It’s kinda painful walking around Jerusalem at the moment.
Many people are just staying indoors, where they don’t have to worry about breathing fresh air too deeply, or getting fined enormous amounts for not believing government lies about ‘the most dangerous pandemic in 300 years’, and ‘flattening the curve’.
I’m popping up to Mahane Yehuda market at least twice a week, to try and keep supporting them (and also, because the fruit is just so good there).
It’s a painful experience.
Gone are the crowds, the buzz, the alive vibe.
In its place, there’s a bunch of sombre customers and vendors, in various states of be-maskment. Where I used to try and take my time a bit, look around, now I’m just dashing around with my list, so I can make it back to my car as fast as possible and start to breathe again.
One thing is already obvious:
The economy can’t recover from this.
And of course, that is the whole point of the lockdowns, as you’ll know if you read the comment from Chana a few posts ago, that pointed you here:
So yeah, it’s kind of painful, seeing how the world of lies is collapsing all around, which means that the fruit shakes, the days out to the beach, the weekly visits to Kever Rachel and the Kotel are all currently verboten, or in drastically limited scope and supply.
At the same time, as all the crazy ‘doing’ that characterises modern life is unwinding, and I’m finding myself spending more and more time just ‘being’, I’m noticing a quiet peace that is coming along with that new stage.
After all, I’ve kind of been expecting this for years, so I got my skates on last year and published as many books as I could (13 altogether…) including 10 or 11 for Rav Berland, baruch Hashem.
So I don’t feel like I’m wasting my life right now.
I feel like I’m having a much-needed break, honestly.
But I can see from the people around me, that whoever doesn’t have some form of Torah, mitzvot or even just doing good old kindnesses for others to feel the ‘gap’ left by the implosion of modern life is starting to feel that their lives are totally pointless.
And the worst thing of all is (whisper this):
It’s often true.
All those Starbucks lattes, all that clothes shopping and new handbags, all those fancy holidays to exotic locations, all the money dropped on the latest phones, cars and gadgets – really, what was the point?
Mostly, it was just a distraction from our inner world, a plaster to stick over that gaping sense of loneliness and ‘pointlessness’ that is modern life.
Because when anything comes disconnected away from the soul, from God, then the loneliness, pointlessness and yeoush show up really fast, and really thick.
The world of lies is crumbling all around.
It’s truly a painful process.
And I have to tell you, there are still way more ‘lies’ that need to be exposed and expunged, including within the apparently Torah-observant world, that are going to shake a lot of people’s spiritual core to its foundation.
Part of the reason I’m not writing so much at the moment is partially because I’m engrossed in some very complicated research; and partly because all the stuff that I have already found out is so explosive, when it does come out it’s going to blow the roof off the global Jewish community.
And I don’t want the responsibility for being the one who presses that particular button.
But reassured, God has assigned that job to someone out there, and it’s going to happen probably sooner than later.
How to get through this next stage intact?
Talk to God every single day, preferably for an hour, but at the very least for 5 uninterrupted minutes, with the intention to keep expanding the conversation until you get up to an hour.
There is no other way that you’re going to know your right from your left, your good from your bad, or your real Moshiach from your fake pretender.
There is no other way you’re going to hang on to your soul, when the real revelations about who has been controlling the Jewish community – including the orthodox world – for the last 200 years, and why that’s so bad, start to hit the headlines.
And also, talking to God every day will just make you feel all around happier, calmer and less stressed.
And that’s a tremendous value in and of itself.
God is pulling all the crutches away.
No more Starbucks, no more meals out, no more holidays abroad, no more ‘keeping busy’, socialising or shopping.
He wants us to stop running away – from Him, from the truth, from ourselves – and to just get real.
And while that is the most painful thing of all, it’s also the most fulfilling and meaningful thing any of us can do right now, to prepare ourselves to enter the world of truth.
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