other people can go and look up THE FLEMING FUND, and then can go and read articles about NSO Group’s ‘Pegasus‘ phone spying software (that is definitely on your SmartPhone already, make no mistake, and being used already, regardless of any official ‘legislation’ enabling the ShinBet to do that legally, please don’t fool yourself) – and they can also look up NSO Group’s ‘FLEMING’ technology, and can start to question those CO-IN-CID-ENCES themselves, and join some dots themselves….

No-one else can write One in a Generation #3.

And that’s what is really going to make all the difference here, between the ‘Great Reset’ happening their way, or happening the Moshiach and geula-coming-the-sweet-way, way.

If you have no idea what I’m talking about, watch this, (shmirat eynayim friendly).

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Here’s something else I realised this morning:

I have to take the plunge, and get the Rav’s books printed in Israel.

It’s going to cost a small fortune, but now that the corrupt Israeli police made it next to impossible to raise funds, legitimately, for things like printing the Rav’s books without risking an ‘interview’ with the Shin Bet, what can I do?

The plan is to try to print 100 of each of the Rav’s books, here in Israel, and then see if we can sell them.

My husband is already panicking that we’re going to be tripping over boxes of ‘Advice’ and ‘Miracles’ for the next 12 years – but I’m more optimistic than that.

I know that sooner or later, the penny will drop that getting behind the Rav, and learning his Torah, and spreading his light, is the best – and increasingly only – option we have, for really fighting the forces of evil in the world.

The Rav himself said that getting his books out there is destroying all the tumah and evil in the world, and each time a new book comes out, I see another surprising development occurs very shortly afterwards.

“There is such great dinim and tumah in the world, but my books and my writings, the Torah and the prayers, are cleaning and purifying all the judgments and the tumah from the world.”

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FOR EXAMPLE.

Last week, Rabbi Eliezer Berland’s Advice for Success and Happiness came out on Amazon.

That same day, Jeffrey Epstein came back into the headlines, as all the evil, yukky people connected to him – and this whole massive COVID-19 scam – started to be put back into the spotlight.

Today, Ghislaine Maxwell got arrested.

That is huge.

It’s going to affect everything, I don’t know how, but I just know it will.

So, I’m getting back on with the job of getting the Rav’s books written and printed, and then we’ll just watch all this evil implode by itself, shall we?

Because at this point, I have run out of energy to do anything else.

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I know everyone’s brain is fried out, so let’s make this as simple as possible.

Today, the Ynet website reported that the State of Israel has now conducted more than a million COVID-19 tests.

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This is a crucial piece of information.

Over on the Worldometer website HERE, we can see that the total number of Coronavirus cases in Israel, as of July 1, 2020, stands at:

25,547

Now, let’s do the maths.

25,547 cases divided by 1,000,000 tests = an infection rate of just 0.0255, or approximately 2.5%.

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Now, let’s do some more maths.

As of July 1, 2020, the mortality from COVID-19 (which only kills old people with existing serious health conditions) is just 320 deaths since the first death occurred on March 20, 2020 – that’s a 100 days ago.

If 320 people are dying per million people in Israel, and the Israeli population is approximately 8.9 million, that means that 2,880 old, sick people in total could die in Israel from COVID-19 in total, if everyone caught it.

To put this another way, the MORTALITY rate for COVID-19 per million people is just: 0.032%.

If you go to the CDC website HERE, you’ll see that the average mortality rate for an average flu in the US is 2%.

COVID-19 is killing way less than a quarter of the people who die from flu, in an average year.

DOES THAT SOUND LIKE A ‘PANDEMIC’ TO YOU?

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There is clearly something else going on here, some other agenda.

Three days ago, I tripped over a whole load of information – hidden in plain view – which explains a little more of what is really happening, and why.

After that research, I got a migraine for two days….

All this is so very heavy.

And all this can so easily stress me out of my eyeballs, dint my joie de vivre and take me away from feeling Hashem’s kindness and love.

None of that is helpful.

So, while I’m figuring out what God really wants me to be doing with all this information that I just keep gathering and gathering and gathering, I decided that the main thing I have to work on is nullifying myself to Hashem’s will.

It’s really hard.

Particularly around the subject of face masks, because I know it’s totally BS, and based on a falsified COVID ‘pandemic’ that really isn’t.

But what else can I do, right now?

I’m running out of energy to keep pointing out the obvious. Either more people will see what’s going on, and acknowledge that something is very wrong with this picture, or they won’t.

And then, either more people will start to realise that getting behind our true tzaddikim – especially Rav Berland – is the only way to really be able to stand up in this test, or they won’t.

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In the meantime, I’m continuing to pack in ‘real life’ as much as I can, into every day.

So today, I went wading through a desert stream near Jerusalem with a couple of friends, which was totally awesome.

For as long as we can, we must.

We only have today.

And we all need to maximise this opportunity to fill our souls up with fresh air and emuna as much as possible, before the next stage begins.

And that could be any day soon.

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UPDATE:

I just got sent this over email, by one of my favorite correspondents:

Hang in there. It’s getting stranger and stranger. I don’t know about you but for some reason I actually feel more at home with “strange” than with “not-strange.” Rabbi Manis Friedman said, a few months ago, within all this, that “soon, we are going to see evil in places where we never thought to see evil, and good in places where we never thought we’d see good. It’s going to look real bad, but not to worry. When the evil has so much self-confidence that it reveals itself openly, that’s it’s downfall. It can only exist when it’s not seen. Its pride is causing it to fall…”

And now, I’ve just read the piece my correspondent linked to, which is also a very important read.

In a nutshell, the reason so many people are blindly going along with all the lies we’re being told is because they are operating from a place of constricted consciousness, or mochin de-katnut. 

But God wants us to move out of that immature mental state, and into mochin de-gadlut, or expanded consciousness, ahead of Moshiach showing up.

And the COVID con may just be the thing that’s finally going to get humanity to grow up, and to become the spiritual, wise and compassionate people God designed us to be.

You can read the piece HERE – it describes what’s going on in emotional / psychological parlance, but it’s basically describing the mechanism of why we are stuck in mochin de-katnut, and what it’s going to take to move to mochin de-gadlut.

And then when you’re done, check this out, too:

Are you questioning the dominant narrative?

Check out questioningcovid.com, where clinicians, researchers, and health experts from around the world are interrogating the mainstream narrative around the pandemic.

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Here’s a snippet from that piece, on the KellyBroganMD website:

So what is it that doesn’t make sense?

Is it:

  • that many medical experts have actually downgraded the potential threat of Covid-19 from initial projections by orders of magnitude, including Dr. Anthony Fauci himself, in a New England Journal of Medicine report where he wrote that “the overall clinical consequences of Covid-19 may ultimately be more akin to a severe seasonal influenza (which has a case fatality rate of approximately 0.1%) …” yet we are seeing unprecedented, draconian style control measures being implemented by executive order?

  • that there were staged planning events in October 2019 including Urban Outbreak and Event 201nationwide CDC Quarantine Program job postings from November of 2019, a coronavirus patentWorld Bank pandemic bonds, well in advance of when this pandemic supposedly started, and spontaneously erupted and disseminated globally in a manner that could never be explained through person to person contagion?

  • that doctors are being told to code all deaths as covid without so much as the facade of testing when up to 99% of case fatalities are in individuals with multiple pre-existing conditions, the vast majority of them elderly?

  • that hospitals are supposedly full to the brim with intubated patients when hospital staff are being laid off or furloughed, and whistleblowers are speaking to iatrogenic harm and death (including through intubation) being systematically committed by physicians?

  • that the plan for “return to normal” is being dictated by an unelected software technocrat who happens to also fund GMOs (including non-meat synthetic products), 5G, all of the labs currently working on the vaccine, implantable tracking devices, and the WHO?

  • that people were dying en masse from all manner of preventable illnesses ranging from obesity to hunger to properly prescribed medications with no historical precedent for governmental intervention around these far deadlier epidemics, but now we are to believe that the government cares so much about us that it will “keep us safe” even against our will?

  • that we should consent to be traced and tracked as law-abiding, healthy civilians even when convicted felons and many sex offenders are not?

  • that facial coverings ranging from a scarf to a reused surgical mask with mm pore sizes are going to “keep out” what we are calling a virus which is nm in diameter? 1

  • that mask-wearing has been enforced when the Surgeon General, the WHO and even Fauci say to not wear them, and elected officials congregated on television have never worn them?

  • that Walmart, Target, and Costco are open while small businesses, parks, and beaches have been shuttered since March 14th, many of which will remain permanently closed due to the irreversible economic impacts of the shutdown?

  • that the list of the virus’s associated symptoms have grown and changed, all the while without there being unequivocal evidence of the virus’s point-of-origin in isolation in Wuhan or proof of global contagion?

  • that 5G networks are being installed during a time of “essential work only” in every major metropolitan area while we are quarantined in our homes?

  • that the immune system thrives on diversity of exposure, sunlight, time in nature and in loving company of others, but we are being told to hide alone, indoors?

  • that 30 million people in this country alone have suddenly lost their jobs through “essential business” restrictions, however there happened to be a 1000 page piece of legislation spontaneously prepared to institute the roll out of a system of government handouts and cashless currency?

  • that numbers of cases are determined through testing methods that do not confirm Covid-19, have tested positive in fruit and animals, and which the test inventor said should not be used to identify a specific disease?

Rabbenu famously taught that even ‘stupid words’ – mila de’shtuta – have a spiritual value.

It’s slow posting on the blog at the moment, for a few different reasons. I’m collecting the material for OIAG3, and that is taking a lot of time (and also, getting a lot of things to start moving, behind the scenes….).

And I’m also trying to make the most of every moment before the Three Weeks begins, to get out of the house and visit kivrei Tzaddikim, and to do a bunch of things that have been on my list for a long time, before the authorities use the fake Corona ‘second wave’ to try to close it all down again.

And lastly, I have so very much to write, so very much to share, that I kind of don’t know where to start.

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We’re all totally in limbo at the moment.

Stuck between what was, and what will be.

And that’s a very hard place to be in, mentally. Human beings do so much better, mentally, when they have some form of certainty – even when it’s ‘bad’ – than when they have no idea what’s coming next, and how to try to prepare themselves mentally for it.

So, that’s why we’re all stressed and atzbani at the moment – frustrated, upset, angry, lacking patience.

It’s totally normal and natural to be feeling this way right now, so let’s all keep giving ourselves – and others – a break.

That still means we apologise when we act like a nob to other people, and that we take responsibility for our actions, but in a laid-back way that doesn’t dramatise stuff, over over-hype things.

No big deal. Really.

Even if it really is the end of the world.

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A really helpful part of this coping strategy is what Rabbenu calls ‘stupid words’, or mila de-shtuta.

The Na-Nach guys are really good at mila de-shtuta. They’ve taken this part of Rabbenu’s Torah, and raised it to an art-form, as you can you can see a little in the clip below:

 

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Here’s what Rabbenu says in Likutey Moharan 2:24:

Mitzvah gadoleh l’hiot b’simcha – it’s a great mitzvah, to be happy at all times, and to invest all of our effort into banishing sadness and depression. All illnesses that befall a person are solely caused by a lack of joy…..

….And though a broken heart is very precious, this should be contained to a specific time. One should set aside a specific time everyday to break one’s heart and express oneself before God, as brought elsewhere. But one should be joyous for the rest of the day. One can more easily fall into depression from a broken heart, than one came become frivolous on account of happiness, for the distance between a broken heart and depression is less.

Therefore, one must be happy at all times, except for the specific time at which one should have a broken heart.

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So, in our hitbodedut, that’s the time to feel all the pain around the Coronavirus scam, all the corruption in Israel and elsewhere, all the evil billionaires, all the blind sheeple, the fact that the Rav is still in prison…

And to even cry about all these things.

But then, the other 23 hours a day, we have to brush ourselves off, and make EVERY EFFORT to pull ourselves out of feeling broken-hearted about the state of the world.

That’s where dancing and clapping come in.

I challenge you to spend even a minute dancing to this, below, and you’ll see how it instantly lifts your mood:

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The spiritual reason for this is that dancing and clapping ameliorates the harsh spiritual judgments at their root, as he explains in Lesson 1:169 of Likutey Moharan:

When there are troubles, whether collectively or personally, it is impossible to dance….

…[A]meliorating judgments is accomplished by a person judging himself. In other words, we must judge and assess ourselves, by ourselves, about everything that we do – for everythingwhether it was appropriate to act like that. We must analyze our actions and improve them appropriately, in line with the law and judgment of the Torah.

By judging and assessing oneself, one ameliorates and nullifies judgment Above, for, “When there is judgment below, there is no judgment Above. And when judgment is ameliorated, the blood leaves the feet, and joy can then spread through them, moving a person to dance.

In other words, the dancing is a type of spiritual short-cut, that ameliorates judgments Above.

And when we can’t dance – or don’t dance – it’s because we are weighed down by spiritual judgments.

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And then, there’s the mila de-shtuta stuff, too.

Rabbenu talks about that in Lesson 2:48 – which is really a beautiful lesson, about not despairing about what’s going on, and not giving up on ourselves, and just continuing to strengthen ourselves again, and again and again, and to not believe that God is rejecting us, and our prayers and our service.

BH, if I have time I will try to copy it out in full below, as an update to this post.

But in the meantime, here’s the nugget that’s most relevant to now:

[L]ive with the lesson in Likutey Moharan 1:282 [aka AZAMRA!], which is to search and seek and find within ourselves some merit, some good point. And with this good point that we find within ourselves, to rejoice and encourage ourselves. We should not give up on what we’ve already attained [spiritually], even if we’ve fallen away from it to wherever we have fallen.

Even so, we should encourage ourselves with the little bit of good that we still find within ourselves, until in this way, we merit to return completely to God, so that all the intentional sins will be transformed to merits (Yoma 86b).

From what the Baal Shem Tov did at sea, when the Evil Inclination tried to confuse him, we can understand how much we must encourage ourselves not to despair of ourselves, no matter what happens to us.

The most important thing is to be happy at all times, making ourselves happy in any way possible, even by means of foolishness, acting like a fool and doing foolish and merry-making things. Or simply jumping and dancing in order to reach joy, which is a very great thing.

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Ad kan, Rabbenu.

I know it’s hard at the moment. I know it’s tough. I’m feeling the strain myself too, believe me. That’s why I keep running off to Kivrei Tzaddikim every day or two, and trying to make an effort to dance for at least 5 minutes most days (but especially when I’m starting to feel down), and also, why I’m giving myself permission to watch videos like this, below (shmirat eynayim friendly).

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Whatever is going to keep my ‘happy’ and functioning, that’s what I’m going to do right now.

Until the evil starts to fall all by itself.

And trust me, dear reader. That point is so much closer than it currently looks.

We just need to hold on a tiny bit longer.

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PS: If you’re emailing me, and I haven’t responded, give me a little time to come back to you. I have a lot on my plate at the mo, so even responding to emails is a little more than I can manage at the moment. Thank you!

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The new book by Rav Berland is out.

I got the steer to get on with it from my visit to Hevron, and now you can buy it in paperback, BH.

But I can’t.

As Amazon is still not delivering to Israel, or at least, they aren’t delivering this book to Israel. I’m working on getting the ebook together, but we all know that it’s not the same, spiritually, as getting a hard copy out there.

So again, if you want the privilege of being the first person to officially print the book in the world, go HERE and order a copy.

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Ah.

I’ve been pretty irritable this week. I guess that’s inevitable. All this uncertainty, all this backwards and forwards between what was, and what is, and what will be.

God is actually being so kind to us, He’s dismantling the gashmius, and the world of lies, in such a gentle fashion, relatively. If you go HERE, you’ll find a point-by-point summary, in English, of the Gemara Sanhedrin 97a, which paints a clear picture of what will be, before Moshiach finally shows up. Here’s some of the key points:

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Truth will go away like Adarim (flocks; Maharsha – people of truth will have to hide).

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Anyone who avoids evil will be considered foolish.

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Ben David will come in a generation in which youths shame elders, and elders stand in front of youths. A daughter reviles and shames her mother, a daughter-in-law shames her mother-in-law, people’s faces resemble that of dogs, and a son feels no shame in front of his father.

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Ben David will come in a generation of great brazenness. People will not honor each other (alternatively – even the most honorable people are crooked), even though many grapes grow, wine is expensive (because grapes do not yield much wine; alternatively, because everyone drinks a lot), the entire kingdom will be Minim, and there is no rebuke. (Ed. note: minim means ‘informers’, specifically people that snitch on other people to the government….)

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Ben David will not come until there are many informers. Alternatively, he will not come until Talmidim diminish, or until people lack money, or until they despair of redemption.

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Let’s take a look at that last one in more detail, shall we?

  1. Moshiach won’t come until ‘there are many informers’ – i.e. people and apps and security services snitching on every single person in the world, all using ‘coronavirus’ as the excuse – CHECK
  2. He won’t come ‘until Talmidim diminish’ – whether that’s kids in schools, or Torah scholars, we can also tick this box. I was just saying to my husband, how very hard it feels at the moment, to even give over some Torah at the Shabbat table. Just feels like wading through treacle, or trying to pull a bunch of wool through a thorn bush. I can’t concentrate so much at the moment, and I usually love sharing Torah, especially awesome Torah from Rabbenu or Rav Berland. But at the moment, I just can’t focus enough to really ‘learn’ anything much. And I know I’m not the only one. – CHECK
  3. He won’t come ‘until people lack money’. I have a feeling this is being sweetened, at least partially. Sure, there are a lot of people who have just been instantly tipped into terrible poverty – as was always the plan – because of the lockdowns. And for those poor people, the heart truly bleeds. I got an email from someone in Latin America who is seeing her friends’ small kids lacking even basic foodstuff, even basic things like milk. That’s hard. It’s really hard.

And then, on a totally different level, there’s the fact that cash is currently being phased out all over the place. You can’t buy a ticket to the Jerusalem Zoo with cash anymore, only card. Ditto the buses. When I go to the supermarket, I often get into disagreements with the cashiers who apparently lack the ‘cash’ in their tills to even give me 10 shekels change for a 100 shekel note.

New World Order, World Economic Forum, ‘Great Reset’, ID2020 – or maybe just God’s way of sweetening what was stated here in the Gemara, we’ll see.

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4. Moshiach won’t come until people despair of redemption.

We’re there, aren’t we? If not personally, than politically, and nationally and globally.

Yeoush is beating hard on most people’s doors right now, and without the power of the Tzaddikim, it’s very hard to stand up in the test.

It’s very hard not to just drown in bitterness, or to ‘disappear’ into never-ending business to keep the anxiety at bay, or to switch off and go into denial about it all.

Very hard indeed.

I was speaking to a relative in the UK yesterday who owns a big business. While they are still doing OK, in terms of revenues, they are probably still heading into administration because of the COVID-19 lockdown, because – like every other service industry business – they realised they don’t need their super-expensive office space anymore.

And so has everyone else.

Which means they can’t get rid of their super-expensive lease, and they can’t get someone else to take it off their hands, and with the economic downturn, the lease by itself is enough to push the business into declaring bankruptcy. She’s barely been out of her house for four months, and she told me that she reckons half the shops will be boarded up anyway, by the time she finally goes shopping again.

There’s no point doing anything, we’re all just in limbo. Who knows if they are going to lock us down again, if there’s a ‘second wave’. It just feels that it’s totally pointless, to try to plan or do anything.

That’s what she told me.

And that’s kind of what most of us are feeling right now:

Apathy. Frustration. Anger. Claustrophobia. Fear. YEOUSH.

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One of my kids’ friends wanted to know why there is all this frozen fruit for smoothies in the freezer, that just isn’t getting used. When I explained that I’m finding it hard to cook because I’m having a mid-life crisis, he told me: Yeah, my mum is too.

I think we all are, in one way or another.

How could we not be, after everything we’ve gone through the last few months, and as the uncertainty continues and the ‘world of lies’ carries on shattering before our very eyes.

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So, here’s my two cents on what God is probably expecting from us, at this really FRUSTRATING, UNCERTAIN AND ANXIETY-INDUCING stage of the geula process:

  1. Avoid all hakpada against other people – hakpada is harsh judgment, holding grudges, thinking the worst about other people, and concentrating on it. Rav Berland recently said this:

IT’S ASSUR (FORBIDDEN) FOR A PERSON TO L’HAKPID (JUDGE HARSHLY) ANY OTHER JEW, EVEN IF HE DOING ALL THE EVIL THINGS.

You know why?

Because we’re just judging ourselves, when we’re judging other people. Whatever we see them doing that annoys us, it’s really just a mirror. So whatever judgment we’re passing on those other people, we’re really just passing it on ourselves.

Isn’t that a scary thought?

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2. Try to dance for at least 10 minutes, every single day. This is still my ‘go to’ advice for getting out of yeoush, especially if you can’t just head out and visit the kever of a tzaddik, or spend 6 hours doing hitbodedut.

3. Buy a copy of Rabbi Berland’s Advice for Success and Happiness – and read it.

I started translating that book in the first place, because it was helping me so much to get out of my yeoush and despair every time I was cracking it open.

This is not a simple period of time we are heading in to, anything but.

We need as much help as we can get to weather the emotional storms still up ahead, and connecting to the true Tzaddikim, via their books and advice, is one of the single biggest things we can do to come through all this in one piece.

When we connect to the tzaddikim, and follow their advice, we are replacing our ‘bad’ thoughts and stupid ideas with their clarity and wisdom. And then, we can stop acting like an out-of-control retard.

Eventually.

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Here’s the link again:

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UPDATE:

This article has absolutely nothing to do with this post, except to show how totally bizarre the world has become – permanent Purim, in fact – and how totally UNcredible practically every single source of ‘news’ now is. I clicked on this by mistake, when I was typing in a different website address, and here’s what came up.

Unbelievable, that this is what passes as ‘news’ today.

Take a look for yourself:

https://www.breakingisraelnews.com/152755/jerusalem-satanists-get-cold-feet-cancel-own-new-world-order-event-during-solar-eclipse/

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This morning, I had a change of plans.

Initially, I was planning to go to Ein Mabua again, to trek through the sparking stream there (while trying to dodge the Arabs and women in revealing bikinis….)

I’m digressing here, but if I learnt one thing at the beach in Palmachim a little while ago, it’s that seeing so much flesh everywhere is actually pretty disturbing, on a number of levels. We aren’t animals, after all, we are created in the tzelem Elokim, the image of God, but it’s very hard to remember that, when someone is shaking their cellulite all over the place.

Anyway, so last minute I had a change of heart, and decided I should hike somewhere ‘holy’ instead.

The weather was gorgeous – sunny, but not too hot and blowing a strong breeze – so I headed off to where Dan ben Yaakov and Shimshon the Gibor are buried, near the Eshtaol forest off Route 44.

I used to go there a lot when I lived in Yad Binyamin, but I don’t go so much these days, not least because the Government wrecked the yeshiva that Rav Arush built there a few years’ back, and all that’s left now is the small, one-roomed kever.

But I was in the mood to hike AND pray, so it’s a perfect destination for that.

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I get there, and the first thing I saw was the mess, everywhere.

People had been BBQ-ing, I don’t know what, used skewers and plastic cups and empty coke bottles all over the place. So I spent the first 2 minutes stuffing whatever I could into an empty plastic bag.

It’s not totally the fault of the BBQ-ers: when the government got rid of the yeshiva, they also got rid of the bins (and the toilets….) so there is no-where to throw the garbage away.

I went in for 5 minutes, sighed a deep sigh, I’m not quite sure why, then headed off up the track to where Shimshon the Gibbor is buried at the top of a hill about a 50 minute walk away.

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I’m doing my hitbodedut, chatting to God about this and that, when suddenly I start thinking about an awful article that appeared on Jpost yesterday, that involved the Rav.

Literally, as my mind flits to that subject, two big white dogs appear on the path in front of me – guarding the boundary of the illegal beduin farmers up on the mountain – and start barking.

Usually, I just stand still and they go away.

This time, the more ‘still’ I stood, the closer they got, and the more aggressive they got, until one of them actually tried to bite me. I was wearing a long dress, so he bit holes in that, instead of my leg, until a beduin teenage boy finally appeared and threw a stone at the dog, to call him off.

Strangely, I wasn’t so scared.

I think that’s because I knew why it happened, while it was happening. Rabbi Nachman teaches in Sefer HaMiddot that:

“One who gossips or who listens to it should be thrown to the dogs” (#17, Gossip and Slander)

Uhoh.

All I did was read the yucky piece on Jpost – and here God was showing me just how dangerous it is, to get involved in even passively reading slander about the Gadol HaDor, even when you don’t believe any of it.

It was a very strong lesson.

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I get to Shimshon HaGibbor, climb the mountain, admire the view, do a bit of praying and writing in my hitbodedut book, then come down again.

At the bottom, in a forested glade, there’s a middle-aged man sitting behind a table spread with drinks and things to eat.

This is the hachnasat orchim stop for Shimshon HaGibbor! He tells me, with a big smile on his face.

Come have a cup of tea, or some water, or a boureka!

The grave of Shimshon is literally in a forest in the middle of nowhere, so I’m impressed – and confused – as to what he’s doing here.

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We get chatting, and he tells me his name is Levi Yitzhak – he’s a descendant of the Berditchever Rebbe, with Chabad tendencies.

He tells me he was doing hachnasat orchim at Kever Dan for a long time, but now, he feels he should do it at the grave of Shimshon instead now.

There’s a lot of kids at Dan’s kever doing drugs now, he tells me, the smile fading from his face.

I don’t know what to tell him.

I think to myself, that wasn’t happening when Rav Arush had a branch of his yeshiva there…

But the government prefers drug addicts to yeshiva bochurs, so what can we do?

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I have some tea – he has a whole gas stove set up there – and light two candles for Shimshon and his father, Manoach.

Then, Levi Yitzhak tells me that he’s organising a Shabbat in the forest by Kever Shimshon ‘for normal people’.

This week.

Do I want to come?

I don’t want to burst his bubble by explaining to him that I probably don’t fit his ‘normali’ criteria, so I take his phone number, thank him for the tea, and head back down the track.

I go the long way around the beduin camp, just to make sure, but there are no dogs on the way back, because now I got the message.

Be really careful about the lashon hara, Rivka, really, really careful!

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The generation has the face of a dog.

We spend so many hours a day stuffing our eyeballs with all the puke-making headlines from the corrupt media, and the spiritually tamei bloggers and Facebook posters.

Hashem should have mercy.

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I’m not going to the forest for Shabbat (I like to have real toilets, spoiled Anglo that I still am).

But it made me feel so happy that there are other people in Israel who are also pinging off that ‘crazy-holy’ vibe.

Slowly, it seems more things are returning to ‘normal’ here now, although that by itself is so strange, if I’m honest.

How can we go through everything we’ve gone through since February, and have things go back to ‘normal’?

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When I was walking up and down that beach in Palmachim, I knew there would have to be another dose of madness, and probably soon, because God doesn’t want to lose a single soul to crass materialism and that empty, secular life.

So, He has to shake things up again.

Probably soon.

And it won’t be how it was last time, because God never does the same exact thing twice.

In the meantime, I sit here trying to straddle ‘normal’ and ‘abnormal’, and ‘geula’ and ‘galut’, and ‘change’ and ‘limbo’ again.

It’s not so easy, is it?

I don’t know if I’m coming or going. But this I do know: I need to savor every second of happiness God is sending me right now, and to be grateful for every last bit of freedom, and comfort, and food and health and gashmius, and ruchnius.

Because who knows what tomorrow brings?

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Photo by Ja San Miguel on Unsplash

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